no time to go in depth but mc and Annabelle's kids would also 100% be Mr chambers and konevi's kids. they'll be the smug mfers with two moms and two dads and not understand why they can't brag about it in public when they're younger
that is all :)
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no time to go in depth but mc and Annabelle's kids would also 100% be Mr chambers and konevi's kids. they'll be the smug mfers with two moms and two dads and not understand why they can't brag about it in public when they're younger
that is all :)
The Cursed Heiress, Chapter Fifteen: Face Your Fate
Author’s Notes
After a lot of months AWOL, I have come here to drop the newest chapter of The Cursed Heiress. I was for months caught with my studies, the lack of engagement, and pretty much everyone disappearing or not posting, but at last I could complete the chapter! Please remember to read the TWs and tags. Enjoy!
This series, for several reasons, is +16. Reader discretion is advised
English is not my first language, so please forgive any typos/ grammar mistakes
In case this is your first time finding this series, do check its masterlist
Summary: The final battle is here, and everyone suffers its consequences and aftermath
Rating: R-15
TW: Violence, language, major character death and angst
Word Count: 10.4k
Reading Time: 30 min aprox.
Joanna was preparing herself, hiding her letters of declaration and her will on her wood desk, fully knowing the stakes of battle: many would die, or worse, the people she could care about would die. She could die. Elias was nearly her equal, her bad side, her yang. But he couldn’t let her die: he’d make her his slave, forever bringing chaos and mayhem to other worlds and realities. Her home would be gone. Everything she built, would be lost in the edges of oblivion. And as for Joanna, she’d die a fast, pathetic and un-noble way, which was the thing she feared the most. The people she cared about? A slow, painful death while she watched. She touched her mother’s ring, fully knowing that she was preparing herself to defend Edgewater until her dying breath. She had a plan for that as well. For months, she waited for this, but now that it was here, she wished to go back in time to tell them how she felt, but alas, that’d be selfish of her. But she couldn’t afford distractions. She had to do it. For her people. For her loved ones. For the fallen ones. For the ones to come, so they’d have a better world to live in.
“Dracarians,” the High Commander cried “assemble!”
A roar of war erupted through the field as the massive troops of the spectacular army marched through town to the forest, where they’d meet the monks of Arboria and Ebenezer’s wolves. They’d meet Kamilah’s vampires on the way to London and the Neropolian troops would be there to assemble the other armies as one, mortal armies included.
The four people nodded at each other: the plan was on motion. Mr. Sinclaire and Mr. Harper went with the cavalry, while Miss Parsons was with the archers and Prince Hamid with the infantry. Nya, Nene and Odessa were at the head of the army, the captains of each team.
Midnight was close, and as the troops marched, whispers were heard.
Where is our empress-to-be?
She was supposed to be the head of this?
You think she chickened out?
She’s up to something! The Crochanes are known to be scheming and use the element of surprise.
They all met the teams and marched together onto the portal made by The Elders, their skeletal makeup creeping out some soldiers. Outside, the English countryside impressed and dazzled the groups that had never stepped on earth. The vampires came out. At first, wolves growled, but they remembered they had a bigger cause than old grievances: the safety of the planet they lived in. And for that, they’d put their differences aside for one day. For the sake of their home and the fate of the earth.
They marched on the city, meeting in the way the tall, dark-skinned and strong Neropolian soldiers and mercenaries, giving an impression of the terrorized Londoners of Elias’s conquest. Prince Misha stood among them, his long hair in a pristine ponytail and his golden eyes lightening the way. He told his Commander in Arms that he’d go to St. James’s palace to rescue the Queen and Prince Regent and take them to safety. The commander nodded, fully knowing that this was Joanna’s command and he took off.
Elias’s army was a few miles away, ready to kill. Elias, on Duke Richards’s body, smiled sinisterly “My, what a delicious army Joanna pulled off! Where is she, by the way? Crying and moaning about her dead farmer boy?”
The Commander ignored his childish provocation and cried “Prepare arms! Tense the arrows! Go to your positions!” He then looked at Elias “Her Imperial Highness offers you one more time to withdraw and accept exile for the rest of your life.”
He scowled “I’d rather die than be commanded by a whore who has no sense of duty, especially one who doesn’t have enough balls to attend the very same war she waged!”
Mr. Sinclaire was about to defend her when her voice resonated through the whole city “That’s one great advantage of mine: I don’t need balls to best you.”
The whole field illuminated itself with her magic, and a few miles away, a lighting came from, the outside and a ball of light exploded, her frame appearing in front of Elias’s army, her golden armour illuminating the shadowed city. Her eyes were amber and her hair sprawled around like a holy halo, blinding Elias for a hot moment before scowling.
“What makes you think you will best me?”
Joanna smirked “Come closer and find out.”
“…CHARGE! NO MERCY!” Elias cried out “AND LEAVE THE GIRL TO ME. SHE’S MINE!”
A shadowed version of the duke appeared, and Mr. Sinclaire charged towards him, his sword glowing with his aura, feeling his power on the hilt. Their swords clashed, and he glared at him. They parried and their duel became an intense and complicated dance, their swords clashing and swerving, darkness and light face to face.
“Give up, Sinclaire. I am the Duke of Karlington, and I cannot be bested!”
He dodged and blocked his attacks “You forget, that in battle titles do not matter,” he blocked another attack and saw his leg exposed to him “However… wits and skill do, and a great deal.” He sliced his leg and kicked his shin “You know what is your problem, Your Grace?” He looked at a panting Duke Richards “You underestimate too greatly the people beneath you.” Then, he kicked his jaw, hard, a satisfying crunch coming out and he fell on the floor, his figure disappearing.
Demons charged against Joanna and Odessa, their weapons—the family sword and Odessa’s twin daggers—and charged forward the demons. Their magical weapons did an opening, blinding the demons, thing that gave them time to slice their arms, earning a screech out of their toothful mouth. The creature screeched loudly, dark blood spilling on the ground. She then summoned part of her magic and sent a cutting attack, slicing the creature in half, killing it instantly. She smiled to herself, having faith that the battle would prove as fruitful as she hoped. A new cry of battle commanded her attention, and she gladly answered it.
Meanwhile, Annabelle found herself paralyzed and at utter loss: she had never fought anyone that wasn’t her sister. One thing was a petulant toddler and another thing were the creatures before her, terrifying as she feared. She grabbed her lasso and hoped for the best, but the creature was faster. She closed her eyes, waiting for her demise when something very powerful and ancient hit the creature and sent the creature flying far away and knocking it out. An elder woman with red flaming hair and golden eyes smiled warmly at her, “My dear Violetta, I’ve been looking for you for a long time.”
She realised who she was “Are you his wife?” She swallowed hard and waited nervously for an answer.
“I am. He’s eager to meet you, my dear daughter.”
She took her warm hand, and somehow, it felt right. She swallowed and tears welled her eyes “So it’s true then? That I am a daughter of Lamrian?”
“The Duke’s no less, my child.” They both chuckled and were about to embrace when a roar interrupted the reunion “Duty calls. Why don’t you join us? You’ll soon command some of those troops…” She nodded to the fairy troops, all waiting for their Duchess’s command.
She smiled, “I’d love nothing more. Though, I have one question. You called me Violetta, why?”
“Because that is your name in Lamrian. Violetta Phyre Elricdotter, daughter of Duke Elric.”
She nodded and squinted her eyes “How about we show these men how it’s done?”
They both chuckled before attacking, both in unison and perfect harmony.
Back in Edgewater
Henrietta paced around like a caged lion, ranting endlessly, much to Dominique’s chagrin “I just can’t believe she’s been alive all along! God knows what that seductress has been up to. Probably off somewhere, up to no good who–”
“You do realise that if she had not intervened when those foul creatures came, we all would’ve perished? Be thankful that she did not feed you to them and do stop pacing and rambling nonsense, otherwise I will turn you to those creatures's mercy myself.”
Henrietta gasped at such a snap from the ever-composed dowager countess but said nothing of it, sitting on a corner, fuming. She wondered where her son had gone, alongside the servants. The moment the lockdown started as the three sisters had come to defend the estate, they had been short on water, food and candles, for Nene, the middle one, feared that they’d be drawn to the light, and the only place they wouldn’t dare come was the place where the former earl of the estate had died, thing that sent a shiver down to her spine. She had heard the stories of how he screamed nonsense about the lost heiress and how she’d be the demise of it all. Utter nonsense from a man that had turned mad. Though some change had come with that pesky redheaded singer’s daughter's arrival.
She was not well-versed in prophecies, but that Joanna was up to no good. Some servants had confessed they saw an odd light come off her room, a rare book with scribblings in Latin and many ancient languages, as well as reports of many people of the ton. She wasn’t a normal dumb village girl; she was smarter than she let on and had too many secrets. That, and many servants suspected that something odd happened during the night before the races, and that Joanna wasn’t seen in the incident of the races before Mr. Sinclaire carried her, imploring for a healer with Joanna full of scars and blood all over her body. That child was not normal, and she suspected she was above human. Another servant swore to see a scar of a wound she shouldn’t have survived, something big had bit her and she had survived. And the fact that she owned many weapons and knew many things she ought not to know till married was even odder. She had tried to reason with her husband to no avail. Henrietta suspected he knew about her origins, and the letters of Mary, or Odessa, or however that wench called herself informed of her true nature. She was going to discover it and expose her to the world, proving that Edmund was the rightful heir to Edgewater.
