Earlier today, I suddenly remembered about having a decoy crush when I was younger. I would tell my friends that I liked this guy, but in reality I actually liked another guy in that friend group. I I would ask things about my decoy crush and it gave me an excuse to ask fish for information about my actual crush because they're always together. That decoy crush is now married and the guy that I liked is still single. I thought of him tonight again after a long time. I don't think he's ever like me like I liked him, and I also promised myself never to chase after someone who does not like me. Once upon a time, I really longed for him to notice me, but as I mature, I realise my worth and I let go of things that don’t choose me.
I know it’s a bit silly, but I was also young and awkward and unsure about a lot of things. I just thought it was pretty funny. I wonder how things would have been if I had been more confident and told the guy I liked that I liked him. Oh well…
