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[sabbybrina]

Do any of my followers need/want the chat system??

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I just found The Navy Seals: Their Untold Story on Netflix.

I need someone to come watch it with me while I have ALLLLLL the Steve feels.

[sabbybrina]

music ask: Danny and STeve!

YAY!!! So I’m going to do one for Mcdanno, then a set for Steve, because I already have a set here for Danny. 

Ready? Ok.

McDanno:

1) Take me Home by Jack Savoretti

(This one is specifically the way Steve feels about Danny; the rest go both ways)

There’s a full moon on the riseAnd a sadness growing heavy in my soulYou can see it in my eyesI don’t know where to goNo i don’t know where to goThere’s a kindness in your smilePlease forgive me i can’t help but stop and stareWe can walk for miles and milesI know you’ll get me thereYes I know you’ll get me there

2) Can You Feel the Love Tonight by Elton John

There’s a calm surrender to the rush of dayWhen the heat of the rolling wind can be turned awayAn enchanted moment, and it sees me throughIt’s enough for this restless warrior just to be with you

3) The Story by Brandi Carlile

All of these lines across my faceTell you the story of who I amSo many stories of where I’ve beenAnd how I got to where I amBut these stories don’t mean anythingWhen you’ve got no one to tell them toIt’s true: I was made for you

4) God Blessed the Broken Road by Rascal Flatts

Every long lost dream led me to where you areAnd others who broke my heart they were like northern starsPointing me on my way into your loving armsThis much I know it’s trueThat God blessed the broken roadThat led me straight to you

5) A Thousand Years (Glee Cover)

The day we met, frozen I held my breathRight from the startI knew that I’d found a home for myHeart beats fastColors and promisesHow to be braveHow can I love when I’m afraid to fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow

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OK, here we go with 5 songs that remind me of Steve

1) Last Train Running by Whiskey Falls

When I close my eyes and I’m holding on to my last breathI don’t want my regrets to coming back to haunt meWhen it’s far too late to ask forgiveness for my sinsI hope my enemies and friends can both forgive meWhen I’m on the last train running and the devil’s comingHoping that the good outweighs the badAnd I’m heading for the station the final destinationPraying for the lord to take me homeAnd I’m on the last train running

(Seriously this whole song is Steve McGarrett to a T. Go listen to it. Now.)

2). Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert

It’s me I’m a freakBut thanks for lovin’ me‘Cause you’re doing it perfectly

Just don’t give upI’m workin’ it outPlease don’t give inI won’t let you downIt messed me up, need a second to breatheJust keep coming aroundHey, whataya want from me

3) Wrong Side of Heaven by Five Finger Death Punch

Arms wide openI stand aloneI’m no hero and I’m not made of stoneRight or wrongI can hardly tellI’m on the wrong side of heaven and the righteous side of hell The wrong side of heaven and the righteous side,The righteous side of hell

4) American Solider by Toby Keith

I’m an American soldier, an American,Beside my brothers and my sistersI will proudly take a stand,When liberty’s in jeopardyI will always do what’s right,I’m out here on the front lines,So you can sleep in peace tonight.American soldier, I’m an American

5) All-American Boy by Steve Grand

Be my All-American boy tonight Where everyday’s the 4th of July And its alright, alright And we can keep this up till the morning light And you can hold me deep in your eyes And its alright, alright Be my, be my My All-American boy 

[sabbybrina]

I’m trying to put into words how anxious I am about waiting to hear if Hawaii-5-0 will be renewed or cancelled. Because each day brings it closer and brings with it more anxiety. And here’s the thing...I know it’s a fictional TV show with fictional characters. I know I get overly invested. But....it’s my safety. I have PTSD with high anxiety and panic attacks. And when I’m panicking or having a flashback or I’m just plain anxious, H50 is the place that I turn too. They’re my safety. Without fail, McDanno will help to calm me down every-time. Whether it’s watching a 5 minute clip on youtube, or reading fanfiction, or looking at gifs here on tumblr. My therapist told me last night to imagine safety for when I have surgery in a few weeks (which is SUPER anxiety provoking) and Steve and Danny were the 1st thing I thought of. It sounds stupid, but for me, they are my safety. They are the thing I hold onto when everything is spinning out of control.

But even beyond that, H50 is the first fandom I’ve ever been involved in. And it’s brought amazing people to my life, people like thebesteverseen and awolfling and cargopantspacman. I found like I’ve found a community here. H50 is the first work of fanfiction I’ve ever completed and published.  And i just.....I really really worried I’m going to lose all that. Because it goes away. It always does. I was obsessed with Burn Notice prior to finding H50, I own all the DVDs and yet I haven’t watched an episode in probably a year. I just don’t want to lose what I have here. I can’t imagine not seeing new gifs of Steve and Danny and Kono and Chin. And not geeking out over the bromance that is so canon close to being actual romance that it’s not even funny. So please CBS. Don’t cancel the show. I’m not prepared for it to end.

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awolfling replied to your post “awolfling replied to your photo “Thanks to XFinity Watchaton and...”

me toooooooooooo aaarrrrggggggg. I want to marathon tv with you so bad!

Me tooooooo. To quote what Scott Caan apparently wrote to Alex O’Loughlin on the back of a photo: “One day babe. One day.”

[sabbybrina]

awolfling replied to your photo “Thanks to XFinity Watchaton and awolfling’s recommendation, I am...”

I'm so happy!

I wish you were here watching it with me!

[sabbybrina]

awolfling

replied to your post

“There was an active shooter/shooting at the prison I used to work at....”

*hugs* that's awful

Thank you love. Active shootings at workplaces/schools/community centers/even places of worship are so f**king commonplace that I’ve almost become numb to it--but I lived in this bubble of like “oh that will never happen here.” But this one hit WAYYYY to close to home and it’s throwing me for a loop.

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awolfling replied to your post “awolfling replied to your post “Just want to say Sabrina I adore your...”

yes, gooooooooood. I don't want to have to plot any murders. Tell me more about why you love me

Well aside from the fact that you’re a fucking goddess and you rock my world on a daily basis, you also convinced me to not only finish my first fanfiction but that it was good enough to be published for all the world to see, which I assure you was not an easy task because I don’t have must faith in my writing skills. I think those early emails between us, when you were like, YES SABRINA THIS IS GOOD YOU MUST SHARE THIS, were the ones that really cemented our friendship for me. The fact that you barely knew me, but believed in me enough to push me to do something I was too scared to do for years (share my work publicly) was amazing to me and a gift I will never forget.