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Trying to change who I am, every little part. Covering all the wounds with plaster so they look brand new. Styling my hair differently, putting on different lipstick in the mirror. All the glam. Looking in the mirror I look at my lips to apply the lipstick. Just to notice I still bite the inside of my mouth the same way.

Some parts of you never change.

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My English teacher is soo nice! Love her!

My friend and I were discussing how she talks like a woke Tumblr user. So, obviously, we asked her. Turns out she used Tumblr while growing up. I don't understand it, but I can just tell by her humour and how she talks. She is the woke nice English teacher.

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Wearing mismatched pyjamas today —not the ones I slept in. I often get out of bed and then change into other pyjamas. I don't own many pyjamas; I only have about three pairs. I just count pyjamas as any comfy clothes. I think my mismatched pyjamas are showing where I am in my headspace today...

How I view myself changes a lot, goes along with the kind of headspace I am in. Before I was in a kind of functional-sad headspace, now I am feeling more calm? I don't know. Had a weird day yesterday, I think that's what triggered this.

So yeah, my pyjamas —well all my clothes really. Show what kind of mind frame I'm in. For reference, I'm wearing some cutesy-fun bottoms with bows on them. The top I designed myself, a black top with draw-on bleached bugs. So yeah, might redesign my life.

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When you have a pet, you sometimes have to help them out. Because we domesticated them into a world made for humans, we have to help them.

For example, I helped out my dog today. I let her lick what was left of the peanut butter tub, but she couldn't get to the bottom of the tub. So, I scoop what was left of it and let her have it. It was a really good bonding moment between my dog and me.

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I don't understand people with glasses. What do you mean you forgot your glasses? How did you not notice the big difference of you without them? What do you mean you misplaced your 400 dollar, one pair of the thing that makes you able to see? How? How does this keep happening? Did you not think it important to remember not to forget them a second time?

I bought my mum a chain for her glasses so she could wear them as a necklace.. She still loses them.

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For some reason my Canadian phone -because surprise I am Canadian. Was in English U.S, why was it like that? I mean, it was probably like that due to it being made there maybe? I just think that is really annoying. Really stupid and annoying. Plus I hate that it's like that.

Side rant:

English U.S can look really silly to me, it's just that sometimes it looks wrong. I mean I've written Canadian English my whole life, so of course it looks "wrong". It is the particular words that use an S instead of a C, or when they only put one L instead of two, and of course when they don't put a U; sometimes I can be okay with not putting a U, but other times it just looks so weird to me.

Examples of words I find weird (American spelling): Defense, Traveled, flavor.

No offence to any Americans reading, none to my American moots. Of course it is going to look a little off to me because I've just grown up with Canadian English.

Another side rant..

I mean Canadian English is such a mess. I've met people who use more American spelling compared to British or the other way around. It's not particularly improper to use a more American spelling. It’s not how Canadian English is suppose to be -or so I've been told... But it is so hard to keep track of, and no one really enforces or teaches you which way is "proper". I mean only a few years back I learn that spelling gray was an American thing, and Canadians are supposed to spell it grey. I mean, I did spell it grey, it was my friend who didn't.. that's just something I learned. So yeah, Canadian English is a mess and no one enforces our spelling. We can spell however we like I guess? Though as a kid I was told that British English is more proper? Teachers told me they don't care though.

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When you are dying of period cramps but your situation ship let's you eat corn twists in his bed.

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You know you've changed when your vent is making noises that used to send you spiralling into psychosis. Now you're just like, ah yes, my vent is struggling again.