tagged by @awaylaughing and I have IN FACT actually got new sentences for the first time in a million years!
Dimension 20 / The Unsleeping City (Esther Sinclair My Beloved) so like, I do not know how many people who follow me will have the slightest recognition of Esther in Very Strict Denial For [spoilers] Reasons? But here we go.
/this is literally her POV in the s1 intro episode tho, so if you wanna figure out what she's talking about it won't take that long? 😅😅😅
Ricky is live on NY1.
Ricky clearly just took his mask off, a distinctive smear of sweat and soot across his forehead, a little girl hugging her teddy bear in his arms, and Esther has to close her eyes and emphatically Not Think About Anything for a moment.
Esther can hear the reporter doing a 'New York's Bravest' spiel, a tone in her voice that makes it clear she knows exactly how good he's going to look on camera, and Esther isn't sure if the reporter's lusting after a handsome hero bit for her talent reel or just lusting in general because Ricky is, well, Ricky.
But then Ricky's talking about fire safety and asking about the type of camera they use and the startled note in the reporter's voice as she's realizing she's totally lost control of her interview makes Esther laugh. Ricky is so very Ricky, after all.
(Esther is honestly a little surprised that Ricky didn't follow them in order to remind the viewers how to check their smoke alarm batteries regardless of the reporter and camera man trying to move on.)
no pressure tagging anyone who's writing! IDK! I'm bad at social atm, but pls blame me if you see this and wish to play along?
I poked around for an answer but couldn't find one. So, in the interest of science do demigods typically age more like a human, or more like a god? Does this vary between demigods who live on Olympus vs the mortal world, or just vary individually?
Thanks for the question! Most of what you're looking for is here.
Demideities tend to vary individually in their aging patterns, and even in whether they're immortal. Living 'as a deity' (e.g. on Olympus or in the Underworld) tends to confer immortality, whereas those born and raised in the mortal realm tend to be mortal (though may have significantly more longevity and age more slowly than those around them, depending on various factors).
"things fictional couples do that make me lose my mind" - prompt #7 - dealer's choice on the couple
I have no idea why but this ended up as Affairs of the Court fic with my MC Ana and Luis de Vega. It has been more than a year since I replayed the game and this is probably wrong on many levels but I had a good time writing it?
Because of Who I Am As A Person it’s like 1.7k words so it takes a long time getting where it’s going. Oops.
I don’t know what’s going on.
Post-game so this is Spoilers for Everything.
7. dancing together, one of them takes the other’s hand, kisses it
She wonders if the court notice a difference, if they see the change in her. Magdalena plainly sees some alteration, of course, but Magdalena sees her in private. Magdalena knows her better than most. Magdalena has the dual securities of being blood kin and sharing complicity in treason, which together offer an alliance secure enough to justify a lowering of masks.
So yes, it is very likely that Magdalena notices in part the way widowhood has freed her, finally, from the constant, careful balancing act that has worn away at her for years. Sees that she is happier and more relaxed now, with Augustin and his eldest son both dead.
Magdalena may suspect Ana had something to do with the King’s death, but she is a good sister; if she has suspicions, she never hints at them. What she doesn’t know, she cannot betray.
And what she does not know cannot trouble her sleep.
She doesn’t know about Tomas. Ana cannot bear to tell anyone of that, not now. Not yet. Someday, she may be able to remember it without trembling with rage and the desperate desire to cast Death Curses until she burns through the last of her power and is left scraped clean inside. Someday is not today.
--
In public, she must still pretend to a degree of mourning she cannot feel through the impossible weightlessness of relief. Free; free of Augustin, for the first time since she was just a child herself; free of Tomas and the threat of a thousand things even worse than her own death; free of the threat of privation and the weight of expectations that must be met.
Free.
She does pretend at gravity and sorrow. She cannot afford to do otherwise.
But in her chest is something light and fluttering, flying, free.
--
There is a period before the investiture in which she is very busy and must appear not to be, in which Luis is indispensable and she tries very hard not to look at him for more than a moment at a time. She does not have time to think about that night, what might have been. What might, just possibly, yet be.
Iberia does not have time for her to think on it.
But in the evening, taking her hair down, she is surprised to see a girl she recognizes in the mirror, rather than the strained stranger of the last several months (years). She looks younger; stress lines around her eyes are not so deep, and she needs less cosmetic artistry to cover the dark circles of insufficient sleep. Years’ worth of tight-wound tension finally unspooled from her shoulders give her a softness she’s never seen on herself as a grown woman.
She is impossibly busy, but she is no longer drowning.
