Dear future me,Heyyyy bitch. What’s up? Just wanted to pop in and say a few corny words of encouragement, which I’m sure you’ll want/need to hear at some point. For starters, I love you, even though I’m your biggest critic. We need to be easier on ourselves, because we have so many amazing qualities that others can see. I’m sure you’re doing fine, even though you’re worrying that you’re not. I know that now we wake up every morning wondering why life has been this way for us. I know you’re hurting and not as happy as you used to be. I know you think that your destiny is to be miserable, and to suffer at the happiness of others. I know we’re asking why we had to go through what we’ve gone through so young. The pain we’ve suffered, the loneliness, and feeling as though we’re some hollow shell. Almost like our youth has been sucked out of us; like we’ve been smashed head first into adulthood at the mere age of 20. But I’m sure by now you are kicking ass and taking names. I can’t guarantee our future, but I sure hope it’s better than life now. I truly hope the fight is worth it in the end. I hope you and I will be proud of me now and the work I’m putting in for you in the future. And most of all, I hope we’re happy. I just want us to be happy again. I know it’s hard, and we’ve been cynical lately. I know I’ve been hardcore missing mom lately, and it’s been hurting our heart. Hopefully you’re better at keeping yourself in high spirits than me. Because on the outside I’m smiling, but some days make me feel like all of the energy is being sucked out of me. Like, everyone my age has so many more opportunities than myself. They have parents that love and take care of them. I have myself to take care of now, and myself to love. It would just be nice to have someone to lean on for once. But, we’re going to be okay. We’re getting the hard shit out of the way now, so hopefully we’ll be above the curve. What I’m trying to say is, I hope something works out for us. We’ve been through a lot, and I’m sure you’ll go through much more than me now. But we’re in this together, girl. I love you so much, and I’m so proud of where we’ve come, and where we’re going to go. We deserve some happiness, so let’s fucking get it, okay? You and me. And you better be eating healthy and going to the gym you whore btw! I’ve got your back, and I always will. I hope I don’t disappoint you. Love you very much. We’re the best. Stay strong and keep chugging along. <3 - Me/You 2/24/16