Meanwhile, the three sisters were fighting off the trolls and giants that had come to ransom the estate. Nya and Nene provided the most deadly and powerful attacks, while Odessa provided sneakier ones, tripping them and confusing them, a long tactic of hers. Though they were growing restless, they refused to give up.
“These things could run circles around us! We must do something!” Nya cried.
“Do any of you have any ideas?!” Nene asked.
“I do, but we’ve never done it since Ivan the Terrible’s raid to our respective lover’s villages!” Odessa suggested. The three of them snapped to her.
“Are you sure, Mimi?” Nya asked.
“It’ll take most of our energy.”
“It is the only way. We burst, they’ll all die and will have enough energy for the golems.”
The three sisters nodded in agreement before taking their hands and closed their eyes, focusing all of their energies to the monsters there and miles away. Their auras started to shine and they started floating, incantating even louder and harder, the ground shaking violently as they became blind and deaf, only feeling their power: raw, strong and powerful. She could feel Nene’s and Nya’s, and screamed as loud as she could muster, alongside her sisters, their power bursting through all of the county, the monster exploding and dying instantly. The three sisters panted and smirked. They all grabbed their sceptres and aimed at the golem’s hearts, and shot, the magical arrow hitting its target. The golems dropped dead and the three women whooped and cheered, hugging each other. The most difficult part was over, now the weaker rivals would come. The army beside them wasted no time in giving the ancient witches some of their energy.
One young girl had her hair woundly tied up, her throat visible, and Odessa stared at the pumped vein, and swallowed hard, feeling hungry. Very hungry. She shook her head and took a deep breath, ready to kick some more ass.
The battle started again, and Odessa, with her twin daggers, sliced and killed quickly, leaving no prisoners. One of the dark wizards lunged at her, and she wasn’t fast enough. He had her pinned and ready to kill her when she could no longer fight it. With supernatural strength, she pinned him and her fangs showed, biting his neck and in a matter of seconds had dried him up. She felt powerful, godly and unstoppable. Unkillable. Younger. Better. She started to fight again, killing and ripping mercilessly, feeling the power on her veins and whole body. She snapped a neck, killed and bit her way into the army, scaring her own allies, who recoiled at her with the cry of “Heretic!” but she did not feel that way. She channelled her magic and burned a man’s face before biting him and draining him.
She was angry. She was unhinged. She was vengeful. She was hungry. But best of all: she was reborn into a world where magic and blood existed.
She was the First Heretic, and wherever she went, as Nostradamus predicted, death and horror would follow and ensue.
Marianna had been preparing herself, and looked at her daughter, now hopeful that her daughter had a home where she’d prevail, looked at the kind woman: she was curvy, of caramel hair and sweet golden eyes, teaching her magic. All kinds of ancient wizards and witches had come and taken the opportunity to teach magic to this miraculous child that had been so long awaited. She had been at first reluctant, but enjoyed the attention very much. Her gaze came back to her letter and signed it with care, rereading the content again:
To my dear daughter Charlotte, or Augusta, or Edwina… to my little girl:
I do not know how this letter will find you; perhaps you will be a girl with that questioning spirit you had before you could even talk and walk. Or you may be a teenager exploring the world. Or maybe you’ll be a full woman, ready to take over the world by storm, full of opinions that shall never shatter.
There are so many things that you won’t understand… and you deserve an explanation.
You will hear many rumours about how you were brought to this world, so I shall answer all of your questions: it is true indeed that I was a worker at a house of ill repute. Yes, your father never loved me, but I like to think that he held me respect and kindness, and that, back then, it was all a girl needed, especially in my position. You were not in my plans, but for the moment I held you in my arms, I loved you so much, I knew that I had to do right by you. I got out of that vicious life to make you justice, and God gave us the best present: not only a good employer who loved you and even wished you to be his daughter, but also a better destiny for you than I could have… you’d be one day Empress of a great empire, chosen by ancient and powerful gods.
You may ask yourself why I never named you: it was not because I did not love you, but this world is a tricky one to live in: full of constant change, and danger, especially to us, the less fortunate. I was fearful that I may lose you, but you survived and thrived like no other, and that gave me a great relief.
I do not regret having you, or meeting your father. If so, the only thing I regret is the way you were brought to the world and the circumstances of it. Were I to have lived another life, a better one, perhaps my regret would be less. I haven’t led the most decorous, honourable life, you must know that, but if I were to live the same life, commit the same mistakes, I would do so, because it led me to you, my girl, my precious jewel.
In a few weeks’ time I’ll leave you forever until we are reunited again, but to you I will be a memory lost in your mind, more important things in your mind to care who your mother was once. I ask nothing of you, but I beg this to you, if you’d like: be strong. Never forget who you were once, or your roots. Never forget who was kind to you, and always be yourself, because when you do so, you represent the very best in me. Oh, one last thing: never let anyone let you down, especially not men. Because, before being anything or anyone, you’re my daughter, and you’re just as unapologetic and resilient as I.
I shall wait for you to come back home, to my arms forevermore.
With all the love in my heart, soul and being,
Mama.
She looked again at the kind woman. Her name was Guinevere, but everyone called her Gwen. She had this sweet yet wise and old demeanour.
“Now, close your eyes and tell me, what do you feel?”
“Pain, blood and darkness.”
She nodded and handed her an orb “Now, grab this orb and call the light to it and tell that darkness to go away. Bring in the light. Bring them back to the light.”
Elizabeth closed her eyes and her hands soon burned with bright, heavenly light. The orb vibrated with light, and soon the city was summed into light. Marianna and Gwen closed their eyes and shielded themselves, and soon the clashes of swords and cries of battles ceased in numbers.
A few minutes passed before an orange light and cheers from the army was heard. That little girl was not only what the Grand Seer had described to be, but had proved to be her, the chosen one; the awaited Golden Empress.
Back in Edgewater, Briar paced around Edgewater, bossing people around and made sure that everyone in the basement was provided for, given the fact that most of the staff had been blinded by the burst of light. She was yet to come to terms with this hidden world, but she had learned a few things.
She was so immersed in her thoughts; she did not notice Mr. Woods calling for her “Briar! I have been looking for you! May I be so bold to ask for a few minutes with you… alone?”
“Oh! Of course.” They went to the drawing room and sat down, and Briar looked inquisitively at him “Is something the matter, Arthur?”
“Yes, it is. I… I have fought in vain to pretend I didn’t care. That this feeling would pass and I could move on, but I can no longer retain it: I love you, Briar Daly, with all of me. I–I do not expect you to return my feelings or have an answer, but you must know, for neither my heart nor good sense can no longer hide it. My heart, body, soul and entire being is yours to take, and you alone are the bane of my existence and my soul’s most ardent desire.”
Briar had lost her breath to such a speech, and swallowed hard “Arthur… I–I do not know what to say…” She did not expect that. She was entirely paralysed, caught off guard. All her life, she always thought she’d have a witty answer to that, but there he was now, heart in a fist, begging her to end his torture, and yet, she could not reach the remedy. A certain blonde man with eyes of the colour of the sea called her attention, as his own eyes, as blue as the skies back in Grovershire, too commanded it. But whoever could she really give her heart? She thought that at the moment, she’d known, but she was now utterly confused.
“Do not answer me now, my sweet. Later.” He kissed her forehead gently and lovingly, and left the room.
She took a deep breath and went on to find Mr. Marlcaster to see if anything else was needed when she was grabbed by the waist and pulled towards a room: the earl’s study. She was about to cry for help when a warm hand covered her mouth and turned her around to see who was the kidnapper in question: no one else than Mr. Marlcaster.
“Edmund! You gave me a fright!”
“Forgive me, but this is the only place where we cannot be spotted.”
“Whatever for?”
He swallowed hard “I…I…” Before he could utter a word, he instead kissed her in a searching kiss where words were not needed. All feelings and words left unsaid were there, and he broke the kiss to peck her nose “I…I am not a man of speeches. If the love I bear for you were less, I could muster more words to express it. But… my heart sings for you so, I find myself stuttering like a fool. The love I bear for you is so great, this frail body I am in cannot express it as you deserve.” he took her hands and kissed them with utter devotion and adoration “My sweet Briar… if you could see yourself as I see you… if only you could see my heart… you’d understand, and I’d be able to cease those doubts in your head. You are my heart, my soul, the very reason I am able to breathe and the one soul that gives this grey world light and beauty. The strength you give me is such that I could burn the whole world and bring the moon to your feet at your command.” He gazed into her eyes intently “One word, my darling flower, and I shall leave this very room and remain silent till my soul leaves my body. However, if your sentiments are that strong… I beg of you to end this torment and tell me so, for I cannot bear to be parted from you ever again. And I–I love… I love…” He took a deep breath and their noses touched gently “I love you, Briar Daly. With everything that I am. And I can no longer fight against it anymore. I refuse to fight such a pure, natural and beautiful feeling, the only good thing I have left. The best thing to have happened in my life. My heart’s only, ardent and most powerful desire.”
Briar took a deep breath and squeezed his hand “Edmund… I want nothing more than to answer you, but there are people here, outside this room, that need us. That needs you, with Joanna absent defending London. But I promise… I will let you know my answer. You have my word.”
