Jan 15, 2015
I'm a lost deamer looking for her reality.
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I'm a lost deamer looking for her reality.
THAT moment when you say something you aren't suppose too and you can't undo it and they won't leave you alone
Those people who don't know the difference between YOUR at YOU'RE and HE'S at HIS.
procrastination at it's finest:
what i want for christmas:
people keep asking me what i want for my birthday(which is december 20 in case you were just dying to know..... ;) ....)/christmas. well folks. heres the list:
an external hard drive
BAM gift card
starbucks gift card
a new pair of toms
a new tea kettle
operation world book (click <-- for more info)
a MAGNETIC KITCHEN TIMER!!!! (as shown here)
some type of ipod/ihome speaker system that i could hook my ipod up to for sound, however still have it being charged. but i really don't need that, it's just a want that i really don't need and i would feel super guilty if someone spent that much money on me
a legit back massage that gets knots out and makes my back feel better for once. i hate to complain about my back again but it just gets worse and worse. and i just would love for someone to actually take the time to help it. plus, my love languages are touch and quality time, so if someone is spending time with me/talking with me and hangout and massaging my back (massaging my back/rubbing my back pretty much is the number 1 way to make me feel loved/you really like me/wanna be my friend/you just like me as a person and wanna hang out with me.)
and a little umbrella.
so there's my christmas/birthday wish list! and really, i don't need anything. at all. to be honest. i have way too many things as it is. i really need to go through all my stuff. when i go home next week, i'm going to spend time just going through all my stuff at home and getting rid of things/either bring it to AU or trying to store it somewhere. i feel like i have a lot of things that i don't really want to get rid of, but i don't know what to do with it. like my baby dolls. i don't want to get rid of them, because i know i'll give them to my future children one day to play with/bitty babies are pricy and american girl dolls. those things were super loved, but i'm not going to get rid of them, you know? or like, i have a ton of beanie babies. what do i do with those? however, i know a lot of my toys that i still have, my mom wants to keep them for grandbabies. My niece is only a 1 and a half, but she'll play with my stuffed animals soon enough as well as my future babies. hmmm. i have way too much stuff, for sure though. it's kind of embarrassing. i need to just go through everything. i think i'll do that on thursday/during study breaks/this weekend before i go to tally.
but yesh. stuff.
also. dear friends who actually read this.
i would like to apologize for not being a good friend of late. if you feel like i've forgotten about you, i'm so sorry. i haven't. i've just been studying my head off and if you're a guy please don't feel like i've abandoned you either! i am not texting guys right now. as in, i'm not texting guys first. even if we are just friends. because i'm fasting dating relationships and even if we are just friends, not texting guys first is part of that, so i'm so sorry for being/seeming like a jerk. i honestly don't mean to be. i'm sorry and i'm sorry if this seems awkward.
and on that note, i need to go read chapter 6 of my marriage and family book which is all about sex! wooooo!!!!!.......lies. this is the most awkward chapter ever. let me make myself clear when i say that all i've ever done with a male is kiss. and even then it's never been like...clothes off and touching in places i can't say without giggling because i'm secretly a 12 year old boy. at say this: i have never seen a naked man (unless you count the model in lab but still i don't count that because it's not a real man and it's science not "naked man!" (again, i'm 12), and so this chapter is super awkward and makes me blush.
and at that. i'm peacing out now.... awkwardly as usual...wouldn't expect anything less....
I don't have anything to talk about with you, but I really wish I did.
yeah.
Because it's normal for you to go around kissing your bestfriend. dammit. I'm so aggravated with you right now. You make my problems more worse. >~< ugh. I don't wanna go to school anymore. .________.