--
The first insinuating offers were, she had assumed, because she is soon to be Regent. Because she is soon to be Regent, she can pretend not to notice them; no one may take offense, and no one has the power to push or to insist. Tomorrow she will officially become the greatest power in Iberia. For the rest of her life, if things go according to plan, she will be the Queen Mother. She will never be powerless again.
She sold herself very dearly, the first time. No one would have called it that, but she knew what it was. Knows what is being hinted at, now, when people approach. So she keeps her face remote and polite and oblivious, and settles in to wait it out; eventually, if she is a blank wall for long enough, it will become understood by all but the most insipid idiots that she means to refuse them all.
And she does, truly, only--
But he has said nothing. Perhaps he has forgotten it, boxed it neatly away. Perhaps that one blurring of boundaries is all there will ever be.
She cannot ask without exerting pressure, and she is too keenly aware of the cruelty inherent in that act, from one who has much power. She cannot ask.
--
He looks awkward as she has never seen him.
Or, no, not quite.
He looks awkward as she has seen only once before, and her heart trembles under the sudden almost crushing grip of hope.
“--or in other ways.”
He cannot state it outright, is too aware of their positions and propriety to do such a thing. But his words invite a declaration she could not have otherwise given. He knows her; knows she would not make an overture without some encouragement. So he has taken this opportunity, this privacy, in her moment of triumph, and has gifted her that.
It is so many kindnesses, all at once.
He starts to say more, but she is free, now, to be that graceless girl she was when she first came to court, the one she has started to catch a glimmer of in the mirror again, that girl who knew nothing of intrigue at all, who said what she thought and felt;
“Luis. Will you marry me?”
He plainly did not expect that offer; reasonable, perhaps, when she has spent years being endlessly, painfully careful, circumspect to the point of neurosis. Guarding her reputation because it kept her safe, kept her children safe. It is certainly too soon, unseemly haste on the heels of her bereavement.
But she is now as safe as she will ever be in her life. She can obey her heart rather than bowing to necessity. She can be as reckless in pursuit of joy (of love) as she was in pursuit of power.
She watches his face soften, before he takes her into his arms, and she feels as if she could fly.
--
The first ball after the investiture is full of the usual suspects and dozens of just-familiar faces, those who have been presented at court and can come up with some pretext for returning in haste, many looking at her with calculation or hope or speculation.
She ignores them all.
Instead, she turns to the man at her shoulder, the man everyone overlooks because he has been beside the throne nearly his entire life, invisible in serving Iberia. She stretches out her hand.
“May I have this dance, Luis?”
She says volumes with that sentence. She has already made an offer. She has already been accepted. They will understand; their cautious Queen, with her careful words and her cultivated reputation, would never use his given name before the assembled court were she not certain of him.
Reckless, reckless, beats her heart, and she knows it is true. Knows, and cannot bring herself to regret - especially not when he takes her outstretched hand.
They look at her as something to be won, but her heart is already given.
--
She sees the furrow between Luis’s brows, sees the way his eyes dart over her shoulder to pick out faces from the crowd, always assessing, always calculating. There is bound to be speculation, now. There will be rumors to deal with, and fires to put out.
But that is for later, and they will face it together. They have never faced a crisis they could not conquer, together.
“Luis,” she murmurs, and his eyes meet hers. She holds his gaze and smiles at him, knowing her whole heart is on her face and for once not needing to care. She’s been careful, always, not to look too long, to keep her face still when she let herself look at all.
She was fascinated by him, her first Season; thrilled, when she managed to win his approval. They have been allies for years, friends nearly as long.
She has always loved him, has always known it was dangerous, and has been careful to skirt the line between loving and being in love because the second could have destroyed them both.
If Augustin had known what happened after Sophia died, it would have destroyed them both. One kiss, but it had set her aflame. If her husband had known, he would have made those flames literal.
Fire is a terrible way to die.
Instead she is here, in warm candlelight and the circle of beloved arms, alive and safe and free.
And he looks at her and his own mask slips, as well. She has seen him impassive in the face of plots and cruelties and outright treason, but being loved slips through a gap in his armor. He does not let the armor fall away, resettles it quickly, but his lips turn up, and that is enough.
“It is a rare thing,” she murmurs, knowing he will understand; he was drunk, but he will remember. He inclines his head the barest fraction.
He understands her. She understands him.
“Twice, you said.”
She wonders if she dares admit it.
“Once, for me.”
She has never had anyone else who understood her this way, who she could be wholly herself with, who she trusted like this. She was, very briefly, infatuated with Augustin, but he never understood her, and she certainly never let herself be seen without her mask; she was enamored, briefly, with his power, but she never trusted him to use it wisely, not even in the very beginning.
