#barchen

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I haven’t been drawing much cause

school and being buSY

[kamostaza]

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More sketches

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my soul is decaying

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An indifferent barchen

a monster child

and a mp3 foxx

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I’m working on comms but here’s a doodle of bar and their glassy eyes

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I’m sorry this accounts kinda dead and dragging. I don’t post often because I’ve kinda been avoiding a lot of the art sites? Not completely but I have been in a better mind not being super delved into art sites, mostly focusing on life.

My hair got dyed pink, but it washed out to nice shades of silver and gold peachy colors, I started school aaaand

I have a lot of stress

I have horribly tired all the time.

Just exhausted UmU

(the top doodle is a design i adopted from mutant on fa, the version of this hybrid of a crocdog was made by thekingstheory)

[lostinenvy]

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Oh jeez, this is gonna be a long one (got myself breakfast before answering it)

1. Are looks important in a relationship?To an extent yes; there has to be an initial attraction that can grow as I get to know them2. Are relationships ever worth it?Yes! No matter how much you’ve been hurt3. Are you a virgin?Lol nope4. Are you in a relationship?Yes :35. Are you in love?Yes. The whole love thing is hard for me cos i’ve been hurt before, but still yes.6. Are you single this year?Uh, I was on new years day and haven’t been since the 2nd of Jan7. Can you commit to one person?Yup; too loyal for my own good - even if it’s casual.8. Describe your crushSorry, don’t have a crush atm9. Describe your perfect mateSome of these answers must seem like total cop outs, but i don’t believe in the idea that there’s this perfect person - like i could have a list, meet someone with all of those attributes and not be able to stand them10. Do you believe in love at first sight?No. I believe in lust at first sight, but love is deeper than that imo11. Do you ever want to get married?Never been something I particularly wanted for myself but I would marry current boyf if he wanted me to (and pretty sure he lowkey does) 12. Do you forgive betrayal?Depends on the scale of the betrayal - cheating is a no, big lies are a no, certain lies are a yes. It also depends on the context13. Do you get jealous easily?I have in the past, but now I’m in a more stable relationship, not really any more14. Do you have a crush on anyone?Nope15. Do you have any piercings?yes, standard lobe piercings and the industrial ear bar16. Do you have any tattoos?Sadly i cannot get tattoos17. Do you like kissing in public?I do to some extent - pecks or brief kisses are fine but a full make out session is too much imo 20. Do you shower every day?No21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?Other than boyf? Doubt it22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?Nah, probably not23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?Have done before now so definitely (also, see q 7) 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?Theoretically, if i say with the guy I am with, it isn’t impossible25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?Well i sure as hell don’t want to break up26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?Not that I can remember27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?yes, forever ago28. Have you ever been cheated on?Uh, I have strong suspicions but no proof?29. Have you ever cheated on someone?Nopes 30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?Nah, not a fan of surgery (for me personally)31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?Oh god yes, who hasn’t? 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?Unrequited feelings yes, but i wouldn’t go so far as to call it love33. Have you ever had sex with a man?Yes34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?No35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?Yes, but not more than about 5 years older36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?Yes37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?I only found out after…. but yeah 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?Uh, i guess so. Everyone gets random wtf crushes right?39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?Yeah40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?Again, way in the past41. Have you had sex so far this year?Yes :3 42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?I’m not really sure? Make out sessions aren’t something that really happens :’)43. How long was your longest relationship?Around the 6 month mark 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?8 boyfriends, including current one45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?Not entirely sure, but it could’ve just been one?46. How many times did you have sex last year?Not a fucking clue47. How old are you?22 48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?Probably tell him to go fuck her and not to talk to me again tbf (cos that would be very shitty of boyf)49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?He’s super sweet and caring, and manages to be protective without being possessive50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?I would take the presents and spit in his face to be perfectly honest51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?Boyf :’)52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?Probably my last ex - it wasn’t working and it was seriously hard to break up with him (legit gave me a panic attack)53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?If there is, they’ve stayed quiet about it 54. Is there someone you will never forget?Too many people, for all the wrong reasons55. Share a relationship story.Gonna pick a happy one here.I am a total tea obsessive, and my staple cuppa is earl grey - shortly before boyf came out to see me in Germany I ran out. So i asked him if he could pick me up some supermarket own brand if he had space in his suitcase. He didn’t and was super apologetic about it which i thought was the end of the story - except he bought me super fancy earl grey at the airport and it was very sweet.56. State 8 facts about your bodyite, 1. i have pocos, which means 2. i am more hairy than hormonally normal cis women 3. i am on the implant which means i have a little tube in my arm 4. i have loads of stretch marks 5. i have strong calves 6. i am super unfit 7. i’ve gotten more prone to spots since the age of 18 8. I have an itchy patch on my leg that i cannot get rid of57. Things you want to say to an exYou should not become a teacher - you should not be ALLOWED to become a teacher58. What are five ways to win your heart?Be funny, be reasonably intelligent, be kind, listen to me, don’t be a dick59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)Can’t post the photo in this spam, so will link here - which was taken yesterday60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?Just over a year61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?Almost always their eyes 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?Uh, i guess i’ve wanted to experiment with bondage63. What is your definition of “having sex”?Penetrative sex. Oral is Oral64. What is your definition of cheating?It’s a lot more strict atm cos I’m in an LDR. So, for me, even flirting with someone else or “an emotional affair” with no contact would be considered very minor cheating65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?People have foreplay routines?!66. What is your favourite roleplay?Not something i’ve done tbh so i don’t have one67. What is your idea of the perfect date?Oh god, probably something really relaxed and fun that i didn’t have to get dressed up for, but shows how well the person knows me 68. What is your sexual orientation?I am straight69. What turns you off?Lots of things? Ignorance, narrow mindedness, smelly people, idk70. What turns you on?again lots of things but nothing is particularly coming to mind rn71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?I’m afraid I don’t really dream, or particularly have dirty dreams 72. What words do you like to hear during sex?People find this really weird, but i’m a huge sub so i quite like sexist name calling during rough play despite being a huge feminist. It has to be invited though i guess73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?I’ve only ever been bought / given flowers by friends, so it’d be a really sweet gesture for a romantic partner to do it 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?Probably blue eyes or nice hair75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?Probably my current partner being SUPER supportive about mental health76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?Honestly, I can’t remember. I used to be a sucker for gestures that show i was thinking about the person though77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?It depends how old the individuals are, but personally huge age gaps are not something i am comfortable with.78. What’s your dirtiest secret?Genuinely no idea? I don’t really think i have secrets?79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?I don’t remember the last time I got jealous of another woman, but i get a bit jealous of my boyfrends best friend, cos he see’s the boyf more often than I do - sad but true 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?Last night81. Who are five people you find attractive?Boyfriend, Michael Fassbinder, James McAvoy, Max Riemelt, Kenneth Bek 82. Who is the last person you hugged?Not sure? Think it may have been my friend Heli83. Who was your first kiss with?A guy who was a couple of years older than me that everyone refers to as ‘happy sam’ cos he never stopped smiling84. Why did your last relationship fail?He was pretty shitty about mental health, and was making mine significantly worse if i am completely honest85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?Have done in the past, and am doing now. I would say though, that i could never have a wholly online relationship or be with someone without having met them first b/c catfish

I spent 55 minutes answering this O_O