#azureistraumatized

[azurethespinel]

How're you holding up after.. All that?

..Fine, I guess.

I'm havin' to live with Spinel in Little Homeworld now, cos my apartment ain't safe an'.. Well, I think the owner of the complex is kinda pissed bout the mess anyway..

I've just been tired tah be honest, mostly been layin' on the couch while Spinel does whatever.. She doesn't seem tah go out much surprisingly..

Or maybe that's just cos I'm here.

[azurethespinel]

Should I ask her if we.. If we're..?

Ugh, ya know?

I can't tell. Or is this a game to her..?

Not in a malicious sense, but.. I almost feel like..

Maybe she doesn't understand.

...

...

Nevermind.

Maybe if I pretend it's fine, I won't have to explain how much it actually means to me.

[azurethespinel]

Right right that information ain’t out yet

I should probably keep my mouth shut about the process and the existence of them from now on

Just know it’s not an insult

Moore a question

That ain't-- Oh my stars.

I am like every other damned spinel that was made, all that's wrong with me-- Is I'm MISSING A [SQUEAKIN] SHARD! And suffer the consequences cos of it!

UGH-

And if ya REALLY wanna pry, you pebble-- I was created to be BROKEN into somethin' I WAS NEVER S'PPOSED TAH BE.

...

Whatever.. I ain't whateva ya just said last ask. [Squeak].

[azurethespinel]

... @jahhhsper

I hate to ask this of ya.. But can ya maybe.. Come over for a bit..?

...Star is.. Freakin' out a lot cos she doesn't like the collar.. I-I tried gettin' it off carefully, but.. It shocked her.

A-and I'm doing everythin' I can.. But this [squeakin'] hurts to watch.

[azurethespinel]

Ohhh.. It's you.

..How does it feel knowing our last encounter was.. Horrendously violent, leaving you broken and curled up in that alleyway..

Fucking freak.

....

This was the last thing I needed today.

[azurethespinel]

..Can someone tell me what just happened?

I opened the door and.. Well, Spinel was there.

She was.. Not happy to say the least. It was like.. A month ago all over again, she looked.. So angry.

But also so sad.. And.. She kinda yelled at me about sayin it to her face.. Before just lettin' herself in and refusin' to leave.

All I can say now is that we're both sitting on my stupid crappy couch in my apartment.. It's so.. Awkward.

[azurethespinel]

...I told her what I did back then.. Why I called her to leave me alone. Why my gem is how it is.. And that I was.. Sorry.

...

She won't.. Look at me still.. But she hasn't left.

I'm.. Not sure I made the right choice.

I think she's just going to hate me more now.

I spilt it all out to her.. [Squeak], I started crying..

I don't think she'd--

She hugged me.

[azurethespinel]

WHICH OF YOU [SQUEAKS]

TALKED TO SPINEL LIKE THAT??

She came back over, for stars knows what reason- And.. She started crying after a moment, she won't let me go. She's [squeakin] bawling her damned eyes out.

I SWEAR TO THE STARS, I WILL TEAR WHOEVER DID THIS--

The rest has been censored to keep this blog just a tad friendly.