He kissed her hands and said “I have waited for someone like you my whole life. I can wait a few more hours.”
They both parted ways, not before smiling at each other again.
Ernest had been fending off his rivals as he became fully acquainted with his newfound powers, a powerful rush in his hands. He was unsure at first, but he grew confident by the minute, and was actually certain that they’d win this battle.
He parried and lunged attacks, though he could tell the army was growing tired and needed a break, and there was no backup. The rivals laughed and Elias smirked “Seems like you are losing more men than individual battles, Vunera. Are you quite sure you can defeat us?”
“I am certain. Are you sure you can handle defeat, old dog?”
Some people laughed at her remark, and he couldn’t help but snicker at it. He sneered, “Petulant child. You will learn your place.”
The ground then started to shake. A new light came out of the sky, and when he looked up… people declared dead came from the portals and sources of light, thousands of them. Giants, amazons… The most powerful creatures were here, and they were on their side. They united Joanna, and looked at each other before lunging at them, newfound energy among them. Amazons, armies, powerful mages like Merlin himself were here. They were saved, and the course of the battle had turned.
The new armies clashed as many of the new recruits fended off the bigger demons, and he swore he saw Joanna’s renowned grandmother Vivienne, who had been a raiser of the unliving and a grand seer, was now killing and knocking enemies like she had done this a million times.
Joanna and Ernest looked at each other, and then to the others, and finally joined their comrades, with a more powerful feeling that their enemy could not match: they were not alone in this. Beyond death and earth, everyone wanted her to succeed.
Ernest looked to one side to find his own father, fighting flawlessly, and he looked at him, his own messy hair and blue eyes “Give them hell, my son.”
He nodded, full of emotion “Like a Sinclaire would do it.”
Father and son fought in unison, enemies falling like leaves in winter, gaining more ground. He could see Luke and his father as well, back-to-back as they too gained more ground. Miss Parsons was with a red headed fairy, both knocking out monsters, her with her lasso, and the elder woman with fairy magic.
But then, he spotted someone very dangerous, and before he could say who he was, he knocked his father aside. He called for him, and that was a mistake, for when he looked up, he was about to meet his end when an amber light covered him, protecting him from harm, sending Elias away. He then looked up to see Joanna herself, panting and with an emotion he never saw on her face: fear.
They looked at each other for a few seconds before hugging each other tightly “You damn, heroic, brave fool. I could’ve lost you.” She cupped his face in her hands “I cannot lose you, do you hear me?! We… the world cannot afford to lose you. You still have so much to give, to teach, to learn, to do… don’t you ever do that again, alright? For me. For her. For us.”
Their foreheads touched and he nodded “I promise. I shall not be that sloppy again. You have my word.”
They lingered there for a moment, forgetting about the battle, the attack; the world ceased to exist for a moment, only them and a promise of a lifetime together. They reluctantly broke the embrace and wished each other good luck and both came back to their respective places.
The moment had come. The dark soldiers stopped fighting and Elias called out Joanna’s name, throwing the gauntlet. Joanna picked it defiantly. He had challenged her for a duel, and she had accepted. This was it.
She picked her sword and parried his attack, an intense duel coming in. Their swords clashed and ringed, their gazes never leaving the other, adamant on killing one another “Have I ever told you how foolish you were on giving yourself to that farm boy?”
“And have I ever told you that your mortal horsemanship is as lacking as your libido according to my mother?”
He growled “Liar! I am very capable!”
She smirked, “Tell that to the nuns in Kent.”
He lunged at her violently and she dodged every movement, striking back harder and better, her training paying off. She did not notice though, the more focused they were on one another, the higher they floated.
“Your father didn’t deserve your mother. His family were all scourges! He was too weak to be a leader!” He cried.
“And yet, she chose him, and proved to be a million times the man you could ever aspire to be!”
He roared in fury and lunged at her with a deadly blow she could hardly dodge, slicing her arm. She seethed, but remained as she was. They parried as they bickered “You are petulant… entitled…selfish…bossy…unworthy… and just like your aunt, a whore!”
Her fury was such, her own magic shielded her from the attack “Do not call her that! She was forced! However could she have consented to it?!”
She started to attack herself with far stronger and more passionate blows “If so… the whore here… was him!” She cried and kicked him hard on the stomach, making him double in pain “For his descendants have a tendency to force young women! You yourself inhabit the body of that SEX OFFENDER!” She cried out loud, gaining the gasps of everybody present.
They parried even harder, their blows growing deadlier and stronger to the point they were at the highest, and Elias did a terrible mistake as he gloated “Sex offender or not, I will prove to your mother I am the only one for her. I will kill you, and will conquer everyone in this world. I WILL BE KING OF ALL EMPIRES IN THE GALAXY, AND YOU WILL NOT STOP ME–”
With a swift movement, she sliced the head off his neck, killing him instantly, raging on her entire body “I believe I just did.”
Before she could react, a heavenly light blinded her, and she felt herself being dragged up, somewhere outside where she was. She closed her eyes, allowing her superiors to claim her. She didn’t dare to open her eyes, not yet.
“You’ve come a long way, child,” said a godly voice “you’ve evolved and fulfilled your destiny. You have one last task and you will join us. Cleanse this planet off the pest, child. Forget about harnessing it. Forget about control. Forget about the small power on the orb. Unleash every inch of power you’ve got, and show your enemies you are the sole ruler and protector of this land.”
She gathered all of herself, every inch of power, every single part of her vibrated, and when she opened her eyes, the planet where she lived was before her. She extended her hands… and unleashed her power, slowly entrapping it in her power. The more energy she demanded, the more she bled, the more holes she bled. But she did not stop. She had just begun the cleansing. She screamed at the pain and power she felt, and the planet started to look amber, and it was halfway through the process. She demanded even more, even though it’d tire her to death, but refused to stop. More waves of power came through her and the process became faster. She could feel darkness leaving every corner of every town in the world. Her scream became high-pitched, and her whole world around her shook violently, but she still didn’t stop. With one more push, she mustered the one wave of energy left she had and completed it with a strong ending, with everything shaking. Before she could even see her masterpiece, she felt like falling, and closed her eyes, embracing once more the darkness.
When she opened her eyes, the gold and white blinded her momentarily. She shook her head and her view then adjusted to the feeling. She looked up to see the Almighty, and quickly bowed “Your Holiness. You honour me by bringing me here.”
“Rise, Vunera,” they said “for you are now one of us. You have completed your tasks and met your destiny. You are a full deity, and a powerful one. But before we proceed, I must ask you a question that will forever change the pace of your life: do you wish to join us in eternal life and bliss, or do you prefer to remain among humans, my child?”
She gulped, fully knowing there was no coming back. This was it. But could she really leave them all behind? Could she really just disappear and leave everybody to fend for themselves? Leave that child on her own? After a few minutes of deliberation, she looked up at her one superior “I wish to remain among humans, Your Holiness.”
“Are you certain?”
She looked up to him “I am, Your Holiness.”
She could feel them making a face “Very well. You may proceed, Artemis.”
“Wha–” Before she could finish her sentence, she felt an excruciatingly painful sting on her stomach, like she was being torn apart. She gasped and saw her holy hand on her belly, ripping off the last thing that linked her with humans. She twisted it and she screamed bloody murder and fell as the goddess took her womb with it. She bled, cried and lamented her loss. She knew there’d be a price, but this was not what she planned. The Almighty passed down their hand on her wound and healed it “I am sorry for your loss, my child, but it is for the best.”
The world seemed to be back to how it was. Except for one thing: the demons and dark army were no longer there. It was gone. They had won. She laughed, forgetting for one moment her pain. She had made it! They had come out victorious!
The army erupted in cheers, celebrating their victory. Many groups hugged one another, and many talked about going to any taverns and singing and dancing till they all dropped dead.
Joanna smiled at her inmates, proud of her accomplishment. Everyone started to chant her name and clap at her, cheering and whooping. Joanna smiled widely, relishing on her victory, savouring it with everything that she had. She had worked hard. She had lost and now she had won. The world was at peace. With Elias, all of the necromancers had died. She had fulfilled her destiny and role.
But little she knew, there was one last soldier left standing. And he wanted her dead. He picked up the blood soaked in their blood, and seething, he aimed at her. To the spot between her spine and heart.
As Joanna celebrated, she did not notice anything at all. The world seemed lighter, better. She was far too distracted by the cheering and songs of victory. A mistake she’d kick herself for the rest of her life.
There was a small whistle, a shout from the crowd to watch out, and she looked up again… to see everyone with wide eyes, looking at her with horror. She looked down… to see the sword on her chest.
She couldn’t react. She simply started to fall, the world stopping and becoming darker and slower. She looked up and saw him: those blue and grey eyes, glassy with tears and trembling with fear and sadness “Joanna…” He was holding her in his arms, lovingly and with every fibre of his being scared to death. Of her death. He cradled her face and neck devotedly, repressing sobs.
She coughed, knowing this could happen and she had no time “It’s alright,” she managed to say between short breaths “it’s fine—,”
“Don’t say that.” His voice was hoarse and at the peak of breaking.
“I need to say it… let me speak while I can.” She knew the feeling very well. She knew how little time she had.
He shook his head, his hands cradling her. He was crying, and he minded little of the audience.
