you two started talking during a super rough time for you and the attachment gets rough. he's just here for a good time and the occasional fuck but you're falling in love. it's not like anyone can blame you but then again its downright pathetic how you act about him.
eventually he catches on to how infatuated you are and it becomes a games. how far are you willing to go with embarrassing yourself before its too far? he doesn't go straight to being mean, it's small stuff at first like the occasional comment on seeing other people. he'd tell you about an upcoming date and it'll send you straight into shock. it hurts to hear that word, a heavy sinking feeling settling into your chest the minute it leaves his lips. date. you two hadn't been on a date in god knows how long. every time you see each other its just for hooking up or maybe a chill hangout. why weren't you good enough for that kind of effort?
he'll see the hurt on your face but just continues on like its nothing. you've just given him confirmation of what he already knows, now the real games can begin.
for the next few months your life is genuine hell, that sinking feeling in your chest and suffocating lump in your throat becoming far too familiar. his text get less frequent, at first it's just a few days without hearing from him and then it turns into a week. a week becomes two weeks and suddenly y'all haven't talked in a month. when he finally pops back up again you're relieved, but that feeling is short lived when he last minute flakes on your plans, giving you some bullshit excuse about needing to finish a project he's been working on. the talking gets more consistent but it's really only to tell you about his dates or ask for advice on some other girl.
then you get the text.
holli<2: hey, things with amber are getting a bit serious and i just wanted to let you know, i didn't expect this to happen but i wanted to be honest with you.
that pit in your stomach comes back and it's so much deeper now, lump in your throat excruciatingly suffocating as your eyes start to well up with tears. there's honestly nothing he could've said that would be worse than this. you're distraught, on the brink of sobbing as you respond. losing to access him would break you, the thought of it causing tears to fall. you're response is one of pure desperation.
you: wishing the best for you two! if its not a problem i'd love to still be friends, i really enjoy hanging out with you and love to be able to continue doing so.
it's downright pathetic and hollis loves it. this lets him know you're truly all in, there's no way you could ever make the choice to leave on your own accord. you're stuck here and he's gonna milk that desperation until you can't take it anymore.
