LOOK AT WHAT MY LOVE GOT MEEEEE
AGHHHH I DIDNT EVEN KNOW ABT THE STANDEE
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I would like to make out with him in a sloppy style, judge. He's such a bottom (non-derogatorily). I love him, I love him treating me like this, I haven't even met him in person more than twice, but he cooks, he cleans, he spends time with his mom, he does everything. He prays he loves his family, he loves his baby cousins, he loves praying, and he always makes time for me, oh my God, how am I supposed to even exist, guys? He's so shy but so so dedicated and he's trying his best and his best is even more than I could ever imagine and I couldn't imagine what I do without him. Anytime I send him a picture of any part of me cuz he doesn't know what my full face looks like he saves it in his mind and he never makes any jokes to harm and respects boundaries deeply. It's actually crazy that he's a man cuz he is just as or even more caring than some of my female friends and he even refuses to say anything mean about my friends cuz he's so kind to women in general. As a girls girl, the way he has so much respect for girls is insane, and I love it so much. He gets flustered most of the time when I flirt with him lightly. I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him and I don't know if I deserve him, but anytime I tell him about these things he's been getting better at listening and you know whether I need just a listening ear or a solution. Anytime he's playing a game, he asks if we can call and then he streams the game to me and I can just Yap in the background. The freak circus interests I have is something I mentioned while he was streaming and in Passing. How he remembers it I have no clue.
I need this man in every single way possible. I love how he has goals for himself too, like he's currently trying to lose weight and build more muscle and generally have a healthier lifestyle, especially with his diet, and to me. I hope to him, I'm basically like his doctor, so he comes to me before he does anything or anytime he needs help, or anytime he's just telling me abt stuff he does. I love it. At times, I even help with tweaking his plans, or when making a schedule for studying cuz I'm also a tutor (dm me or send an ask if you'd like any help at all, I'm always open y'all). He respects my goals too and helps me with my own work because some of the stuff he's already learned as he's a year and a half older + in a different School. He gets uncomfortable around some people, most people. He's very introverted. I'm so glad that I'm not one of the people that he is uncomfortable around. That is an insane privilege. Especially after knowing him for just a couple of years now. Crazy to believe that he was the one who fell first. He fell really hard from the beginning, then I tripped, stumbled, and fell on my head afterwards, a year or 2 later. He's so patient with me and everyone in general, and I think it's rubbing off on me, too, because my temper isn't as short as it was before. He's a good influence.
I sound so love sick and swooned and I hate that I am because I'm not used to loving someone ever and he's like my second crush/relationship ever. How am I supposed to wait until I get my degrees to marry him when he pays attention this closely?? I have mentioned this interest twice to him. TWICE. THAT'S WHAT HE SAYS APPARENTLY. Having someone who cares with really interesting. I date to marry and I am delusional over him. I try not to be but it is inevitable. Love is a funny, funny thing, isn't it?
now who I'm talking about is up for you to decide but I'm talking about more than one thing here :3 anyways now I'm going to get to crocheting him a maijima plushie and drawing him Yakuza 0 stuff 😶🌫️
Thanks for reading my yap. I'm so glad he doesn't have Tumblr, so he can't see this. This is embarrassing 🙏😭 I know he'll be flattered, but regardless. HOPEFULLY HE NEVER FINDS MY TUMBLR.