“You and I… the five of us… we were destined to this from the moment the man became the homo sapiens. We were destined to meet. And… I wouldn’t trade it. I’m… thankful… for having met all of you and had this adventure, to cross paths with you.” He kissed her hand, now weeping “The girl… she’s so much more than your blood. Her destiny is bigger than us. She one day will reign and unite what I could not. Promise…me…” she started to breathe hard, struggling not to give into darkness “you won’t… turn… your back…on her…” she wheezed “let me go… embrace her… for… she… is… the very best… of you…” she coughed as she noticed her legs were now ash “You… must know… that I… I love… I love y—,”
Before she could finish, she turned into ash, the wind carrying it. He called out to her, grabbing her like she was life itself.
Joanna Mills was dead. She was gone. Turned into dust, literally speaking. She had been there for a moment, and now she was not. He couldn’t move. He couldn’t speak. He couldn’t erase her glassy eyes and her awfully pale face, nor her normally pink lips now blue and purple, or her shaky breath. Nor her equally shaky voice, normally full of confidence and unwavering. It was like his heart had fallen to a bottomless pit, and he couldn’t find an escape.
But he had made a promise. She had asked him one last thing, and he’d honour her. For her alone, he’d do it. Composing himself for the day, he shakily got up and called off the battle, and everyone started to get ready to march home. He was about to start walking when a small tingle called his attention. He looked down to see a locket. J + T, 1813. Joanna’s engagement locket. He caressed it, the owner’s warmth still in it. A small tear ran down his cheek, and quickly shook his head. He’d cry for her later. First, he needed to go home.
When he arrived, the first thing he received was mail. His valet gasped at the sight of his master: he was covered in strange blood, his ringlets now messy and everywhere, with a strange armour and blood on his hand.
“Invitation for the duke’s ball, sir.” He handed it, and when he picked it up, a memory came to him: Duke Richards, picking a soaked sword and throwing it to somebody. To Joanna. He gasped, his heart beating at the pace of a hummingbird and the shock quickly turned into rage. It was him. Of course it was him!
“FUCK!” He screamed, kicking his ottoman. He passed down a hand over his hair, trembling of pure, rage “That bastard couldn’t have her, so he had to take her life, he just had to fucking take her life!” He screamed, his whole body trembling, only rage inhabiting his body. He screamed as her dying face passed on his head again. He fell on his knees and his hands turned into fists, his nails stabbing the sensitive skin. He let out all of the feelings “Of all the things he could take! Of all the fucking things, it had to be her!” He sobbed, his face turning red and he noticed his own blood on his hand “He is that fucking selfish and entitled, he had to kill her! Her, of all people!” He wished to go to his estate and unleash his rage upon him, killing him himself. Then, something fell in front of him. A miniature of her. Her cheeky smile and beautiful eyes before him. He immediately softened and his voice of reason called to him.
Think of her. She wouldn’t want you to spill his blood on hot-blooded revenge. She’d want him to face justice. She’d ask of you to be wise and bide your time.
He finally sat down, and started to sob uncontrollably, pain and anguish domineering his usually calm demeanour. For a moment, it only existed his cries of pain and utter despair and nothing else mattered. Nothing save his pain and love for her and her late father.
Prince Misha had volunteered to tell the family of Joanna’s tragic passing. He was quickly and eagerly received by Grand Duchess Odessa, her sisters and both dowager countesses. He sighed as tears pricked his eyes, nodding negatively. The dowager countess fell on her knees, now overcome with grief and trembling. The other dowager countess, Henrietta, made a face and looked away, distraught.
“What happened? Misha, what happened? Where is my daughter?” Nene wept with helplessness as Nya wept openly.
“I am sorry, Your Grace. She is gone. A few hours ago, by a sword soaked in blood that killed her in a matter of minutes.”
She shook her head “No… NO. I created an unkillable warrior, a goddess! I made her so she would never die! She has blood of the best–,”
“Stop it, Odessa!” Nene yelled “She is dead. Do you hear me? Your daughter’s dead.”
“No…no… she can’t…” She started sobbing, holding her stomach like she was being torn apart. Then, Briar, Edmund and the rest of the ton came, and Briar soon noticed the ambiance and a cry of pain came out of her, dropping to her knees. Miss Sutton joined her in grief, as well Edmund. Many gasped, too distraught. She was quite a controversial figure, but the death of someone young, especially an heiress, was always quite horrifying. He decided it was his time to go, and he was about to start leaving when Nya asked “Did she suffer?”
He swallowed hard and mustered those last words “She died in the arms of someone who loved her like life itself, surrounded by her friends and allies, knowing she had won.”
With that, not bearing this any longer, he left, trying to ignore the sobs and wails of the loved ones.
Annabelle had gone to the faeries' camps when she was informed of Joanna’s death. She immediately dropped her tea and started to cry, not believing it. Killed by a sword soaked in blood. Within minutes, turned into ash. Thalissa comforted her, and she cried till dawn. She looked at her and begged her to take her with her to train and not return to London or England ever again.
“It is unwise to run from one’s pain, child. It will eventually haunt us till we either face it or turn mad.”
“I have nothing left in this goddamn town. My whole family hates me and thinks of me as a doll to auction. The woman I love is dead. And I hate everything related to society. Please, take me away from this.”
She sighed “Very well. I shall send some men to arrange your departure and grab your things–”
“I want nothing from that cursed house. I want to leave everything behind. This life included.”
“...As you wish, dear.”
The moment she retired to bed, she started to cry, her face deep buried on her pillow, letting go of all grief, rage and helplessness she ever felt. She allowed it all to consume her for a while, trying to get her face of helplessness out of her system, but to no avail. She did not know when she fell asleep. She only remembered the chirping of the birds, and Thalissa’s hand on her back.
Luke Harper had seen many comrades die. It should’ve been natural to him now, but many years had passed, and Joanna was no mere comrade. She was so much more than that. She had been the reason everyone gathered. The leader. And now she is gone.
With silent tears, he poured himself some liquor and stared at the fire, the same tone of her beautiful hair. The most magnificent hair he had ever witnessed. He wiped his tears as his mother and little brother Benjamin came to hug him. He inhaled their scents. His mother’s, rosewater and herbs, and his brother’s, earl grey tea and grass. He kissed his head and squeezed his mother’s hand “I am so sorry for your loss, darling. I know how much you… cared for the woman.”
“I just can’t believe she is gone. Everyone thought her invincible, unkillable. We thought all would be over, but then, we all saw that sword on her heart and couldn’t do anything to stop it. It all happened too fast… I should’ve reacted sooner. I should’ve expected it. I–,”
“Don’t beat yourself up for it, Luke. No one could have known. You said it, it all happened too fast. And I’m sure Lady Joanna wouldn’t want you to blame yourself for it.”
He took a shaky breath “I was put here to protect her. I gave her my word that no harm would come her way, but now… she’s gone, and she’s not coming back.”
“Oh, my boy…” His mother hugged him as he lingered on little Benjamin’s sleepy arms, leaning on his loved ones, allowing himself to grieve and cry. After that, he’d find her killer and bring it to justice, no matter what.
Hamid had been awfully silent all the way back home. He was in complete disbelief. Someone as powerful as Joanna was dead, gone. And he didn’t have the chance to comfort her. He hadn’t been fast enough. Although, he was sure that he would not have been suitable for such a thing. The last thing Joanna needed was someone strong and who could bring her comfort, not a puddle of grief and nerves. He was sure Mr. Sinclaire had done right by her. Of all of them, he was the most noble and honourable, therefore the most suited. He only wished he had told her how he felt…
When he came to his apartments, Mr. Konevi rushed to comfort an old friend and together they cried the loss of a friend, confidante, fellow socialite and could’ve-been-lover and soulmate. Joanna Mills was gone and he felt his heart fall to a bottomless pit, his heart and part of his soul leaving with her. He cried all night, wishing he could do anything, but he had no energy whatsoever. He’d conclude his business in the Parliament and leave to never return. He knew he wouldn’t be able to bear such memories of someone he loved very deeply. He just wasn’t strong enough.
At least Mr. Konevi still had his beloved with him. As long as there was a place for love in this world, he’d be content, no matter how heavy his heart was now.
Days later, Ernest Sinclaire was attending to some paperwork when his valet knocked on the door. He looked up and he announced “Miss Howard is here, sir. Shall I make her come in?”
A few days ago, twelve hours after Joanna’s death, a letter from Miss Howard given by Mr. Chambers came, asking for an audience of a pressing matter that needed his attention at once. He had accepted, intrigued by what she could say to him. Though in no mood to receive anyone, he had to press forward; too many people were counting on him, and Joanna would’ve wanted him to go on and attend his tenants.
A quiet knock called him, and he asked her to come in: she was now older than he first remembered, the signals of age and tiredness on her face, but her demeanour remained composed and she was able to bow politely “Mr. Sinclaire. I thank you for attending me in such haste. It mustn’t be easy, after your friend’s passing.”
He could only nod “Thank you kindly, Miss Howard. Please, take a seat. Would you like some tea?”
