#awfulworld

[l666xus]

bruh i hate everything today.... stop pissing me off

[l666xus]

[l666xus]

[l666xus]

me & all my "friends" are just a bunch of really sad soundcloud rappers who r tryna get rich

[l666xus]

miss u babyboy

[evilelf71-blog]

FAKE - FALSE

In this awful world, fake people prevail.

In questo mondo terribile, le persone false prevalgono.

[stormriverstan]

This is my cover of StormRiver's Awful World. For the record, I can't sing and there were fireworks going on outside. Also this is the only take where I didn;t sneeze (it looks like I have to sneeze throughout this entire video though lol). Anyway if you ignore the excuses, I really just think you should focus on these awesome lyrics. I hope I didn't mess up the melody too much since I didn't play any music lol Anyway I love this song & you should too.

[stormriverstan]

Stanning for our Friendship

I hope this doesn’t sound too corny…

This is going to be to Ben (because these words are for you) and about Ben (hello, people who have stumbled upon these words as well.)

While I stan for you as Storm River, you know that I also stan for our friendship. Your first words to me were song lyrics and in a lot of ways I can compare you to my favorite song. Even though our “friendiversary” has been almost 2 years, I’ve felt like I’ve known you for a lot longer like the words of a song that I love and I remember when someone plays it for me. I don’t want you to get lost in the metaphor but I hope I can convey without too much flowery language how much you mean to me. I also hope that I can get a clear message across because I always get emotional talking to you and/or about you.

I’ve had nightmares during the times I was awake and asleep but you’ve always encouraged me to keep dreaming, Ben. This is important because in many ways if I’m not dreaming, I have given up on breathing. You have seen me at my worst and I’m trying to get at my best so you can be proud of me almost as much as I’m proud of you already.

Ben shows unconditional love and many people don’t know what that feels like until they’ve experienced that themselves. They may have shown it with a popstar or a lover but you have to feel it to know exactly how much it means to you. This is one of the reasons why I’m grateful for our friendship. He can creatively make me feel better about myself even if I don’t want to. Again, like a favorite song that comforts you no matter what mood you are in. He has taught me that it is important to fall in love with myself which I have hated. Because I didn’t realize that once I fell in love with myself that I could ultimately hurt myself the worst. At the same time, it has taught me again to not give up on myself because I am valuable. That is why I’ll forever treasure our friendship whether we grow apart.

He has also left me with songs. Songs about myself, himself, and others that send chills down my spine and makes me cry. I’ve always cried whenever I hear him singing. He has that power to make me believe whatever he is singing which I then attach a memory to. Whenever I hear his songs again, I am transported back to that first memory and emotion yet still getting a new experience. When I talk to Ben, I am often feeling a similar experience. I think it would be the same if we met. It would feel like we’ve hung out many times before like old friends but simultaneously a refreshing experience that never gets old. Hopefully, I’ll attend one of your concerts one day if being Storm River continues to be your dream. I’m also excited that he realizes that he has more fans than me (but I’ll arguably be his biggest). I hope that inspires him to keep going. I believe in his talents and ultimately him.

This post is getting lengthy but I felt it was necessary. Ben, you have read my words before and I thank you for taking your time to do so now and in the future. I thank you for being the greatest friend in my times of happiness and depression. You care and you work hard to make sure I never forget it. For those of you who are not Ben, I hope you befriend him because you won’t find a friend like him and since I have already, I think it would be unfortunate to not in one point in your life to take advantage of an opportunity to do so. Ben, thanks for never leaving and I promise I’ll never leave you. I’ll always stan for you and our friendship because you’re the best person to stan for. I love you. Never forget.