And here I am... drowning my anxiety attack with tears, a sleepless night and a poor illustration.
Why I’m writing this?
Well, as person who doesn’t have the money to get professional help (yet), I have come along with some pretty awesome apps (recommended by a therapist).
First of all...
Just to give you some context, a couple of hours ago I was feeling great, I was relaxed because I had finished my work early, I had spent some time with my family, and finally I was going to bed before midnight.
But hey! WAIT A MINUTE! (insert kazoo kid meme here) I wasn’t counting with the awesome and incredible (sarcasm) anxiety attack I was going to experience.
I was happily watching Tik Tok, when I saw a video that triggered some emotional things (I remembered my late grandpa) and instantly I started crying, I remembered a lot of things that escalated quickly, and suddenly everything went wrong... my heart started racing and a lump formed in my throat, the horrible feeling that something wrong was about to happen drowned my head, my stomach was like ‘hey, sorry to bother, but I really want to puke’, and the rest of my body was just shocked. The feeling of being alone in the middle of the night made things worst, and I just wanted to take my head and rip it off.
After some minutes of misery, I remembered this awesome app.
Welcome to:
Basically these apps helps you to get your emotions back in place and stop you from harming yourself.
I have both because... millennial.
Back to business...
So ‘Clear Fear’ practically helps you to identify and get along with this kind of anxiety episodes. In my case I went with some breathing exercises, distracting images and some other cool stuff, but what I really liked was this section:
You can write and draw, and express yourself, and everything.
So I decided to write some things that ended in this post and this illustration of Kakashi.
Yup, my coping mechanism relies in my fav anime character. (I hate drawing him like this, but I had to..)
I wasn’t so sure about writing something in the moment, but as I kept typing, I stopped crying, my mind got relaxed (now I have a freakin headache), and actually I got pretty sleepy.
Obviously this is just an app, and definitely I need help from an expert, but as I said before... If you can’t afford it, if your parents, partner, family or whoever else keeps you away from this kind of help, these apps are pretty cool.
But please, if you are dealing with anxiety, depression, or anything related to mental health, please search some help 💕
I’m just trying to speak my emotions and at the same time probably help someone else who is also going through the same thing as me.
As always... sorry for the long post, but you never know if your experiences can help others 💕
Ps. I know I’m not an expert, and I know I have problems too, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here for you ✨