“I’m good.” There was a pause before she cleared her throat “If I can be honest… I do not know where to begin, despite having rehearsed this conversation for years… Um, after our last meeting, I worked as a maid at your friend’s house, and he was kind, but… I found out I was with child. Your child. I was a tad scared. As you know, my age was not ideal to have children, but all I could do was go on… I didn’t name her, fearful that she might succumb to influenza or any other infant illness, but… she thrived, but as you know, the world is changing. I thought that at the age of five I could send her to work… until a month ago I met your late friend, Lady Joanna. She told me that this child… this daughter of ours was destined to take on her role one day and had been long awaited.” She chuckled “Incredible, is it not?”
Mr. Sinclaire had stopped truly listening from the moment she said ‘child’ and ‘daughter’. He had a child, a daughter… and he had not been there for her! He was utterly horrified “Miss Howard, I… I am so sorry. I–I should’ve been there, I–,”
“No. I made the decision of you not meeting her. I thought you’d remarry and forget about us, but it seems like it was quite the opposite.” She smiled to herself “She might be only three, but she is so much like you: same unruly hair, same inquisitive eyes, beautiful freckles, keen mind and a love for poetry and hunger of knowledge, as well as thoughtfulness and emotional intelligence. Every time she speaks, I think of you. I wished to take her to you sooner, but I was afraid that you’d shun me–,”
“I would never do such a thing, less alone to the mother of my only child.” He assured her, taking her hand, colder than usual, “However, I must ask… why are you telling me this now, Miss Howard?”
She swallowed hard “Because I am dying, sir. I am expected to part this Wednesday. My skin and bones are already failing me, and every day I am weaker. And please, spare me the doctors. Your friend herself said that there was no coming back. I’ll die either way, so… I bring her to you, in hopes that you’ll give her a better life than I could ever do.”
“Are you certain, Marianna?”
She nodded “I am. I made up my mind long ago. Please, do not make this any more difficult. Do it for her.”
He nodded “If that is what you want, then so be it. I will not get in your way. However, I shall not deprive you of a final goodbye to your…our little girl.”
“Would it be alright for you to take on her this week’s end?”
He smiled weakly, “I’d love nothing more. May I… May I see her?”
Marianna smiled as she called for the valet “Please, would you be so kind to bring her in?”
“Certainly, ma’am.”
Mr. Sinclaire held his breath, hearing the small steps coming closer to the office “Mr. Sinclaire, may I present to you our daughter?”
The door opened to reveal a young girl, no more than three years old, with golden hair and deep blue eyes like his own, a small shy and nervous demeanour and small freckles on her face, like his mother had. She bowed to him “Nice to meet you, sir.”
He let out the deep breath he did not notice he had been holding. In that moment, he felt an immense love like never before. He was extremely nervous. He didn’t think himself worthy of such a small blessing. All his life, it had just been him, but now, there was a small girl who needed him and depended on him. It was the most paralysing and wonderful fear his heart ever felt before. And he was adamant to do right by her, no matter what.
He cleared his throat and knelt down and smiled at her “Hello, beautiful. I’m Mr. Ernest Sinclaire, but you may call me Ernest. It’s a pleasure to finally meet you.”
Marianna smiled at both of them “I shall leave you to bond. May I take a peek at the gardens?”
“Please.”
She left, leaving both of them alone. He quickly sat her on the chair and cleared his throat “I confess I am quite nervous.” He smiled bashfully.
“Me too. I’ve never had a dad before.”
He swallowed hard “I’ve never been one, but… I’m willing to learn. For you.”
She smiled and looked away. She looked at his collection of books “Do you read, si–Ernest?”
He smiled brightly “Books are my greatest solace. Are you an avid reader too?”
She nodded eagerly “I love reading! Mr. Chambers always lets me borrow his books.”
He smiled and noted to himself to thank Mr. Chambers for being a father to his little girl. He took a tome of Shakespeare and showed it to her “My favourite author of all time. Would you like me to read to you?”
“Please!”
He smiled and invited her to sit on her lap, which she accepted shyly. He started reading, his soothing voice enthralling the young girl, watching him talk and express feelings sweetly. For one moment, there was no pain or grief or nervousness, only him and that little girl who had now won his heart in a matter of minutes. She had her little head on his chest, listening intently to him and observing the book. Once he finished, he placed her back on the floor gently and smiled at her. She was his. His little girl. His daughter. His heir. His heart.
“Is your house that big, Ernest?”
He chuckled “Not as many others, but it is big enough. Would you like me to tour you?”
“Yes!” She squealed eagerly and he offered his hand and she took it, strolling to the different rooms, and the girl was in awe with the property, looking at everything, and eventually showed her a special room.
“This will be your room, if you’d like to stay. I would love nothing more.” He smiled and looked away, focusing on the smoothness and warmth of her small hand compared to his gigantic hands and long fingers.
“Really? Can I bring my dolls and books and brush?!” She asked eagerly.
He smiled sweetly at her “That and more. Should you want anything, I’ll gladly give it to you.”
“Really?!”
He nodded and she hugged him. He stopped breathing for one moment. His heart, body and soul soared at the feeling. She was extremely warm and cuddly, her long hair was soft and she smelled so nice… rosemary, soap and pine. He hugged her back tightly, kissing her head, tears of joy and love running down his cheeks.
“I’m happy I’ve met you, sir.”
“I’m happy too.” He managed to say, lost in her embrace.
The two of them separated and he wiped his tears “Oh no! Have I made you sad?”
He shook his head “On the contrary, sweetheart. You’ve made me the happiest man on earth.”
The two of them eventually joined Marianna in the fountain, which she was watching thoughtfully. The girl ran towards her mother and hugged her “I trust you two had fun?”
“We did! He’s the best!”
His heart soared again with inebriating joy. Marianna whispered something to her and she went to inspect the gardens. Marianna looked now at him “There is one matter we haven’t discussed yet. Her name.”
He nodded “I hope we both can agree that she is deserving of a good name.”
Marianna looked lovingly at her “She is destined to be a great queen who will bring glory and peace to the empire, will she not? Well, she deserves a name of such a destiny.”
He looked at her thoughtfully and said “Elizabeth. Her name must be Elizabeth, like Elizabeth I, who brought peace and glory to the country under her rule, that reached the golden age.”
They kept discussing her full name until they finally agreed on it: Elizabeth Valeria Lydia Charlotte Victoria Ophelia Sinclaire, Imperial Princess of Dracaria and daughter of Ernest Sinclaire and Joanna Mills. He has asked her if it was alright with her to take Joanna’s name, and she nodded “Her fortune, influence and contacts will give her many chances I lacked as a girl. Besides, she’s her heir, is she not? It is time people see it that way, starting with taking her name.”
Ernest was a bit hurt that Joanna didn’t tell him about Elizabeth, but was thankful that she brought them together. He wished that they had talked about it, though, but now he had to fulfil her dying wish: dedicate himself truly and earnestly to her. And he would. Because he was not only a man of his word, but also loved her enough to stop his grieving to raise his daughter.
He bid farewell to the girls and when he was to embrace Elizabeth goodbye, she kissed his cheek, thanking him, and he stopped, then smiled widely and kissed her hand, telling her he was looking forward to seeing her again.
During these days he had been lost, looking for a will to live, and Miss Howard had delivered him the most unexpected and beautiful gift he could ever ask for. He had much to do, and thus called his staff, informing them that the future mistress of Ledford Park would come soon, and they were surprised at the announcement: they had thought that Mr. Sinclaire would marry Lady Joanna and together they’d have children. During that time, he thought of Joanna’s father, the earl. He never had the joy of having a proper goodbye with the mother of his child, nor having enough time to raise her and cherish her, but he knew he’d want him to treasure every moment and not let anyone hold him back, and he’d honour his memory. He just wished he were there to deliver wise advice on everything, especially being the father of a young girl. But above all, he missed Joanna. He missed her surprising wisdom and her light, and how much braver he was with her. He wished he could perform any magic to ask her the million questions roaming in his mind, but alas, he couldn’t. But maybe he could spill out his heart at the public mass and private funeral– Briar insisted that Joanna said once that if she died and every person who hadn’t been close to her came and threw a party, she’d be very pissed.
He’d throw a dinner to celebrate his daughter and to honour Joanna. Not what she’d like, but it was his duty as someone who was close to her and loved her dearly. He picked paper and ink and started to write down his speech. Then, he asked his trusted maid to take him tomorrow morning to design a bedroom made for a princess and to call the modiste, for she would have only the best clothes he could provide.
Joanna didn’t know how much time had passed; if days, months or years. She just knew that everything hurt and she was no longer in England, but somewhere colder and darker. She coughed and could taste the metallic taste of her blood and how every joint, bone, muscle and many other organisms she wasn’t aware she owned until now hurted. She realised she was in a church– a Russian orthodox church to be exact. Many of her bones cracked and she groaned, getting up rather painfully. She looked around to see a cloaked figure and she approached it “Where am I? Who are you?”
“I am a messenger of the Almighty,” ah yes, the motherfucker who took off her womb “I have come to give you one last mission.”
“Yay, another mission where I can get killed. How positively exciting.” She sassed, rolling her eyes and wiping the blood from her eyes and nose “Must be my most favourite thing in the world.”
“If you are quite done,” the figure grunted, “I must tell you your mission before my time runs out.”
“Do go on and I’ll see if I should give a damn.”
