#atrosushi

[awestruck-atrophy]

partner and I have developed this thing called “evil meow” wherein when one of us (usually me) gets disproportionately angry or upset over something that Does Not Matter (thanks BPD!) they get to yell or growl “evil meow” in a scary voice. this works great as this is both a) a release of the yelling/anger spike that I so desperately want to do and simultaneously b) silly and absurd and hurts no one’s feelings.

so this leads to me very frequently just standing in the kitchen going “evil meow!!!:.. gr………Evil Meow…. “

[edmond-monet]

and I would rip myself apart for you,

crack open my ribcage and let you

take whatever you wanted.

but you have been teaching me

that you do not need me to,

that I do not need me to.

[awestruck-atrophy]

what if I loved you. what if I loved you so much it hurt oh my GOD what if I loved you

[awestruck-atrophy]

guys my partner got a mild concussion this morning and told me they’d seen news coverage of the library of Alexandria burning down back in 2018. turns out it was notre dame but wow I was pretty sure some pissed off ancient egyptian ghost was possessing them for a second

[edmond-monet]

suspended in a bubble of hiraeth

the tear frozen on my cheek

in the subzero sunlight,

my home is a person,

and they are too far from me

[awestruck-atrophy]

me: *takes a bite out of a block of cream cheese*

partner: *with evident disgust* you’re so cute

[awestruck-atrophy]

[edmond-monet]

i know what i want now

i didn’t before

i want cold mornings and leaves that crunch under our feet.

I want warm blankets.

I want a house in the woods.

I want clean air and sunshine and my own means of living.

a hand to hold, someone to confide in

I want to be loved; but I most of all,

I want to be loved by you.