She cannot regret her marriage; she loves her family, elevated and protected by her own advancement, and she loves her sons, who would not otherwise have been born. But now--
Now, she might be able to love her life.
The dance comes to a close; when Luis would pull away, she clasps his hands, instead, wanting to keep him close just a little longer, adoring and so lit up inside with joy that it feels like she must be giving off visible light.
She looks into his eyes again and realizes what kind of smile she’s wearing only when his hands tighten on hers and he looks wide-eyed back and her expression begins to slip in the face of his shock.
(He’s never seen her smile like that, she realizes. Even with him, she’s always been careful. Sometimes especially with him.)
They must all know, now. Well: Let them know.
She brings his hands up to her smiling mouth and presses a kiss to each set of knuckles.
She has better choices, now; she has chosen the best. When she looks up again, he is smiling, too, like he doesn’t care who sees.
so, like a million years ago (aka over a year, time is a lie, shh, I refuse to double check exact dates) @awaylaughing prompted me for words! LOOK! WORDS!
Camellia (my destiny is in your hands) + Mass Effect (dealer's choice on all else) [OG prompt list]
This is, uh, perhaps more legacy than destiny, but it makes sense in my head. Hopefully it translates? Opening of ME2, F!Shepard, Joker, & Kaidan (with a little bit of Shenko for the tragedy of it all).
All Shepard could hear was her own breath, ragged and stuttering and too sharp in her throat.
For the first time in her life, she hated space, hated the bright lights that blinded her, the fact that the stars were too far away to matter, that her ship was exploding, her people were dying, the enemy was fleeing, its job done, the rest of them too small to matter, and she couldn't hear any of it.
Her heart beat so hard her ears throbbed in time, her breath too fast to match, too small, too shallow, yet she could still hear it beneath the whine of overlapping alarms. Her eyes burned with the flash of almost every alert possible simultaneously lighting up the edges of her vision, her HUD desperate to show her what she needed to know, desperate for her to fix it, help it, help them, fix them, fix everything, but still too dim to show clearly against the flares of lasers and oxygen burning burning burning.
Joker was swearing, the edge of pain clear in his voice, a hiss and a spark just audible beneath the rasp of his voice, and she was reasonably sure he'd just broken through a wall panel to access the system directly. As if he could refuse everything that had just happened, as if he could pilot an escape pod to come get her, as if his will was strong enough to turn around something without an engine or steering.
She almost laughed, felt it catch in her chest. If anyone could, it would be Joker.
“Shepard?” It was Alenko, his voice off-rhythm, unsteady, somehow both too fast and too slow, too low and too loud and yet so hard to hear over the silence around her. “Shepard, can you report? Status,” his voice caught, a swallow she could feel, could hear, “Shepard, please, damn it, Shepard.”
Her comms were still on.
Everyone could hear her breathing, Alenko had heard that almost laugh. Impossible though it seemed, that slight tremor of a breath wasn’t too faint for him, not with the way he always listened, always paid attention.
Especially to her, just as she’d always done the same for him.
She could hear Alenko’s breathing now, steady, let it steady her own, let herself pretend for just one inhale, one exhale, that there was something someone could do.
Something that Alenko could do, her Lieutenant, her XO, the best marine she’d ever worked with, that beautiful studied calm of his backing her up. He’d crossed every t, dotted every i, noticed every misstep around him, just so he could help someone take the next one and keep going…
He’d kept her going.
He’d keep them going.
He was the only one who could.
“Suit malfunction.”
Her voice sounded… normal.
Fucking N training.
She hated Anderson for a moment, almost as much as she hated space. Got her killed, the two of them, and trained her so well along the way that she couldn’t even panic about it, not when it would hurt someone else.
Kaidan.
She had to clench her jaw, close her eyes.
I’m sorry.
She opened her eyes.
“That final attack spread us all in different directions.” Her trajectory was almost exactly the opposite of Joker’s pod. Even if he could manage to steer the damn thing out of sheer fucking spite, he’d never be able to catch up.
Fucking physics. Newton was a bitch, and she’d tell him so herself when she met him.
Soon, now.
“Weaver,” Alenko’s voice was hollow in a way she’d never wanted to hear, especially not between the two of them, not when he was saying her name.
She just barely managed to mute her mic before she made a noise she couldn’t repress, rage and sorrow and cold, something that hurt her ears even more than the still whining alerts, something she couldn’t let him hear, not now, not like this, not as the last thing he’d ever–
She bit her tongue so hard she could taste copper and turned off the alerts so her mic wouldn’t pick them up, ignored the way the O2 sensor flashed as if it wanted to refuse her command.