The cloaked figure looked at her, and she gasped at the view: The Fate “I will overlook your jesting because I know you’ll give a damn once I tell you. Once you recover, you’ll have to go to France and rescue your brother and uncover a traitor who’s working with your killer. You’ll decide if they get Dracarian or English justice. And after that, go to the Ottoman empire and try to win over the sultan in the Dracarian graces. You have two months. Best of luck, child.”
“Wait, Fate, I–,” But she was gone.
She sighed and started to walk. Everyone back at home thought her dead. She walked and walked, and found a pillar. She was tired, hungry, angry, thirsty and utterly done. She had lost so much, and now she was away from home and her loved ones. She had gone through so much, and for what? She couldn’t stand it any longer. She fell to her knees and screamed at the top of her lungs, a sound earthquake following her “I’M DONE WITH THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT!! DO YOU HEAR ME?! I’VE LOST EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE I’VE EVER LOVED!! MY PARENTS, MY FIANCÉ AND FIRST LOVE, MY HOME, MY FRIENDS, AND FOR WHAT?! FOR. FUCKING. WHAT?! POWER? DID YOU EVER ASK IF I WANTED THIS?! IF I WANTED TO ENDURE THIS?! DID YOU HAVE TO BE THIS FUCKING SELFISH?! MUST I DO WHAT YOU SAY AND JUST BE ALRIGHT WITH IT?! WHAT ABOUT MY HOPES, MY DREAMS, MY AMBITIONS?! HOW COME THEY DO NOT FUCKING MATTER IN THIS?! HOW COME WHAT I WANT AND WISH FOR DOES NOT FUCKING MATTER?! AH YES, BECAUSE ALL THAT MATTERS IS YOUR FUCKING PLAN, AND AS LONG AS YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT, NO ONE ELSE MATTERS, HUH?! IS THAT IT?!” She signalled at the sky “I fucking hate you. You did this to me. Just because I chose the unconventional choice, you had to rub it to my face, for the ‘greater good’? Greater good my ass! Fuck you, Almighty, and your fucking plan, and everyone! FUCK YOU!” She showed them both middle fingers and got up, but as she walked, she felt weaker and at one point, she fell into the snow.
Luckily, a kind servant of the Kremlin soon found her and informed the guards. The tsar soon recognised the Dracarian princess and soon had her in a comfortable room to rest and recover. After three days, she woke up.
“How long have I been asleep?”
“Three days, madam. Is there anything you’d like?”
“I’ll need clothes and a pass for a boat to France. I must part as soon as I can.”
“What have you lost in France, my child?”
“...My little brother is in danger.”
Chanevi family portrait for @choicesnovchallenge2021 day nine: adoption
(If you heard a squeal in the middle of night, it was probably me while working on this 😅)
Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt crept in. Forget them as soon as you can, tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely, with too high a spirit to be cumbered with your old nonsense. This new day is too dear, with its hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on the yesterdays.
SpreadJoy #382: spreading positivity with quotes and @playchoices characters. Quote in edit by Ralph Waldo Emerson
SECOND CHANCES - CHAPTER TWENTY: ABSOLUTELY SMITTEN
Book: Desire and Decorum – Modern AU Rating: Teen and Up Word count: ~8K Summary: During a conversation with Yusuf and Bartholomew, Hamid can finally admit his feelings for a certain friend of his, but is he ready to make a move? Meanwhile, Lady Dominique shares her many concerns about Elizabeth's future with Lord Vincent. Characters: Elizabeth Foredale (OC); Prince Hamid; Yusuf Konevi; Bartholomew Chambers; Dowager Countess Dominique; Earl of Edgewater.
Notes: * All characters belong to Pixelberry, except OC. * Yes, they are talking about Halloween and costumes. I know it's July, but let's pretend for a moment it's October, 2018. * In the series chronology, this chapter happens after two one-shots - Anything But Zombies and Netflix and Cafuné. * Non-English words and expressions are translated in the notes in the end of the chapter. * English is not my first language. * I want to thank @princess-geek for being my beta and one of the most supportive people I've known. My friend, you're the reason I'm finally posting this chapter. 😊 * This is a submission to @choicesmonthlychallenge - Day 12 - Dance. Thanks for hosting it @lovealexhunt
I. At Bartholomew and Yusuf’s flat
Click-click-click. Hamid's fingers rhythmically press the buttons on the controller, relying more on muscular memory than his attentiveness to the match.
“London would be much greyer if you were not here…” Elizabeth’s soft voice and words have been echoing in Hamid’s mind in a delightful loop for the past days.
The concern in her tone was so genuine, and even the timid reassuring smiles she offered that evening were more than enough to make his mind race.
“…I’m happy that you came…”
His face lightens up with a smile even more often than usual whenever he thinks about her words. His skin tingles at the vivid memory of their embrace, her small hand enveloping his so tenderly, and if only he closed his eyes, he can almost feel her fingers stroking his hair.
No, not stroking my hair, fazendo cafuné. Cafuné, what a lovely word.
Bartholomew’s enthusiastic cheering brought Hamid’s focus back to the screen, prompting his fingers to press the buttons quickly. But not quick enough.
Hamid mutters a curse in his mother tongue once the rival’s back takes the virtual ball away from the attacker before he could shoot. The play-by-play commentaries praise the nifty executed pass that leads to another attack of the red team – Yusuf’s team –, and Hamid retorts the teasing words that drip from his friend’s tongue. “Yusuf, you know what they say about the rooster that sings too early...”
The other laughs at his remark and, at last, the trio watches the ball flying high above the stand packed with a pixelated crowd after Hamid shoots and more friendly mockery ensues.
Glancing at Yusuf and Bartholomew laughing together, he wonders. If Elizabeth were here watching his poor performance, he can imagine what she would say. He can anticipate the prolonged dude – long, lazy and filled with amusement –, the feather-light smack of her hand in his arm more of a caress than anything else, the wrinkling in her nose from the smile she would not be able to supress. Her shapely lips. The lips he cannot stop thinking about, not at work and not even in the middle of this match.
He forces his attention back and succeeds for a few moments, but the game cannot capture his attention. Not long enough.
Lately, nothing can steer his mind from her.
Tonight, specially, it did not help that Bartholomew showed those pictures of Elizabeth and Sinclaire at the fundraiser. The pictures are all over Twitter and other social medias. It is not her debut at those functions, but it almost seems like it. After the tea with the Queen and the confirmation of her title as the Viscountess of Edgewater, the press follows her with renewed and increasing interest. Beauty and brains, one reporter wrote and set the tone of the flattering words about the beautiful young woman who is also an accomplished Law student – nothing Hamid does not know already –, while another tweet speculated about her love life. According to one tabloid, everyone wants to know if the young woman has won the heart of Ernest Sinclaire, one of the most eligible bachelors in the UK. There was a link to a poll on their website. Hamid did not look at the results and wishes not to dwell on that topic either.
More than their polite smiles or inspirational words reproduced by the journalists, it is the image of Elizabeth’s body sporting the long gold rose dress with sleeves, flattering hugging her curves, that will not leave his mind for a long time.
How can my mind not drift to her?
His tongue involuntarily moistens his lips, and a small smile pulls at the corners of his mouth, in spite of not concluding the play.
I would like to see her in that gown. Up close. I wish I were the one escorting her tonight, to have my hand on her back… Actually, I much rather be the one escorting her back home. The one to unzip her dress... to have her entirely to myself…
A familiar urge stirs inside of him, and he stops himself – a dangerous line of thought considering he is not by himself this time. He briefly touches the burning lobe of his ear. Am I thirteen again? Rolling his lips inside his mouth, he refrains a chuckle.
Bartholomew flops on the couch between the two players and Hamid’s attention momentarily shifts to his question.
“How does it feel to have your ass kicked by my fiancé?”
“He’s got lucky,” Hamid retorts, but there’s no real edge on his annoyed tone.
“He certainly did. But only when it comes to me,” Bartholomew mocks and kisses Yusuf on the cheek.
“I couldn’t agree more, my dear.”
“Allah Allah,” Hamid mutters and playfully grimaces. “I thought we were here to play…”
“So did I,” Yusuf laughs.
A click and the ball is kicked back in game.
Hamid presses the buttons not fast enough and the back fails to tackle the attacker.
“Not again,” Hamid sighs when the pass back leads to the virtual ball falling perfectly into the rival’s attacker foot. Holding the controller tight, his fingers hit the buttons frantically, repositioning the backs. Another dribble and Yusuf grins. The click-click-click of the buttons is replaced by Bartholomew’s loud cheers when Yusuf scores for the fourth time. And it’s only the first half.
“Yes! Into the back of the net!” Yusuf celebrates, throwing his hands up in the air.
“It’s not even fun anymore,” Bartholomew mocks, then raises to his feet to get more appetizers like his fiancé suggested.
Hamid’s player kicked the ball back in the game, only to Yusuf’s middle fielder steal it before the whistle.
“I must be on fire tonight,” Yusuf taunted, “or your mind is elsewhere, my friend!”
“You know me too well, Yusuf Abi.”
Hamid puts the controller down on the coffee table and shifts in his seat to face the other. The corners of his lips pulled upwards rounding his cheeks and baring his white teeth. A smile too wide for someone who is having his ass kicked in the game, Yusuf considers.
“Which of the three Ws is it, Hamid Abi?” Yusuf asks, and his voice carries a laugh, “Work, worry or woman?”
“Is it ever work?” Hamid quips, and they chuckle.
