I paused at the intersection, looking over my shoulder with studied carelessness. Ahead of me an MP stood staring at me with amused superiority. I shoved past him, my eyes fastened deliberately on the battle-torn pavement. I wanted to run as fast as I could, but I forced myself to be calm and to appear like another destitute peasant. What I saw around me made me cringe - the rubble of war, gray-haired soldiers haunted by Russian winter, and the young over-confident American troops in the American sector of Berlin. I noticed that our young men, the Russians, though lean and gaunt, still fought the enemy with proud, angry defiance - afraid of neither God nor man. They were the future of Russia.
"Our first enemy is the Church!" … this I had learned in my Russian schools.
"No man can worship both God and the State. Our first task is to drive out God from the hearts of Russia." We had set to work, cautiously, cunningly, thoroughly. Sometimes the work was made easy for us by the portion of the clergy in Europe who already branded the Bible as a book of myths and fantasies. In a few short years we had thrown out the Bible from the lives of our people, and our land arose in obedience to the ideal - there is no God but the State. Now the Party had decided that this program must be spread throughout all Europe; and for this purpose I was making my way to Spain, where I, Conrad Ketl, could live in immunity and still help the Party erase these exaggerated religious legends from the minds of European youth.
I was tired of living in filthy German dumps, avoiding the traps of stupid American intelligence agents. I carefully worked out my plans, and my passport was to be prepared by the cleverest forger in all Germany. But I could not trust him. I was nervous when I approached him in his little book shop, and he saw my fear. Would he turn me, Conrad Ketl, fanatic for the Kremlin, over to the American Occupation troops. I could not be sure.
"You must want to leave badly, my friend."
"Oh, a friend of mine gave me your name. He said you would provide me with a passport without questions."
"Without questions? I never ask questions. I only think!"
"What is the price for such a passport?"
"The price for such a one as you is steep, quite steep."
"Must
it be money? Could it be something else -- jewels or watches?"
"Bring what you have tonight."
"But how will I know whether it is enough?"
"My advice to you is to see that it is enough."
I left his book shop, my eyes searching the streets for one who could supply the necessary payment, because I had no money. I was not interested in those carrying big parcels. Here and there on the road there were peasants lugging tattered sweaters and blankets.
Then suddenly I saw a young, bedraggled German lad clutching something beneath his coat as though it were of great value - perhaps a diamond, or a watch, or a stack of bills.
"Say, there, is that an heirloom you're carrying?" I asked as I fell in with him.
"Oh, more than an heirloom. It cost my grandfather's life." That night I killed him in a long, dark alley. I hurried to the forger's basement shop with the price of freedom in my hand. I took out the small package that would buy my passport.
"Is the passport ready?"
"The passport is done. I trust this payment is valuable enough to satisfy the need."