I NEED A FIC WHERE NATHAN ACTUALLY CUTS NEILS TENDONS AND BREAKS HIS LEGS AND STUFF BEFORE STUART GETS THERE AND THE AFTERMATH OF ALL THAT WITH A LOT OF ANGST HURT/COMFORT AND NEIL REALIZING THAT EXY IS NOT ALL THERE IS TO LIFE MORE THAN HE ALREADY HAD. I NEED HIM AND KEVIN TO HAVE A MOMENT WHERE KEVIN ACKNOWLEDGES HIS WORTH OFF THE COURT TOO AND TELLS NEIL HOW HE ACTUALLY VALUES HIM AS A PERSON. I NEED ANDREW TO TAKE CARE OF NEIL AND BE HIS ROCK THROUGHOUT IT. I NEED PHYSICAL THERAPY CHAPS. I NEED HIM TO BE WHEELCHAIR BOUND AT LEAST FOR A LITTLE WHILE IF NOT PERMANENTLY. SOMEBODY WRITE THIS AND CRUSH MY SOUL WHILE SIMULTANEOUSLY MANUALLY BEATING MY HEART.













