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insomnia - gerard x reader
summary: Reader is having a bad case of insomnia and the inability to fall asleep is taking a toll on them mentally and physically. Gerard has been there before; he often struggling with insomnia when he’s stressed, so he’s quick to comfort them when it gets to be too much.
a/n: hi omg ur so sweet!! I wrote this while listening to sleep on repeat 13 times 🥹 hopefully this is good.. (edited: also after writing this i realized maybe you wanted gerard to be the one hurt and then comforted.. i genuinly have no clue…)
warnings: insomnia? idek man 🥀
word count: 974
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You turn over in the bed more times than you can count. You’ve been trying to sleep since around midnight, to no avail. Running a hand over your face, you sit up with a deep sigh. It takes you a moment to gather your thoughts, swaying softly with exhaustion.
You glance at the small alarm clock you kept on the nightstand, hoping that more time had past then what it seemed.
1 AM
The display on the clock flickered ever so slightly, feeling as if it was mocking you. You reach over and put it face down, you didn’t even want to think about the time.
After a few moments of contemplation, you decided that making coffee was the only slightly appealing thing to you right now. Sure, it wouldn’t help you sleep, but it would help you less like a member of the walking dead.
You quietly slide out of bed, though despite your gentle movements it creaks loudly. You glance at Gerard to make sure the sound hadn’t woken him up. His sleeping form looked so peaceful and content, god you were jealous.
It had been days of getting little to no sleep, it was a miracle if you could get over two hours of sleep recently, and the lack of sleep was becoming evident. Your eyes hung heavy, even the concealer you used in an attempt to cover your eye bags was of no use anymore, you moved slower as every movement took 10x the amount of effort, and there was this constant headache that wouldn’t seem to go away.
Once you go to fully stand, your knees are weak. You were so exhausted that you could barely hold yourself up but regardless decide to push through. You stumble forward almost falling but luckily catching yourself on the wall.
“Shit..” you mumble under your breath.
You hear a soft shifting behind you and turn just in time to see Gerard sitting up.
“Is everything alright, my love?” he mumbles softly, his voice filled with worry despite his obvious exhaustion.
“I’m fine.. go back to sleep.” you tell him softly as you try to give him a smile, you didn’t want him to worry about you. You were fine. It was just a little bit of sleep you were missing, you’d get through it.
He hums, clearly not believing you, but reluctantly laying back down knowing you were stubborn and would rather suffer than ever admit needing help. You sigh softly in relief as he lays back down and attempt to walk towards the door. Although after only a few steps, you stumble again, this time catching yourself on the dresser.
He quickly sits up as he’s startled fully awake by the noise, rubbing his eyes.
“Okay, nope, you’re not okay” he calls you out. As soon as he is awake enough to be in full control of his body he’s up and at your side, helping you stand.
“Please just tell me what’s wrong, i can help.” he says, studying your face with concern.
“I—.. it’s nothing really. i just can’t sleep that’s all.” you mumur. You didn’t want to be honest about the effect it was having on you, it would make you seem weak. It was beginning to make you feel insane, sleeping was a basic human need that everyone did and now all of a sudden you struggled with it.
Gerard looks into your eyes, like he can tell that there’s more to the story that you wouldn’t let up.
“Oh, honey..”, he says so sweetly and full of love it takes everything in you not to open your right then and there, “you don’t have to be strong.. i get it, trust me i do.. i’m here for you. you can always tell me what’s going on.”
As soon as you hear his words your facade collapses and you melt into his touch, your head falling onto his shoulder as the smallest tears fall.
“I’m just so exhausted.. i can’t sleep and i feel like im going insane,” you cry out. Gerard hand find your back, rubbing slow affectionate lines up and down your spine with his finger tips.
“Shh, shh.. it’s okay,” he comforts, “You’re gonna be fine just take a deep breath.” he begins taking deep breaths, waiting for you to join him.
After a few shaky breaths you start to breathe with him, your tears halting and heart rate slowing. “See? that’s slightly better already.. let’s get you into bed.” he says as he brings you over to your bed. he helps you climb in, slotting himself right next to you.
His fingers continue their soft journey up and down your arm, the move involuntarily but calming. He begins talking in a low voice, “I struggle with insomnia a lot.. mostly when tour is stressful- or i can’t make a song the way it is in my head,” he lets out a quiet laugh, “but.. what always helps me is someone holding me and talking to me until i fall asleep. So just close your eyes, and relax. you’re safe here, i’ve got you.” he whispers to you softly.
You relax into him slowly, feeling more and more tired as time continues.
“If you are ever struggling with something like this, i want you to tell me.. i want nothing but the best for you. You don’t have to pretend to be okay around me. Okay? I’ll never judge you or.. think your weak for needing help.” he continues to ramble sweet reassurances into your ear, subconsciously pulling you closer.
He moves your hair out of your face as you begin to fall asleep. “I’ll be here when you wake up.” is the last thing you hear before you finally fall asleep.
Gerard presses a soft kiss to your head, admiring your peaceful sleeping.
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i just realized how many commas i use.. thanks for reading :)