#WhySheDisappeared When she fell, #SheFellApart Cracked her bones on the pavement she once decorated as a child with sidewalk chalk When she crashed, her clothes disintegrated & blew away with the winds that took all of her #fairweatherfriends When she looked around, her skin was spattered with ink forming the words of a thousand voices #EchoesSheHeardEvenInHerSleep #WhatEverYouSayItIsNotRight #WhateverYouDoItIsNotEnough #YourKindnessIsFake #YourPainIsManipulative When she lay there on the ground, she dreamed of #TimeMachines and #Revenge and a love that was really something, #NotJustTheIdeaOfSomething When she finally rose, #SheRoseSlowly #AvoidingOldHaunts and side stepping shiny pennies #WaryOfPhoneCalls and #Promises Charmers, dandies & get love quick schemes When she stood, #SheStoodWithADesolateKnowingness #WadedOutIntoTheDarkWildOceanUptoHerNeck #BathedInHerBrokenness Said a prayer of gratitude for each chink #InTheArmourSheNeverKnewSheNeeded Standing broad shouldered next to her was a love that was really something Not just the idea of something When she turned to go home She heard echoes of new words May your heart remain breakable #ButNeverByTheSameHandTwice And even louder: #WithoutYourPast You could never have arrived So wondrously & #Brutally #ByDesign or some violent, exquisite happenstance ...here #AndInTheDeathOfHerReputationSheFeltTrulyAlive @taylorswift I wish this was just a poem & not my reality or yours...I am still on the ground, cracked & broken, waiting to rise...my heart & body might be broken, but my eyes & ears are open & I hear what the masses are saying & see what they have concluded...I’m finally getting what I deserve...how anyone could “deserve” pain in any form baffles me, I haven’t even wished it upon anyone...but, if you believe it & are revelling in the pain of a story you don’t even know....the door is over there...I think we are done...the weight of you is pinning me to the ground & I need to rise, my babies need me to rise...please take your opinion, your judgement & dark hearts with you. https://www.instagram.com/p/BqqdIb2A1rL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zgsx30tb9h05