#autodidacticxgenius

[jenniferxjareauxbauarchive-blog]

"I should not have let you go." [ omg this could totally be a little while after their football date and he's regretting not asking her out again or something ]

Should have never let mego. He regrets letting me go? This has been a dreamof hers ever since after thedate to the Redskins game. "You regret not being with me?"A stupid question to ask becausehe had just said the words but JJfelt like she should ask again because one could swear thatshe was just hearing things.

[derekanthonymorgan-blog]

My muse pushed your muse out of the line of fire and is hit. How

does your muse react? What do they do?

          [ It's wrong—all wrong. This... this shouldn't be happening. It             shouldn't. He should be the one laying on that stretcher—not Reid.             God, not Reid. Not Spencer. And it's this thought that repeats             itself over and over again—that drills itself into every neuron—that             fills his cortex until he can do nothing but cave. Buckle. ]

          [ His hands are tight around one of Spencer's and his vitals are             fluctuating and he knows the EMTs are doing everything they can.             They are. They are and he's going to be fine—he has to             be fine—but what if he's not and—and God, it should have been             him. It should have been him. He's disposable. Spencer isn't. He             leans down and simultaneously brings Spencer's hand up, resting             his forehead against it—and then his chin so that he can look up,             his vitals fluctuating again and sending the machine into a minor             frenzy—he can't breathe, can't swallow, and his eyes are burning             and he's trying to blink it away because he needs to be strong.             He needs to be strong for him. ]           [ And then his hands are on Spencer's face moments later when his             vitals take another unexpected drop, heart-rate nearly a line and the             EMTs are yelling and he's patting Spencer's cheek, shifting so he isn't             in the way. His hands are trembling and he's trying not to cry             because dammit—he needs to be strong.]           [ But he knows it's obvious in his voice, rough and gutted. ]

                           “No.                       Come on, Spencer.              Spencer! Stay with me.                              Come on, kid.                                       I've got you.                  Come on!”

[derekanthonymorgan-blog]

autodidacticxgenius replied to your post:amillionmuses reblogged your post and added: THIS...

just wait until i reply, omg it’ll be the best ever times infinity

//Yes. Yes it will be. <3<3

[derekanthonymorgan-blog]

//It's been decided.

I've deleted all of my drafts.

And I'm dropping all of my old threads unless someone really wants to continue (with the exception of the few I started with eidetic187, autodidacticxgenius, and dexiisms today).

I'll probably do the same with spencercadenreid's account sometime this week. IDK.

But yes. So. If there's really a thread you'd like to continue, please let me know!

Otherwise, please feel free to tag me in a new one or send me an ask meme or two to get me inspired again.

I'm probably going to be making that relationship page sometime yet tonight, too. So let me know if you want to be added to it...

And my apologies if we've RP'd before and you're not tagged in this. I just reformatted my laptop because adware was pissing me off and I can't remember everyone's tags and tumblr no longer fills them in for me. ):

[derekanthonymorgan-blog]

autodidacticxgenius answered your question “//I want to roleplay… but don’t know where my muse is. Would anyone...”

I don't know where my muse is either.. I'm tempted to just quit but at the same time......sigh and I really wanna make a dexter morgan muse halp

//NO QUITTING. None. None. Start over if you need to... but please don't quit because your writing is brilliant and your Spencer is brilliant and sigh. Just. No. ):

[protectiism]

autodidacticxgenius;

 ❛hey, reid ! pretty sure that's called     cheating. i win. again. ❛

[derekmxrganbau]

♔ {kinda scared but here goes!}

Send a ‘♔’ for a blog rate on your…

URL: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5Theme: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5Content: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5Characterization: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5Do we rp?: Yes | NoWould I rp with you?: Yes | NoWhy I followed: Because Spencer and love and yes. I like all Spencers okay. Why you should follow them: Because perfection, okay? Go follow. Do it now. Derek commands you.Tips to Improve (from the theme to posts): The theme is really gray but that’s seriously the only thing I can even think of to put here so don’t even read into it. You are amazing, okay? Okay. Final Thoughts: I. Want. To. RP. With. You. Okay? Okay. Please. 

[derekanthonymorgan-blog]

PSA

Roleplaying is supposed to be fun. I love writing with so many different muns and muses and variations of. It's fantastic and inspirational. That being said, my motivation occasionally wanes. My inspiration comes and goes and if you try guilting me into making this feel more like a responsibility and less like a hobby, it's going to be harder to get it back.

Thank you to every mun (and muse) that show patience.  Even concern. It's very much appreciated because I can make myself feel guilty enough for not getting replies out in a timely manner without anyone's help, thank you very much.

I understand how easy it is to think that it's personal. But it's not. Sometimes I'm inspired by specific people and muses or threads. Sometimes I have no inspiration what so ever and I'd rather wait until I do, so my writing isn't forced and my muse isn't bitchy.

I'd say I'm sorry but I'm not. Life happens and my life does not, solely, exist behind this laptop despite how many of my friends might think otherwise.

So again. A huge thank you to all of those muns and muses that are patient and understanding. You're amazing and know that the understanding is returned. I understand that you all have lives too and if any of you ever need to talk, I'm here.