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" my mind was divided , and that's not fair to you . "

The Sounds of Nightmares

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"You're right.. it's not fair on me, Okarun.. I need attention too, I deserve to be watched too. I can't be pushed to the side like that."

His eyes fill with tears, which he quickly tries to hide by shoving his face in his hands. He knows that he's being selfish, knows that he's being a baby. But he can't help it. He just wants to be acknowledged too.. is that so wrong?

[moayase]

❝  𝗻𝗼𝗼𝗼𝗼  𝘄𝗮𝘆!!!  𝗻𝗼  𝘄𝗮𝘆,  𝗵𝗼𝘄  𝘁𝗵𝗲  𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗹  𝗱𝗶𝗱  𝘆𝗮  𝘀𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗲  𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀?!  ❞  she's  holding  the  treasure  with  upmost  care,  a  rare  copy  of  1981's  station  starring  one  ken  takakura.  umber  hues  are  practically  sparkling  as  they  scan  the  cover  over  and  over,  almost  in  disbelief  that  she's  holding  it  in  her  hands.  it's  one  of  the  last  few  movies  she  needs  to  complete  her  collection,  a  fact  she'd  mentioned  in  passing,  a  fact  that  okarun  actually  remembered,  leaving  an  odd,  foreign  warmth  spreading  throughout  her  chest.  ugh--  𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵  𝘵𝘩𝘦  𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭!?  once  more,  he's  the  cause  of  her  warm  face,  the  frenzied  nerves  tickling  her  belly,  and  a  rush  that  threatens  to  spill  out  into  a  smile.

𝗔𝗕𝗦𝗢𝗟𝗨𝗧𝗘𝗟𝗬  𝗙𝗨𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚  𝗡𝗢𝗧.

all  at  once  she  sucks  in  a  breath,  cheeks  puffing  out  as  she  keeps  it  in.  they're  obviously  spending  way  too  much  time  together,  that's  the  only  explanation  for  the  mess  of  emotions  swirling  about  her  mind,  a  jumble  of  extremes  tugging  her  this  way  and  that.  it's  too  much  to  deal  with,  𝘵𝘰𝘰  𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩  𝘵𝘰  𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦  𝘪𝘯.  so  she'll  blow  all  her  air  out,  the  strange  giddiness  along  with  it.  one  day,  she'll  finally  make  sense  of  things,  one  day,  she  might  be  able  to  put  a  name  to  whatever  the  hell  he  brings  out  of  her,  but  it  sure  won't  be  today,  not  if  momo's  got  anything  to  say  about  it.  all  the  sparkle  washes  away,  gaze  settled  back  into  a  glare  as  her  eyes  meet  his,  ❝  i  hope  you  know  i'm  still  mad  at  you.  y'can't  just  buy  your  way  back  into  my  good  graces.  ❞

ft. ken okarun takakura, @awkcult | surprise starter bc ilysm