#balladeerfic

[balladeerssong]

| SYNOPSIS | being a uni student and a streamer at the same time, let alone doing well in both, is wonderful. but if one gets too much, the other does as well, leading to unexpected difficulties. what happenes if two strangers fall into this exact same trouble, at the exact same time?

a Scaramouche x fem!Reader, social media au.

| WARNINGS | swearing, suggestive themes, family-related trauma, love triangles, friend group dramas.

| MASTERLIST |

profiles I.

profiles II.

extra profiles

part I. - work, work, work!

part II. - wednesday?

part III. - worried.

part IV. - withdrawal.

part V. - who?

part VI. - a poem

part VII. - anony-mouche?

part VIII. - ajax..

part IX. - almost. (written part)

part X. - an invitation?

part XI. - nexus. (written part)

part XII. - no words.

part XIII. - normal

part XIV. - no. stay. (written part)

part XV. -

part XVI. -

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

| prev. | PART XVI. - no. stay. | next. |

in which one experiences heartbreak, a punch in the gut, and guilt (written part).

Rain was pouring heavily - the perfect weather for a hot cup of tea. You were relaxing, cozy in your gaming chair after an unexpectedly fun stream with your childhood best friend. Things seemed to have been sorted, until..

There was relentless knocking on your front door, followed by the doorbell being rang multiple times. Who would be crazy enough to need you so urgently on such a rainy day, especially on the weekend?

You hurriedly made your way to your front door, not even caring about the comfortable attire you were in - only to be greeted by a drenched, panting Kunikuzushi when you opened the door.

"Kuni! are you okay? Come in, quick!" you pulled him inside with urgency, locking the door right after. "Stay right here, i'll get you a to-"

"Are you and that stupid ginger a thing?" he cut you off. His voice was strained, almost desperate. Has he been crying?

"What?" you blink at him in surprise, turning your body towards him.

"I said. Are you. And that stupid fucking ginger. A thing?" he repeated, his tone getting more aggressive by the second.

Stupid ginger? He must mean Ajax. Does that mean he was right about the whole Scaramouche thing all along?

"Whatever you're talking about, you probably got the wrong idea. I'm not in a relationship with any-"

He cut you off once again, but it was with his lips this time. He grabbed your wrist firmly, almost in a bruising grip, making sure you don't slip away from him. No, he can't let that happen.

When he finally pulled away, he looked you dead in the eye - that's when you saw the evident signs that he was, in fact, crying. His angry features started to soften, your surprised expression finally reaching his heart. What was he thinking?

"Y/n, I- I'm sorry." he let go of your wrist and let his arm drop to his side. The sudden guilt he felt was eating him up inside.

You stared at him in shock, trying to process the past 2 minutes you just lived through. "Kuni.." you spoke his name, your voice barely above a whisper.

"I'm sorry Y/n, I'll just lea-"

"No. Stay."

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART IX. - almost. | next.

in which silence is good and bad at the same time.. (written part).

Much to your surprise, by the time you got ready after agreeing to take a walk with Kunikuzushi, he was already outside of your apartment's door. The streets were dimly lit, but it wasn't hard to notice his puffy, red eyes under the streetlights. There was never silence between you two - you usually kept the convo going with whatever was on your mind. However, this time around you knew he didn't need that right now. He simpy needed someone to be silent with; someone to keep him grounded while he lets the soft wind sort his thoughts for him.

You walked in a lazy pace on the route you took the first time you hung out. The park you stopped at was one you visited countless times before during your previous years at the Akademiya, but being there with Kuni in such a comfortable silence it felt so different, it would be hard to explain. Sitting side by side on the swings, both of you gently pushing yourselves back and forth while countless thoughts occupy both of your minds.

It wasn't until your phone lit up in your hand, a text notification appearing on your screen. You took a glance at Kuni, who seemed to be too lost in thought to even notice. You took a second to open and read the messages you've recieved.

A serious message from Ajax? Surely a "once in a blue moon" experience.

You thought for a second. Issuing a call in such a serene moment would be so disrespectful, no? He probably wants to talk about something regarding the duo stream on sunday, that can probably wait a few hours.

His short response gave your heart a light squeeze. It was never your intention to hurt his feelings, but sometimes it was hard to tell if he's being serious or not. It's really just about the stream.. right?

"That message you got must be interesting. You look so distressed." Kuni's voice was quiet as he spoke. The tears he likely shed a while ago were still straining his throat.

"Oh, just one of my friends asking me where I am. Nothing to worry about."

He nodded in response, his feet slowly dangling in the air below him. He was looking at the full moon above the park, perfectly visible - its reflection in his eyes serving as a spotlight to give a clear view of his uncried tears. It felt like such a perfect moment to say something. To ask what happened, to tell him it's okay, but nothing left your mouth.

"Sumeru is great, I like it so far." He spoke before you could. Despite the comical timing to say this, it sounded genuine.

"I'm glad you do! You being here is great as well." You shot him a sweet smile, an innocent, unsuspecting one.

He wanted to tell you, he wanted to tell you everything on his mind. How his best friend was right. How he fell in love with you after the first day, how he got attached so quickly he never spent a single break in uni without you solely because of it. How his mother never loved him, never spent time with him, gods, she never even LOOKED at him. And when he saw the way you smile at him so effortlessly, how natural it is for you to be kind to him, to guide and help him, he immediately felt the bleeding hole on his heart starting to heal. But at the end of the day it was all a dirty, pitiful excuse in his head.

So maybe silence is the best choice for now.

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART X. - an invitation? | next.

in which a friend is there to lend a helping hand!

A/N: GOD I'M SO SORRY i literally disappeared for like what.. 2 months?? things in my personal life have been rough, but i'm back now! once again i'm very sorry for the wait 🥹🫶🏻

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART VII. - anony-mouche? | next.

in which a brave move is made, causing a commotion..

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART XIII. - normal | next.

in which we confess, confuse, and conclude..

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART VIII. - ajax.. | next.

in which Ajax is a nuisance. or is he..?

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART IV. - withdrawal. | next.

in which everyone wishes the stars of the show were there.. except for them?