“Judging by the smile on your lips,” he says, holding his friend’s gaze, a wider smile rounding his cheeks partially covered by the thick black beard, and raises his index finger in the air, “there's only one possible answer.”
A low chuckle erupts from the other’s throat and Hamid’s fingers rake his black hair. Propping one elbow on the back of the couch, he nears Yusuf, who continues speaking in a lower tone, “Since I am feeling lucky tonight, I am guessing this is about a particular woman. Elizabeth, perhaps?”
The mere mention of her name and Hamid’s smile grows impossible wider, almost touching his ears, dimpling his cheeks and crinkling the corners of his brown eyes.
“Am I that obvious?”
“Were you trying not to be?”
“I don’t think I can, even if I tried…” Hamid chuckles again.
“You look happier lately. We’ve noticed it.”
“I never felt like this before… which is odd, considering nothing ever happened, but... No one else ever affected me like she does... I just...” he trails off and rubs a hand over his mouth but cannot erase the grin parting his lips. “It is almost unreal how the tiniest and most mundane things make my heart soar whenever it is about her!”
The admission darkened Hamid’s cheeks just a little, despite his belief he never blushes. This fact does not go unnoticed. The amusement pulls the corners of Yusuf’s lips upwards, but he chooses not to mention the unusual occurence.
“It’s a wonderful thing, isn’t it?” Yusuf muses and meets his eyes, “To have someone in your life who puts that kind of smile on your face?” Hamid nods, and Yusuf pats his arm fondly.
The strophe from the top of the charts’ pop song Bartholomew is singing reaches them. Both glance at him and share a quiet laugh. Oblivious to the ongoing conversation, the blonde gently sways at the rhythm of the song and balances the content of the tray as he walks back from the kitchen.
Humming the song, he places the tray over the coffee table and looks around. The absence of clicks and the looks shared between the two in the couch are impossible to ignore.
Raising an eyebrow at them, Bartholomew asks, “What were you two talking about?”
“We are talking about the reason Hamid is still smiling after I wiped the floor with him...” Yusuf throws his fiancé a knowing smile. “Elizabeth.”
“Ooh! Finally! I thought you were going to spill the tea after I showed all those pictures and blabbered about her gorgeousness!” The man wriggles his hands and sighs, “Now I wish I had made popcorn! Tell me everything from the start,” Bartholomew eagerly asks from the improvised seat at the coffee table, “So, did it happen? Did you two finally kiss?”
Amused, Hamid clicks his tongue and flashes a sly smile. “A gentleman never tells...”
Yusuf bites back a laugh, while intrigued by the elusiveness of the reply, Bartholomew’s blue eyes remain trained on Hamid’s brown ones, staring in silent consideration as if working on a puzzle.
Familiar with that look, and being the recipient of it more than a couple of times, Hamid widens his eyes and wiggles his eyebrows playfully. “Did you find anything interesting? Can I cancel my optometrist appointment?”
“Shush! I know that look of yours!” the other insists, “And that smile! You are distracted and in too good a mood –”
“I’m always in a good mood!” Hamid protests.
“That’s true, darling,” Yusuf agrees. “He is not a man to sulk. Not even if he cannot beat me at a match to save his own life!”
“Hey!” Hamid raises his hands and his voice to an outraged higher pitch, “The match is not over!”
“As if you could recover from that...” Yusuf gestures widely at the score in the screen.
“Oh, no! Not like that, my dear!” Bartholomew cuts into the friendly banter. “Hamid’s got the same vibe of Disney Princesses singing surrounded by birds… and that means only one thing!” A manicured index finger is pointed to Hamid’s face and he declares, “You slept with her!”
“What?” Hamid lets out a loud laugh. “How can sex be the only possible explanation for someone’s good mood?”
“The most plausible, at least. Specially when it comes to you… It’s common knowledge a good shag improves people’s moods. It does wonders to mine.” Bartholomew mutters the last words and winks at Yusuf, who returns the gesture.
“And you cannot hide anything from me, sir.”
“He’s very perceptive, Hamid.”
“Spill already! We’ve been following you two like a soap-opera. At least have the curtesy of not leaving us in the dark!”
“I’m afraid you are mistaken this time, my friend,” Hamid replies and looks away almost demurely. “Though in my mind we might have made love thousands of times already, Elizabeth and I are nothing but good friends. Nothing romantic ever happened between us.”
“Yeah, right!” Bartholomew snorts.
“Why would I lie?” Hamid chuckles and leans back in the couch with his hands at the nape of his neck. “If you must know, she cares about me, and it makes me happy. Elizabeth built a home in my head. And I think I never want her to leave, even if I cannot function or work ever again… I feel so...” he pauses, searching for words. “Enchanted? Captivated? I cannot find the right word. How odd! It is like I walk on clouds. It is exciting and odd at once. Almost like I felt at eleven after I first kissed Yasemin.”
“You’re absolutely smitten, Hamid Abi!”
“You must tell her that!”
“That’s a rather silly word,” Hamid laughs.
“But fitting, right?” Bartholomew muses. “Isn’t it what being in love do to us? Makes us all silly?”
And he must be the silliest of all, he thinks, for falling for Elizabeth after she specifically told him she cannot and will not date him. A hand rubs the back of his neck, and Hamid sighs, “Well, I am feeling rather silly right now...”
“No complaints about the word love?”
Hamid smiles and thanks Yusuf for handing him another can of diet coke. “If it was good enough for Shakespeare and The Beatles, who am I to complain?”
“Hmmm… interesting,” Bartholomew says, a meaningful look shared with Yusuf, and he gulps his beer.
“Don’t get ahead of yourself, my friend,” Hamid says, a smile that does not reach his eyes, “Nothing happened, and probably never will.”
“Is he doing that thing again?” Bartholomew lowers the bottle and throws the question and a look at Yusuf.
“Maybe.”
Looking from one face to the other in confusion, Hamid asks, “What thing?”
“You know…,” Bartholomew starts, his hands moving in circles, “Raising all those walls around yourself whenever there’s a teeny tiny possibility you like someone… We know your speech by heart: no woman would want to follow you on your ‘adventures’ and it is not fair to ask a woman to commit to a long-distance relationship and all that gibberish we’ve heard over and over…”
“All valid reasons, even if you do not agree with me.”
“Oh, come on!” Bartholomew huffs, the alcohol and the emotions tint his cheeks in a darker hue of pink now. “You keep running away from your feelings, as if falling in love with someone was some sort of anchor to hold you in one place or a bloody curse!”
Bartholomew’s statement hits harder than a punch, stealing all the words from his tongue for a long moment.
Yusuf says softly, a hand on Hamid’s shoulder, “You know he has a point.”
“It’s not me,” he sighs. “It’s her. Elizabeth does not wish a romantic relationship with me. The slightest mention to it and she’ll just shy away. Which just makes me feel stupid…”
“Don’t you think her opinions could have changed these past weeks?” Yusuf asks, “Or might in the future?”
“I don’t think so.”
“Shouldn’t you ask her before deciding it for her?”
Hamid’s gaze lowered to the can while he popped it. The hissing of the gas masks Hamid’s sigh, but nothing hides the grimace that wipes his smile. “Is it even fair to ask her that now? Wouldn’t I be betraying her confidence? I proposed the friendship.”
“By that logic, isn’t it already a betrayal even if you are keeping your feelings a secret?” Yusuf ponders in his graver tone, and Hamid shakes his head.
“Don’t you lawyer me, abi…”
Yusuf raises his hands. “That’s not what I’m doing…”
“I can read the signs. Friendship is all she wants. And I must respect that… She cares about me. Truly. And it’s refreshing to experience this... even if sometimes… Well, it is hard to draw the line... I’m navigating uncharted waters... Sometimes, it almost seems like she is interested too; and during those few seconds it is almost impossible to hold my tongue and not tell her how I feel… The next minute it’s all gone. And she just looks… scared. Like a frightened kitty. Eyes wide and all. As if a sudden move or a mere touch and she would vanish into thin air. All I can do is hold myself.”
“Are you not exaggerating?” Bartholomew snorts with laughter. “It is hard to imagine any woman being immune to your charms... And I’ve seen the way she looks at you. The sparkle in her eyes…”
“You saw us once. Weeks ago…”
“I saw enough.” Bartholomew’s shoulder shrugged and he offered a cocky grin.
“I don’t know… She’s different. I knew that from the start. I proposed the friendship to keep her close and let her know the real me –”
“In the hopes she would fall for you...” Bartholomew cuts him off and Hamid nods, and takes an eggroll from the tray. “But you’re the one who fell. Hard.”
“Do you regret it?” Yusuf asks, “I mean not letting her go after that conversation.”
“Never. I cannot imagine my days without her presence. Since we met, I feel there’s this unexplainable bond between us. A connection. She acknowledges that too, I know... Elizabeth is gorgeous,” Hamid pauses, and his fingertips scratch his chin and the shadow of dark stubble, while he translates the thoughts into appropriate words. “I have no shame to admit I desire her like no other. However, there is also this… this… I have no words to describe how comfortable it feels around her. And her presence brings me peace… If friendship is the only thing reserved to us, I will be happy... Specially after the other night, when she went to my flat and... Elizabeth was genuinely worried about me.”
“Why do you keep saying she cares as if it was the strangest thing?” Yusuf inquires with a frown.
