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having gone back to s14 during a bad bout of insomnia, i actually do kinda see them setting up barba/rollins as a potential avenue. there’s a lot of eye contact/looks between them in twenty five acts (ignoring how we may feel about a prosecutor choosing a line such as ‘take your daughters to work day’ to introduce himself to two svu detectives). rollins is the one in lessons learned to joke with him about giving up caffeine and gets back a very barba smirk. it’s also rollins who knows that he’s off skiing in gstaad in presumed guilty. i know he and liv have great chemistry and their relationship ends up taking precedence but. the dots are there if you want to look. if you are looking, i’d say they lead to their dynamic in forgiving rollins. he knows where she runs in the mornings and when he’ll find her. he’s got a neat little jogging outfit. maybe they ran together. he preps her for trial and it’s a repeat of the side of him we see in military justice in s15. barba is kind and surprisingly gentle with her. i’ve connected the dots
I see your taste in Barba fic and I approve. You got any good recs? If you have a rec list already and I just haven't seen it, whoops.
I have a short barson fic rec here! Here are some others that aren’t just barson:
Calbarson Insanity by KrisLetang
This one is a short collection of Rita x Olivia x Rafael fics that honestly have given me brain rot. The dynamic between the three of them, but especially Rafael and Rita is to die for. It’s very smutty though so fair warning. I just love everything about this ot3.
Internal Dialogue by Ava_now
This story isn’t finished but I like the insight it gives to Rafael Barba as a character, especially in his first few cases.
the deserts they left behind by lonely_is_so_lonely_alone
This is a barollins one shot that honestly blew my mind. It’s so good, the rhythm and the tone had me biting my nails. I never really thought of Amanda and Rafael as mirrors of each other, but they so are.
Yet each man kills the thing he loves by jonasnightingale
This one is just barson, but @anneowl2803 made a post about Rafael Barba giving off lesbian vibes, and this whole oneshot just confirms that for me. The man yearns like sapphos.
Touch-and-Go by whathobertie
This one stings a little bit but it’s a nice little introspective over a Rafael Barba and touch over the years.
Barba and Rollins really is an underrated ship. Like is it a bit crack-y? Yes. But they have such good chemistry. That first episode? Chef’s kiss.
(Even if it is mostly because Raúl Esparza has chemistry with like everyone, it still counts.)
Amanda’s Luck - pt. 1
It had come as a total surprise. The morning sickness, the hormones, the mood swings, the cravings. It had hit her like a shovel to the head, and she wasn’t really sure what to do about it. Nick was leaving for LA, she wasn’t sure she could even handle having a child. The idea of having a baby terrified her, every night, the same thoughts plagued her.
“Would I be a good mother?”
“Is it fair to make Nick the father of three different children from three different mothers?”
“Could we handle the distance?”
“Could the baby handle the distance?”
But she knew she had to do something, say something, anything. In true Amanda fashion, she chose the day of his flight to drop the news on him. She’d sent a simple text.
“Hi.”
“Hey. Everything okay?”
“Can I see you, before you leave?”
He had taken a few moments to respond, stirring up Amanda’s anxiety.
“Of course. My flight isn’t until tonight. When do you wanna come over?”
“Can I come now?”
“I’ll see you soon.”
Amanda had placed the pregnancy test she’d taken the day before into a baggie, just in case, which she shoved in the pocket of her jeans. She draped her black puffer coat on over a white sweater, and grabbed her phone and purse before heading out the door.
The entire drive to Nick’s brownstone, Amanda’s heart raced, her hands shook, her mind spun. Why was she so scared? Nick was a good man. More importantly, he was a good father, and he would be so excited about this. She knew that much. But maybe that was just it. She was scared to see the excitement in his face, the grin she knew he’d have. She was scared to hear the soothing words, to feel the loving embrace.
She knew, deep down, she was scared because she didn’t want him to leave her. Not with this weight on her shoulders.
Once settled in his home, Amanda took in her surroundings. Everything was gone. The walls were bare, the sofa they spent many nights on, gone. She swallowed. “’Manda?” Nick’s voice was soft, tender. He was worried. “What’s going on?”
“I need to tell you something.” Her voice cracked unexpectedly. “But I’m scared.”
Nick took a step toward her, his hand on the small of her back. “You don’t ever have to be scared with me. You know that.”
Tears accumulated in her blue eyes, and she turned to look at his face. His eyebrows furrowed, and his hands met her cheeks. “Amanda...”
“I’m pregnant.” She croaked. “I’m pregnant, Nick.”
His eyes widened, and his jaw became slack, but his hands stayed planted on her cheeks which were now soaked with tears.
“I’m sorry. I don’t know how it happened, I take birth control, I never missed-”
“Shhh.” Nick cooed, bringing her into his arms.
‘Dammit.’ Amanda thought, as she settled into his warm chest. His heart beat softly against her cheek, and she squeezed him tightly.
“Last month, after that hard case. We were upset. When we got back to your place, we went to the bedroom,” he explained slowly. “we forgot a condom.”
She sniffled. “So stupid.”
“No.” He mumbled against her hair, rubbing her back. “Not at all, Amanda. It’s all going to be okay.”
“You’re leaving.” She cried. “We’re having a baby, and you’re going away to California.”
He pulled away from her, but keeping her close to him. He lifted her quivering chin into his pointer finger and thumb. “Look at me.”
She did.
“If you ever need me, I’m going to be on the next plane out to New York. When our baby is going to be born, I’ll be right there, and I’ll stay here for as long as I can. You are not going to be alone in this, not for even a minute, understand?”
“You really wanna do this? With me?” She sniffled, wiping her cheeks.
He smiled. “You’re going to be a wonderful mother, Amanda Rollins. Of course I want to do this with you.”
She nodded. “Okay...okay.”
The beginning of an AU I thought up with some friends...It’ll be in a series of one shots! :)
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Law & Order: SVU Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Rafael Barba/Amanda Rollins Characters: Rafael Barba, Amanda Rollins, Jesse Rollins, Billie Rollins, Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr. Additional Tags: Smut, Domestic Fluff, Fluff and Smut Summary:
For Ashley, a request for Barollins smut and fluff.
I'm not sure this is as smutty as it was supposed to be, sorry...
𝕚 𝕨𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕟𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕔𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕚𝕥 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