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Weird shit plus my health era

[ennover]

Haven't been on here in a hot minute.

Haven't been doing anything in a hot minute.

I have BPD, it's a pain in the ass. I have been diagnosed and struggling for a long time. I go through phases of trying to fix myself, then distracting myself, then collapsing, again to distracting, then to fixing. Endless loop of this really. I think I'm back to my more "stable" version. This is an endless battle.

[empire-of-light]

if any of you fuckers put that new Harry Potter show on my dash I am blocking your ass

[ennover]

Just so you know, I still bite the inside of my mouth, I still bite my lips, I still hum the same tunes, I still sigh when deep in thought, and I occasionally bite my nails. I don't bite my nails as much anymore, so that's new. Another new habit of mine is that I now twirl my hair. I started doing it out of boredom, then I remembered my sister used to always do it as well. Now every time I twirl my hair I miss my sister. I still tap my feet or tap my hands rhythmically when waiting impatiently... I don't rub my eyes as much anymore.

I just wanted you to know. Wanted you to know that some things about me haven't changed that much. So maybe if you ever see me again, you'll still be able to recognize me.

[ennover]

Trying to change who I am, every little part. Covering all the wounds with plaster so they look brand new. Styling my hair differently, putting on different lipstick in the mirror. All the glam. Looking in the mirror I look at my lips to apply the lipstick. Just to notice I still bite the inside of my mouth the same way.

Some parts of you never change.

[ennover]

When the medication isn't helping and you feel the world collapsing.

[mentallylivingin2000s]

All you do on this app is cry and complain

what else is tumblr for bitch god forbid a girl be annoying on the internet

[crokitheloki]

everyone say thank you ao3 volunteers you're the best ao3 volunteers ily ao3 volunteers

[ennover]

Thank you ao3 volunteers

[ennover]

My English teacher is soo nice! Love her!

My friend and I were discussing how she talks like a woke Tumblr user. So, obviously, we asked her. Turns out she used Tumblr while growing up. I don't understand it, but I can just tell by her humour and how she talks. She is the woke nice English teacher.

[ennover]

Redoing my Tumblr! I might redo my intro post, I don't know yet. I'm trying to find something that feels me? It turns out to be really hard to do that, especially when your view of yourself is always changing. So stay tuned!

[ennover]

Wearing mismatched pyjamas today —not the ones I slept in. I often get out of bed and then change into other pyjamas. I don't own many pyjamas; I only have about three pairs. I just count pyjamas as any comfy clothes. I think my mismatched pyjamas are showing where I am in my headspace today...

How I view myself changes a lot, goes along with the kind of headspace I am in. Before I was in a kind of functional-sad headspace, now I am feeling more calm? I don't know. Had a weird day yesterday, I think that's what triggered this.

So yeah, my pyjamas —well all my clothes really. Show what kind of mind frame I'm in. For reference, I'm wearing some cutesy-fun bottoms with bows on them. The top I designed myself, a black top with draw-on bleached bugs. So yeah, might redesign my life.

[kosmogrl]

[ennover]

Because they hate us.

[pastabuilt]

[byjove]

has anyone ever noticed that really misogynistic men will neg women and scrutinize their bodies but have a meltdown if their dick is criticized? telling your girl you’re not attracted to her A cup boobs and making fun of her labia is fine but if she mentions their dick is small and not as satisfying as a previous sexual partner, they want her crucified for body-shaming and bulling them and hurting their feelings oh so badly. and it is kind of a trump card because women are so used to having their bodies and their sexual appeal criticized and tied to their self worth that they can stomach these comments far better than a man who has just been informed his penis is slightly smaller than preferable. it’s a low blow but it’s so difficult to feel bad for them if they’ve been dishing it out

[byjove]

this is also my response to unsolicited dick picks. penis review. I told a guy his crooked penis looked unhealthy and I think he’s still stewing over it. never would have had to hear that if he did not do the electronic equivalent of flashing me.

[llynquennel]

This seems a perfectly normal response to an unwanted dick pic. "Oh, I thought you were submitting the photograph for peer review. And my review is to go see a doctor, because that is concerning."

[byjove]

“Yeah man, didn’t mean to hurt your feelings, I thought it was like when you email your buddies a picture of a scab to see if they think it looks infected too.”

[ennover]

THIS

[byjove]

wym you were divorced and remarried two years later? did you not learn your lesson the first time?????

[ennover]

I did not learn my lesson... um.....

[pastafossa]

"If only there was a way other than AI to talk to my favorite characters and OCs!"

[vergils-beloved]

selfshipping is cool when you're 13 and it's also cool when you're 40. everyone should selfship forever

[ennover]

I love selfshipping. How else am I supposed to smooch my favourite characters?

[ennover]

When you have a pet, you sometimes have to help them out. Because we domesticated them into a world made for humans, we have to help them.

For example, I helped out my dog today. I let her lick what was left of the peanut butter tub, but she couldn't get to the bottom of the tub. So, I scoop what was left of it and let her have it. It was a really good bonding moment between my dog and me.