May 1, 2021
haven’t made any progress catching up for over a week but just learned the context for “young man” and wow! i dislike it even more
#negativity#late night thoughts#i already tend to feel pretty ‘meh’ about phrases like ‘young man/woman’ ‘little boy/girl’ etc taken as and/or meant as flirting#(i mean. ‘meh’ is the BEST i could feel about it. usually i feel... notably less pleased.)#but oof!#great that es.sek is acknowledging that he has Really Fucked Up but wow!#that read as so very patronizing to me#and that’s setting aside the ‘young man’ :/#who’s gonna tell him that he doesn’t know everything (even though he incited a war to try and know more) 💜#i don’t even know where the story is but one of my greatest hopes is that essek betrays them again in favor of knowledge#LISTEN: i love knowledge-seeking neutral evil characters#i love neutral evil es.sek#AND#i think it would be incredibly powerful for the characters to try and befriend and change someone#and for once for their efforts not to succeed#because ultimately a person has to want to change and make great strides themself#no person can change another’s morality no matter how much they want to help them#and as i understand he’s starting to move in that direction already but...#just based on what i know through 2x130.... it feels like he could still very much be swayed backwarcs#backwards*#and I Would Like To See It.#The Angst It Would Create. The Narrative Intrigue.#i just don’t think it’s fun if ALL the evil npcs with strong ties to the party turn neutral/good!!!#some of em gotta have messy redemption arcs that take a nosedive halfway through!!!!#anti essek#anti shadowgast#hopefully putting the tag at the end will get it out of the main tag? :o