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6/16/2022
ftpverse writing liveblogging i guess but i do love kairi pointing out how absurd the thing sora just said is because like. i DO have to keep her and sora from thinking too hard about it but if the readers overthink it well. no problem there :) just foreshadowing :)
the thing in question btw is "why could only YOU kill him" "magic is weird" "magic is MESSED UP"
which thank god i was actually able to get in i was Afraid
6/15/2022
(ftpverse) obsessed also with sora voice I have literally described something that could have happened between me and riku and had it been riku none of you would be making a fuss so shut the fuck up about my shadow
sora voice if you want to hate him fine but hate him for something he did on purpose not for the thing that happened on accident while he was panicking
6/16/2022
soshad drives me bonkers
[head in hands] killing someone can be an act of love, i guess
((prose from atr ch3))
“Um. He- he couldn’t die,” Sora explained, feeling stupid. It was hard enough to explain this thing he barely understood, let alone explain it around the knot in his chest. “He’d—he said he tried. I know Mickey tried. But—he could only die by my hand, or not at all.”
[...]
“But that’s why- that’s why I did it—even though I didn’t want to.” His chest heaved with a sob. He pressed his palms against his tear-filled eyes. “I didn’t want to. But- but I was the only option he had- I was—how could I deny him that? It felt... it would’ve been cruel...”
He regretted it so much. He regretted—
Not doing it, but that he’d had to.
He would probably do it if it came down to it. Sora didn’t want to kill his Shadow, but to deny him what he wanted—to deny him, and then ask him to do something else; ask him with the leverage that might just make him actually do it, even if he hated it... It just made Sora feel gross. He didn’t want to hold that over his Shadow’s head. He wasn’t that kind of person.
ah. who is in your heart now (studio killers) came on shuffle and gotta say thetonal whiplash (positive) that did to me while wirting this scene was a lot
"People can change, I guess, I just..."
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haha. that'd be a dead giveaway, wouldn't it?
*sinks into chair* *tries not to cry* th-this chapter............... is the worst
