#back on schedule.

[eeyes]

[floralkittygambler]

Outcast and Pariah everywhere but in Hazbin and Helluva, it’s been the worst. Triggers are unconsidered, or mocked, or weaponised, or disbelieved. Should be normal to never belong and Im a fool to deceive myself of being accepted and cared for. Nothing to give and only more to lose. What’s the worth to life if all your existence can do is cause yourself and others suffering. Toughen up. Life isnt fair Kid and Noone Love You. You arent a woman nor contribution. No one could give a toss so toughen up. Shell up. Put on a happy face and serve your duties. Because what’s intimacy and belonging when you’re peoples Rook anyways? Dont kid yourself. No one needs your shitty housewife baggage or melted face anyways. Just shut up, harden up and do your job. It’s embarassing to soften up and share because you’re shown decency one time. Seriously, you’re not special or valued. Dont get comfortable if someone wants to be kind on the offchance. You’re *you* so dont fucking loosen up to people acting as they should. You arent five and people showing kindness isnt an invite that they give a shit or care, they’re just acting as people should be towards others. You aint special that youre just one of many faceless people who softens up.  Toughen the fuck up and stop thinking that people actually give a fuck about you without actual evidence. This is why we have so many issues. This is why Im si pathetic and disappointed in you. You cause your own fucking issues.  And yeah, many undeserving are lucky and get shit handed to them whilst lying that they had it hard. Tough shit, that’s life. That’s people. You dont have personality, beauty, talent or crowds to offer. No one needs or wants you. Face the harsh reality and get a fucking grip.  No one cares about you or your pathetic sob story of a past nor triggers. It’s what everyone else loves so forget your problems and fucking move on. No one cares. No one WILL care. Cry like the vulnerable dickhead youre behaving as right now and get a fucking grip. You softened up and brought this on yourself. You know how people are. You know no one’s ever loved you. So dont even act like people need you in this life or could actually give two single fucks about a talentless nobody. No wonder people think, see and treat you as though youre ten. You dont even resemble a woman. 

Toughen the fuck up because no one gives a shit nor will they ever. You’re not interesting or funny in the fucking slightest. People faux consider what triggers you and no one notices or gives a shit if you disappear unless they have shit to gain from you being here. Face facts. *YOU* have nothing. Others have something and are lovable. You? Nada. Remind yourself exactly when someone actually wanted a miserable prick as a friend unless they had something to gain? Yeah, no. Dont flatter yourself over the short lived attention. Dont feel a spark of joy on that because it dies and quickly dissolves into a magnet of hatred. Youve always been the fucking issue and shouldnt even be surprised people have back talked about you and ditched you. 

A**** was right. You’re the fucking issue and always will be. Dont waste your time. Dont lie to yourself that people want you or care. If there’s not a shit ton of heavy proof, they’re just an acquaintance like everyone else. Dont fucking flatter yourself. Everyones in it for themselves. No wonder you only have cats that care for you. So treat them like Gods because that’s all you’ll deserve and get.  Now stop acting like a little prick and snap back to it. You’re behind and have duties to fulfil regardless on something as stupid as feelings such as your own. Get a move on and deliver what is expected of you. Shut up and off. Get on with it. You fucking pathetic excuse of a ‘woman’.