24) Things you want to say to 5 different people.
Dad
I am currently jobless but I'm striving hard to get a job and be responsible. I know you've experienced this when you were my age and you faced the world with braveness in your heart. I am starting to learn to do things on my own now. Thanks for the heads up, Dad. Chloe is turning 1 on the 26th, the whole family will be there. I wish you were here to witness this. We miss you. You've made a massive impact in my life, DAD. Whenever I see kids with their fathers with them, I get really jealous. But life isnt about being sad, right Dad? Its about moving forward. I am moving forward but you will always be my inspiration. And by the way, thanks for letting me watch PG-rated shows back then. I now understand why they need parental guidance. I love you!
Mum
Am I such a pain in the head? Hahaha, I know. I cant believe we're really close now Mummy. I'm really sorry if I said/did something that made you cry. I'm sorry for breaking your heart a million times. I was an angry kid. I didnt want to be here remember? But, I've realised how lucky I am to be with you and my brother&sister. You did everything just for us to be united again. Sorry if I spent most of my teenage life in my room, not communicating to any of you. Sorry if I chose to have my own lil world rather than be part of our family. I witnessed how our relationship as mother-daughter fell apart because I didnt want any of your advices but now, I am happy you're still here. You never gave up on me, Mummy. I love you :) PS. Jogging and Shopping tomorrow with you.
I've been absent to most of our family gatherings in the past and I do apologise for that. I guess, just like any other teenager, I was having my own phase. We may have a few weird arguments over the phone but you do know you're still my sister and no matter what happens I will support you, just make sure it isnt anything negative haha. To your husband, Kuya Abong hello there kuya. I remember hugging you when I was little everytime you would come over to visit my sister. I saw how you made my sister fall in love with you and I adore your patience and love for our family so much. It is very awkward now if I suddenly hug you out of nowhere so I'm giving you a virtual hug (>:D<) to thank you for all the patience and for letting your parents adopt me for a year haha. Mama Bie and Papa Art are my favourite second parents. I may have disturbed you many times just to ask you to fix something for me and once again, I do apologise for that. I also want to thank you for loving my sister and loving the rest of our family We're so lucky to have you. Kids (Kyle & Yya), Kyle eat your veggies and Yya no boyfriends yet okay? HAHA, I love you both!
Kuya Hello, I saw you today. I gave you Chloe's invitation cards but I forgot to buy envelopes.
No, thats not my message. I'm sure this is gonna be a pretty long message and I hope this wont bore you.
Did you know that you were such a scary dude back when I was in kindy? You were very strict and you never let me play during the afternoons because you said kids are meant to sleep every afternoon. Kuya, I lied. Most of the time, I was just pretending I was asleep so I could play.
You left and came back after 2 years, and then you left again and came back when I was in 6th grade. ANG COOL MO NUN KUYA! Your hair was long and chemically straightened and you were such a fashionista wearing your white tees and elephant pants. You even brought me baon to school because you wanted to see what I do in class. We became extremely close. And you taught me one lesson during that time that up to now, im still struggling to apply to my daily routine: You have to get your ass outta bed and do something.
You shared me your music collections, Christina Aguilera and Mandy Moore and all hot pop tunes. But just when we're about to build that brother-sister relationship, you left again. When you came back one more time, I was already in highschool and you were rarely home I never got to talk to you because I was too busy and you were too. You flew back to Macau again and then, Dad died.
I was shattered then and I felt as if Dad was hugging me when you hugged me the first time. You reminds me so much of him. Serious and scary, but both knows how to crack jokes.
After everything that happened, you came to live with us in Australia permanently in 2006.
We didnt talk much when I was a teenager. We never really communicated. I dont think you wanted to be associated with me. So for 3 years, we just talk for a minute and then nothing. As in nothing. And if most of our conversations were like, you trying to make me be responsible and me saying yes to everything but not really doing anything.
Its like we're just roommates. I regret being like that.
Since you got married, we became close. The "Father/Kuya" conversations become more relaxed. You smile now. You crack jokes now as well. I love seeing you like that :) and I know why you're really happy and please remain that way. Just stop making me eat all your chocolates whenever Im at your place hahaha. You are beyond your happy meter because of ATE STEPH. Hello there Ate Steph. thank you for sharing me stories about my kuya and your experiences in macau. I love our conversations about Filipino shows and our random inside jokes that only the two of us could relate to (thats why its called an inside joke haha). You and Chloe are my kuya's happiness. Let's share more happy moments together! And to our baby Chloe, you are so smart! I cant even imagine what it would be like when you're 3. OMG, hyperbeast. LOL wrong term haha. I am so excited for your birthday! I will take lots and lots of photos of you little one. I love you :)
OMG, you... LOL haha. I dont know how you make me smile. Its a constant thing that you do and you never get tired of doing it. Thank you. Remember our conversations about how at first, we fought pretty much everyday because we're just too paranoid about things and like, all the possible problems in this world became an issue to us. And then you said:
Look at us now, farting in our own beds and we dont even mind.
I love you. You're not just a lover to me but a bestfriend as well. The one who always disagrees with my opinion just to make fun of me but agrees to me eventually, the one who covered me with a blanket so I wouldnt notice I was alone when you were out tryna look for a drugstore at 4 in the morning. The one who hand washed my clothes and still wanted to kiss me after, the one who told me that my ugliest highschool picture looks like I was about to fry an egg on my face for too much oil and still tells me he loves me, thats you HATER. haha.
You are more than just a guy I fell inlove with.
