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Burzum: What was the last really stupid thing you did?
Left all my car tax stuff until the last minute. I’ve still got just over a week to do it all, but still, I probably should have done it sooner. As you can see, my terrible procrastination habit is still something I’m working on.
Deicide: Have you ever told a ridiculous lie to someone?
I have, both in funny ways and less funny ways. I think the funniest lie I ever told was when I convinced a load of people in my first year at high school that I had over 30 pets, including a boa constrictor. I’d originally said it sarcastically but everyone believed me, so I ran with it until I couldn’t take it any more and told them. Most people weren’t surprised by this point, but a couple of people were genuinely shocked. I’m not sure why, as my cover story for not having them when friends visited was “the circus kidnapped them all”.
Marilyn Manson, Dio, Anal Cunt, Dying Fetus, Type O Negative, Soulfly, Cruachan, Judas priest, Ozzy, Metallica, Megadeath
This will be a long one, sorry mobile users!
Marilyn Manson: Have you ever gone through a phase?
Yes. When I was thirteen/fourteen, I went through an emo phase. Now, I'd insist I was punk rock, but I was totally an emo. Every stereotypical emo thing you can think of, I did. I wrote bad poetry, I wrote terrible self-insert fanfic, I formed my own (very shitty) band, I said things like "glomp" and "I'm so random lol cheese", it was awful. Looking back now, it's really funny, but I have so much second hand embarrassment that I was one of Those Thirteen Year Olds that if a time machine was invented I might just have to go back and punch myself a bit.
Dio: How do you feel about religion?
If it makes you happy and it's not inconveniencing anyone else, go for it. I have no problem with people who are religious, regardless of their faith, so long as they don't try to intrude on my beliefs, convert me, act better than me, tell me I'm going to hell etc. If it's what gets you through the day and it brings you peace and happiness, it's your right to practise it. I do find religion interesting in terms of the traditions and stories from each religion and I'll gladly discuss it with people in that way, so long as it doesn't turn into preaching and stays "this is what we believe and here's why".
However, it does make me very uncomfortable that religion does inconvenience people. I know that it's not all religious and most of it is politics hiding behind religion, but in every argument against gay marriage, abortion, things that by now should really just be basic human rights, it always goes back to "the bible says it's wrong" or "it's against god" or something. That really does rub me the wrong way, because I simply can't believe that we're putting a deity that might not even exist above real, solid people who are existing right in front of us. It seems really messed up to me.
Anal Cunt: Do you think rude jokes are funny?
I do. I have a very dark, very rude sense of humour and inappropriate jokes do make me laugh. As long as they're cracked in a genuine, "I'm saying this to be funny and I know that it's inappropriate" way, rather than in an ignorant or malicious way, I'll probably enjoy it. I used to have this huge book of rude jokes when I was a teenager and I'd pull muscles laughing at it.
Dying Fetus: How do you feel about the music industry?
To be honest, past "wow I'm really pissed off they charge so much for music and are so pissy about people illegally downloading when they make literally billions", I'm not really interested. I don't like how it's a huge crime to download music and why it's punished more severely than most crimes that actually harm an individual rather than a company, but I guess that's how it works when people get greedy. I try to just enjoy the music and not think about the suits behind it all.
Type O Negative: Would you say you're sexually desirable?
People have told me I am, and I've had people flirt with me, and I've had sex, so I guess I am. Honestly though, it's not one of the first things I'd describe myself as, nor is it anything I actively try to be.
Soulfly: Do you have an old group of friends whom you miss?
I miss a group of people I knew online a few years back, though I'm not sure if nostalgia has coloured that a bit. I know the people were really cool and I miss spending nights talking to them and reading creepy stories and watching movies together, but I was also in a very dark place at the time and wasn't a great person, so I do think it's best we've all gone our separate ways and all seem to be doing well for ourselves. I do credit them all with helping me through one of the toughest parts of my life, though, and for that I'll always be grateful.
Cruachan: Are you into mythology?
I know the basics here and there, for Celtic and Greek mythology, and it's definitely something I would love to look into further. What I've read already has fascinated me and I'm always eager to read more when I come across mentions of it, so it's something I'm probably going to put time aside to read into. When I was younger, I had a book of Greek myths, and I used to love reading them before bed, even though some of them were in hindsight pretty messed up.
Judas Priest: Do you wear leather?
Oh man, I do not, no. I'm getting the giggles trying to imagine it, actually. For some reason my mind instantly put me in the tightest, shiniest pair of leather pants you've ever seen, and now I'm horrified. I don't think it would be my kind of look.
Ozzy: Do you think you work better single or in a relationship?
Single. I enjoy having friends, but ultimately I work better on my own. I am not very good at romantic relationships: they make me uncomfortable and I am too flighty and selfish to make a good partner. For me, a romantic relationship means you have to consider the other person in your choices far more than in a platonic relationship. It's expected that you'll go where the other goes, whereas in platonic relationships no one will grill you about it if one of you does something different for a while. No one will tell your that your friendship is doomed, either, which is something I've noticed about romantic relationships. People seem to think differences there are a death sentence; in platonic relationships it's expected for people to do different things.
I work better on my own in most things - it's just how I do things. I'm more comfortable dealing with things privately, and I like to be able to have that freedom of being single. Romantic relationships are definitely not for me.
Metallica: Would you say you've changed much in the last few years?
So much that I'm not even the same person any more. A few years ago I was a mess. I didn't have any control of myself or where I was going, I let people treat me like shit, I was surrounded by toxic and abusive people, I held my tongue and tried to be perfect for everyone, I put myself down so others could pretend they were tall. I don't do any of that now. I'm assertive, I have no abusive or toxic people in my life, I call out bullshit, I stand up for myself, I refuse to sell myself short. I've also moved away from my parents and I'm working on cutting them off, I'm not financially independent on them any more and even though it's a struggle it's worth it. I'm working on kicking my ass into gear and getting rid of the last of the bad habits I had, and I'm making sure that everything I do now will do me favours in the future. I'm completely unrecognisable to the person I was a few years ago, but I know past me would be proud.
Megadeth: Have you ever had a drastic falling out with a close friend?
Yes and no, I suppose. Hindsight complicates it. Looking back, I know they weren't good for me, but at the time I was very close to these people and losing them was a necessary but painful situation. One of these people left a permanent scar on who I trust and my ability to be affectionate and loving with people, something I had trouble with already, and I do credit this person with helping me realise that I never want to be in a romantic relationship again. I don't like admitting that one person can have that much of an impact, but what they did to me was unforgivable and it is not something I will ever recover from. With hindsight, I now hate this person, but it's not without its sore spots.
The other time was sort of different - by the time things went to hell I was glad, because I already hated her. She was abusive and disgusting and I was glad to have her out of my life. The period leading up to that point was tough, though. I did my best to make things right, to explain the changes she seemed to think made me awful (all I was doing was demanding she stopped emotionally manipulating me, insulting me, and putting me down) and it was tough to realise she was never going to listen. I've since gotten over her - if anything it's just funny to think about, because it was that pathetic and I'm so much better off without her, but we had been close once and it stung to realise she actually didn't give a fuck about me and just saw me as an accessory.
