#avenger effect

[spectrewolf]

‘ I always have time for you. ’

Mass Effect Sentence Starters [Accepting!]

“You have your own life t’ live, liebchen. I’m not going to monopolize all of your time. You’d get absolutely sick of me if we were always around each other 24/7 even if it sounds like paradise. But... the sentiment... it goes the same for you, Nat. I hope y’know that. You are so fucking important to me.” 

[spectrewolf]

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“That’s kind o’ the problem. I don’t even understand. I don’t understand doing worse than dosin’ a kid. I don’t understand makin’ them take the equivalent of nuclear baths simply so you can have some kind of secret weapon in street wars that don’t even fucking matter and never will matter. I don’t fucking understand treatin’ a human being like a fucking commodity, like an inanimate object. I don’t understand why it had to be me. There were plenty of other kids my age it could have happened to but it had to be me. There was only me. They weren’t experimenting, they were simply doing shit that sounded like it would fucking work. There is not one single person like me. There is only me! I’m the only one who got their fucking number drawn.”

“All I understand is that monsters created another one and I’ve been chasin’ my humanity ever since.” 

[spectrewolf]

Shaking her head, Nat knelt down to take the label off of her girlfriend's mouth. "You know, I think this is a sign that you shouldn't go off on your own without me again."

A slight grimace overcame her at the words, enough for her to ignore the stinging that came with having tape remove a good portion of hair from your face "Why did I know you were goin' t' say somethin' like that? Y'gonna untie me too or are y'havin' more fun sayin' I told you so?"

[spectrewolf]

toxichourglass   

An azure stare fixed itself on the tall brunette, the shorter woman’s brows furrowing. Throughout the entire time that Natasha had known Shane, she had never thought she was a monster. Hearing those words from her was strangely comforting, but at the same time, it hurt.

Shane was not a monster.                                                         Natasha believed that she herself was one.

Walking up to the brunette, the redhead gently rested her hands on her shoulders, her eye’s still fixed on Shane’s red hues. “You’re not a monster, Shane. But me? I— If you knew even a tenth of the things I’ve done, you would think I am one.”

There was silence for a moment or two as the Commander stared back down at the spy. At the woman she had been close to for a year or so now. The woman she knew as well as she knew herself. Slowly a hand rose and she cupped one side of Natasha's face, thumb brushing along her cheek. 

"I could say the same thing about myself. There are some things that I've done that have been kept under wraps because they are that heinous. I killed millions in one single action. I have ripped troopers apart with my bare hands. I am a monster. I am the scary story you tell to children to convince them to behave. I didn't earn the Scarred Wolf moniker because of simple loyalty. I am a wild animal when I get the blood pumping. You're not a monster. I have done a lot of things that I can't even start to describe without fearing you'll leave me. And I can't handle that. I couldn't handle you leaving," she said. Her voice was thick with emotion, something akin to fear laced in her words. 

Slowly her head dropped until she was resting her forehead against Natasha's. 

"The only solace I can take is that I'm not the person who did that wholesale slaughter. Not anymore, anyways," she said. She chewed on her lower lip a moment. 

"I'm sorry, 'Tasha. There are so many times I've had to go off on my own because of the blood lust and the fact I never want to hurt you."

[spectrewolf]

(avenger verse) do you feel better knowin' that natasha has better chances of protectin' herself after gettin' biotics? or does that worry you even more?

Yes and no. 

I know she can take care o' herself but that doesn't mean I won't worry. Do I worry more? Only insofar that I worry that her biotics will blow up in her face, as it were. I know how hard it is to keep in control o' biotics. No matter how helpful they are in battle.

In the end, I trust her and she knows I'll be there in case anythin' happens. S'only thing I can do when she has her mind set on somethin', like getting the biotics in the first place.

Tho I also can't help the fact I'll probably blame myself if something happens to her during battle. 

[spectrewolf]

Welcome Home, 'Tasha

While it could be said that Shane shouldn't miss someone she was in contact with constantly, she'd be the first to say you were dead wrong. She had missed Tasha more than anything in the galaxy. Sometimes while on missions she'd find herself trying to raise the spy on the comm only to receive nothing. 

But now, finally, it was time for Natasha to return to the Normandy. Everyone's home away from home. She had grown very close to the woman, something she had tried not to do simply because of the war and the fact she couldn't be sure if Natasha would return to her own time. 

Docked on the Citadel, Shane waited for the woman to turn up. From what she'd heard, Natasha had healed exceptionally well and her biotics had come in rather strongly, perhaps even as strong as Miranda Lawson's or Shane's herself. 

When the woman appeared as the elevator opened, Shane's face broke out into a wide smile and she quickly closed the distance before enveloping the woman into a hug. She felt the familiar jolt from two biotics coming into contact. She didn't mind it. She was glad for it. 

"Я скучал по тебе," she murmured. She pulled away a little to peer down at the woman, tilting her head.

"Got your revised dossier this mornin'. Welcome back t' the Normandy," she said. She looked the newly made sentinel up and down, grinning. Her hand rose and she gently tucked a few stray strands of hair behind the other woman's ear.

[spectrewolf]

What do you plan on doing with your favorite Avenger when the war is over?

Heh. *she shifts her weight, rubbing the back of her neck*

Anythin' 'Tasha wants t' do, really. I'll take her around Earth, o' course. Let her see th' differences between her time an' mine. It might come as a shock t' her. If she hasn't studied vids in her spare time. 

Then... hell, who knows? I hope whatever brought her here doesn't take her back t' her time when the war ends. But it doesn't feel like one o' those destiny things where she was meant t' come here t' fight in th' war. 

*the Commander looks away* Hopefully... hopefully th' things I've done won't cause a splintering. I really hope she sticks around. I've grown too attached for my own good, I think. Heh. Couldn't be helped, I s'pose. Her comp'ny has helped me quite a bit.

An' there'll definitely be some biotic trainin' in her future. I won't go easy tho, she doesn't have t' worry about that. 

[spectrewolf]

toxichourglass hat auf deinen Eintrag geantwortet: Natasha pulled out her omnitool, typing up a message to Shane since she was still confined to a bed after the surgery to get her biotics. “I wasn’t able to get you anything since I’m stuck in one place and under orders to not move much, but happy birthday, Shane. Kick ass for both of us while I’m in here.”

“Just wanted to tell you happy birthday, that’s all. I’m a little sore after the procedure, but other than that, I feel great. I think they’re keeping an eye on me more than some of the others here.” She replied, taking a deep breath.

"Well so long as you're feelin' okay. That's all I want, really. Knowin' you're all right in this war means a lot. And, probably. You're still a pretty big unknown to this time. Y'know? Get some rest, друг." She smiled a little bit.