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A Better Fate than Wisdom

E. E. Cummings wrote that, “Kisses are a better fate than wisdom.”  I whole-heartedly agree; and recently wrote a rather lengthy personal essay on the subject: 

https://drive.google.com/open?id=1uvakEGGOlurnW7aKdh9pgLIDtvyPn92a4aeqRk5qQnU 

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The Bolder Thing to Do

Energy spent trying to believe you're not worth it You don't deserve it But I wish you did 'cause I can't rid the thought of it And I'll remember you as the second or two artists I knew who decided to screw me over 'Cause it's the bolder thing to do And I even made myself the fool Who's fallen for you So let me down softly this time, and I won't have to come back crying I just made myself look bad You're the one who should be feeling that It'd be better to forget you But I don't really want to It'd be better to forget you But I don't really want to I love this song so much. It encapsulated a lot of my feelings about wanting to forget somebody and stop having feelings for them really well. I've had lots of moments where I tried to believe that you weren't worry it, that you didn't deserve my effort, but the boldest thing to do would be remembering you as somebody who treated me unfairly. I don't think I've made it that far yet. I certainly did make myself the fool, and that's something I can't unsee, looking back. But hey, love does crazy things to young kids. How many times did I make myself look bad for you?? Too many to count. And in your absence, there's just a dull shame connected to it. No more love, no more glory. And the biggest irony is that maybe part of what I feel is what you're supposed to feel. How can you be so carefree? I just keep making myself look bad while you live a better life. Deep down I know it'd be better to forget you and move on, but I don't know if I can. That'd certainly be the bolder thing to do.