#bananorexic

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Food looks so boring in black and white. Salmon stir fry with spinach and broccolini.

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KIK? bananorexic

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The only thing in my life that even makes me smile is my boyfriend. He's currently asleep in my bed and I'm sitting alone in the darkest corner of the room trying to talk myself out of suicide. No body around me even knows I have these feelings, I hate myself, I can't do this anymore; feeling like a black empty hole is growing inside of me ready to eat me up at any moment.

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New Years Resolutions.

get thin

become less dependent on my poor boyfriend

have friends

leave the couch sometimes

feed the cat with cat food instead of my own dinner

get a job

stop cutting all my hair off

wow this is a list showing everyone what a sad waste my life is

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Other peoples scars are the strongest trigger.

I have an uncontrollable urge and I've been practically clean, other than one or two minor slip ups, all year.

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Reuben has an excuse for everything, every time I ask him to do something he's tired EVERY FUCKING TIME. Like Jesus kid just do it!

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I feel like I have hole in my chest, like a huge lump of me was just torn away. Six words that cut so deep. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to think. I don't even understand what this feeling is. You've created something new, a sadness that's just yours; this ones for you.

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I love him with everything I have. He's my world, he's my everything. But I don't feel like he understands, I want to cry I want to scream. He just doesn't see how important he is to me. All he could say was "you don't know me well enough".