“Get them home, Lieutenant.”
“Aye, ma’am.” His voice was solid this time, solemn, and she hated to think what it had cost him to put everything else away. “Understood.”
“Thank you, Kaidan,” she whispered. She thought she heard his breath again, just for an instant, something warm and alive and oh so far away, but then she cut her comm lines completely. She couldn’t bear to hear him say good-bye, would not allow him to hear what was going to happen next, what was already happening, the cold and the weight and the effort it took to inhale, the tremble in her arms, the battle she was about to lose to keep herself still, to stop herself from desperately scrabbling at the edges of her suit to try and find some way to fix everything that was broken.
Alenko would save as many of her people as could be saved, she had no doubts.
tiger eye, butterscotch, and chestnut black teas, with cinnamon & chocolate chips. Steep at 212° for 3 minutes.
Makes a good latte, imo. (Also makes me feel fancy for some reason, which seems fitting of the “everyone thinks she’s a rich bitch” character.) 😉
Court Lady
mocha nut (toasted) mate, spiced (toasted) mate, rooibos vanilla chai, with orange peels & cocoa nibs. Steep at 150° for 3+ minutes.
Mate can be steeped multiple times, and rooibos is good for an all day simmer, so this tea has endurance. 🤣
Daughter of a Notorious Pirate:
coconut grove pouchong, papaya pouchong, wild strawberry, with blueberries & raspberries. Steep at 195° for 3+ minutes.
You guys. I love this pouchong SO MUCH, there are no words. This one’s my favorite. Which is hilarious, because I almost never replay my Pirates, I just make a new disaster one every time.
Minor Lady of a Scholarly Bent
citrus (yerba) mate, mango (yerba) mate, green rooibos bonita, with mango & raspberry leaves. Steep at 150° for 3+ minutes.
FULL DISCLOSURE: I have not tried this one yet. I hope if you do that you like it, but I am guessing that this will work because the toasted mate/red rooibos Corvali Tea seemed to work? 😅
Sheltered Princess
peach, vanilla, and almond oolongs, with apricots & rose hips. Steep at 200-210° for 3+ minutes.
Oolongs are very forgiving of being forgotten on the counter for hours, I say from much experience. (ALSO THIS IS LIKE peaches & cream w/a hint of marzipan y’all, I do enjoy it.)
Tomboy Countess
earl grey lavender, lavender lemon, rooibos earl grey, with hibiscus & marigold petals. Steep at 212° for 3 minutes.
It’s like a London Fog base! Only Not! (Tho it’d probably latte up pretty well, I haven’t tried that yet.)
Maryse inhales, hard, and she and Alec share a glance that Izzy can't interpret.
Alec glances at her, a hint of a shrug in the angle of his shoulders. As if he thought they all knew...
Alessandra had never met Woodly's wife, never caught more than a passing glance, until now; now she saw her, gold and silver hair glinting beneath her veil, barely darker than the mourning white draped over her.
They picked up Thai on the way back to the loft, a decision made with one quick glance and a tilt of Alec's head; they needed to talk, and they both wanted the privacy.
Alec grinned across the courtyard at Jace, exchanged quick glances with Izzy and Clary.
So the most recent ME fic is a 5+1 F!Shenko thing from Kaidan's perspective, so I guess my first run at Weaver's POV is what you get?
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It's only once she's in the Captain's Quarters (Anderson's quarters), the door sealed behind her, that Shepard lets her shoulders slump. She's still not sure what to do with a rack like this, all to herself, but she might as well take advantage of the luxury.
She collapses across the bed, arms and legs spread, head squished between the pillows, and sighs.
What the fuck is she going to do on Feros? A colony going dark could be slavers, could be geth, could be some new disaster out of the Terminus Systems, and no one wants another Raid...
But her combat team consists of a merc, the sort of cop she'd have felt no qualms about shooting first and asking questions of never about fifteen years ago, a brilliant tech-head who's barely more than a teenager, an NCO who knows her shit in theory but is green as grass aboard ship and dealing with mixed teams, and one proper marine.
One.
And she's supposed to save a whole damned colony like that?
The whole galaxy, even?
Shepard hopes, not for the first time, that her visions are just visions, misfired symbols breaking against her poor human mind into things they never should have been, rather than...
Reapers.
She doesn't believe herself, but it's that or start screaming, and that definitely won't help.
She grabs a pillow and presses it against her face so she can scream just a little, before she drags herself back up to her feet and over to her console to get to work, to try and figure out how to make a bunch of mavericks into something resembling a squad.
What the hell, she pulled it off on Elysium, and that time she didn't even have an Alenko to back her up.