“I mean, I’ve never had any other woman to care like that... I mean, they do not stick around for that part... when it’s not about fun or partying. I’m not used to people other than family and close friends doing that...”
“That’s what happens when you let people in. You care about them. They care about you...” Yusuf points between gulps of the drink.
“But why? That’s baffling. She barely knows me… And she’s got so much going on in her life... That evening, she noticed I was upset and simply went to my flat. And I was so awful to her and insensitive!”
“I can’t see you being insensitive to anyone!” Bartholomew exclaims.
“She recently lost her mother, and I was complaining about mine and my family… Bak! I usually try to be sensitive and measure my words around her whenever the subject comes up… But that day I was upset, and blabbered like a wounded child, without even considering her feelings and the pain… She makes it so easy to talk to her and... to share things I do not normally talk about.”
“This is not a competition, Hamid,” Yusuf says, “You are entitled to your feelings too.”
“Exactly! You don’t have to fill that role of the ever so cheerful. Everybody has ups and downs.”
“Now I cannot stop thinking about my head on her lap and how I wanted to just lay there forever.”
Yusuf smiles at Bartholomew as Hamid tells about the other night and explains the meaning of the Portuguese word cafuné. “Isn’t it amazing to have a specific word for that?” he muses, and Yusuf smiles at his fiancé, a whole unspoken dialogue in their looks.
And they did not interrupt when he started musing, slowly sipping their drinks.
“Words cannot explain how intimate and connected it felt. And I am positive Elizabeth enjoyed it as much as I did. Unlike any other time when it feels like a mere touch could send her fleeing like a scared cat, she stayed. She seemed comfortable too. And she was the one to offer physical comfort for a change, the one to touch me. Repeatedly. And the way she touched my hair. It is beyond explanation. I only wished to lay there in her lap forever...”
“What were you saying before?” Yusuf taunts, “Nothing happened?”
“She was being a good friend.”
“You’re fooling yourself. Sex is not the only thing that matters!”
“If that is not the most romantic thing ever, I’ve learned nothing from years watching all those Julia Roberts’ movies with my mother!”
“You must talk to her. Tell her you like her, abi.”
“I actually said ‘I like you’ once when we were at the park… But... she just stared at me in confusion like I’ve gown a second head!”
“Did you say it right?”
“Bart, is there a wrong way to say you like someone?”
“There’s definitely the wrong time,” Yusuf points out.
“And how one knows it’s the right time?”
“First you never make a move after you make someone cry.”
“Bak! I told you it was hours later. I’ve made her laugh. A lot. If not for that photographer…” Hamid rubs his face and lets out an exasperated sigh he has being holding for a long time. “When it comes to love, you’re the experts –”
The men laugh, and Yusuf rubs the back of his neck. “Always good to start with flattery.”
“– How did you know, when you started seeing each other, that the feeling was reciprocated?”
“How did I know?” Yusuf pondered, a finger raking his beard, lost in his thoughts for a moment while looking at his fiancé. “I think I knew from the start... Like myself, Bart is very straightforward when it comes to show affection.”
“Look at him, how can someone not like him? Yusuf is charming, intelligent, and absolutely adorable!” the man giggled. “I had to make a move before someone else did!”
After a round of laughs and compliments shared by the two, Hamid went quiet.
Yusuf touched Hamid’s shoulder as gently as the words he spoke next, “As you know, people are different, and so are relationships. There is no recipe; no mathematical formula either.”
The mobile pinged on the table and Hamid leaned forward immediately to pick it up. Silently, he examines the notifications: a missed call from his mother, some texts from his sisters and co-workers, and none from Elizabeth. Not that there should be. Yet, he can’t shake off the disappointment. Why hasn’t she sent him a picture of the food to tease him or a silly joke about the ridiculousness of these sort of gatherings? Perhaps she is enjoying Sinclaire’s company. It’s not unusual that unprofessional feelings bloom between work colleagues. With a sigh, he returned the mobile to the coffee table.
“Ah! I remember those days when you’d even forget about your mobile…” Bartholomew muses, “the old thing would be lying somewhere completely forgotten.”
“Are you saying I’m rude?”
“No, I’m saying you’ve changed...”
“You’re already a changed man because of Elizabeth,” Yusuf ponders and offers the tray with goodies to the others.
“Definitely. You could be partying but you’re here with us, sharing our not so quiet domestic bliss... who would’ve thought?”
“It’s Wednesday and I’ll work in the morning.”
“As if it ever stopped you before!” Yusuf nudged Hamid in the ribs, throwing him an amused grin. “Don’t forget Faiza and I were friends long before the two of us met. And she told me all about you.”
“How can I forget?” Hamid laughs. “Thankfully, she prefers to share our embarrassing tales tête-à-tête instead of sharing with the world on that TikTok of hers…”
“Your reputation would not survive,” Yusuf bends with a guffaw of his own.
“As long as I keep my sister away from London, I’ll be fine…”
“You shouldn’t be proud of that reputation of yours…” Bartholomew mutters under his breath and takes an eggroll to his mouth.
With an amused look, Hamid asks, “Why should I not?”
“What does Elizabeth think about the infamous list?” Bartholomew retorts.
“She knows about it and does not mind.”
“Really?” Yusuf asks, “That’s good. But I’m honestly surprised she doesn’t mind...”
“Most people would get insecure seeing the lists, what the tabloids publish… and could wonder if you would just bed them before moving on…”
“I’m not like that! I’m not a womanizer. You know that!”
“We do. But does Elizabeth know? A quick search on the internet tells otherwise and could shake her confidence…”
“You should really notify those sites, Hamid,” Yusuf suggests, “I could handle that for you.”
“They can publish whatever they want, I don’t mind…” he says and gulps the rest of the coke.
“You like the attention, don’t you?” Bartholomew taunts.
“Actually, it’s all very helpful to scare away the women Anne keeps trying to set me up with. One look at that and they’re gone for good.”
“You’re evil,” Bartholomew says and slaps his arm, and they both chuckle.
“Haven’t you considered it might have the same effect on Elizabeth?”
“It’s different with her, Yusuf... She is getting to know me like those other girls never will…” Hamid’s shoulders shrug. “Elizabeth knows I like her. If she felt the same, wouldn’t she have said or done something by now?”
“Are you trully expecting that sweet shy girl to make a move on you?”
Rubbing the back of his neck, Hamid chuckles and looks away. “Well, not a move… but… she could at least indicate she likes me…”
“Oh, please! Why would she do that if you said yourself you are both stepping on eggs around each other trying not to cross whichever imaginary lines you might have drawn?”
“Bart has a point, my friend. It’s not easy to make that jump without knowing if the other will catch you…”
“I don’t mind jumping. I never do. I just don’t want to end up hurting her.”
“Does she really know how you feel?” Bartholomew’s eyebrow raise and Hamid ponders, fingers stroking his chin.
“I guess so…”
“Guess is not good enough! You need a big gesture. Something huge to prove you really mean it!”
Yusuf discreetly shook his head, and Hamid made a face. “I don’t think she’d like that!”
“Nonsense. Deep down, everybody expects something grand. Something that says a 100% the other really wants you badly!”
“Very romantic, my love,” Yusuf says, smiling at him. “But don’t you think it could be wiser for Hamid to take his time and consider first what they both really want?”
“Don’t you know what you want, mate?” Bartholomew asks and Hamid smiles. “What is that smile for?”
“My heart wants forever with her.”
“Aw! That’s cute! And another evidence you’re a different man already. You could’ve just said you wanted to tap that ass, but here you are just saying the sweetest things ever!”
“Not once in my life I used that expression, and I would never say that about Liz. No matter how amazing her ass is!”
“See! In love.” Bartholomew joined his hands to make a heart shape. “When you go to the Cotswolds, you should take her to a romantic picnic and just tell her that!” Bartholomew’s eyes sparkle with excitement and he claps his hands. “Even better, you could ask the inn to mix your reservations and you get stuck with only one room. And one bed! Like one of those movies! Ugh! So romantic!”
“Actually, we’re not going anymore. We’re going to Edgewater for the weekend, instead.”
“Still good,” Yusuf says.
“But all her friends are going too.”
“Oh,” the others muttered.
“And her grandmother. Who basically hates me around Liz.”
“That’s not good!”
“Lady Dominique can be quite intense,” Bartholomew says, and frowns. “Hey! But I’ve heard it’s a huge property. You can steal some moments alone with her. Imagine! Big old historical house. You two sharing a moment. Ask her to see the drawing room. Very private. Or to take you to the library. Imagine stealing a kiss there. Against those shelves... Maybe lay in one of those settees… And maybe do more than kiss.” Bartholomew winks at Hamid, and Yusuf sighs.
“Please don’t say tap that ass,” Yusuf begs, but his tone is light and stirred a string of laughter from the others.
“Remember. Be honest. And plan something big!”
“I will have to think about it…”
“Oh, my god! Hamid! If you are not willing to give yourself a chance, I will hit you in the head until sense is knocked inside that thick skull of yours!” Bartholomew flicked his fingers hitting his friend’s forehead.
“Ouch!” Hamid rubbed the sore area. “That’s rather undiplomatic. And I must warn you I do not respond well to threats.”
“Tough love, baby! Get used to it. Next time I’ll hit you harder,” Bartholomew says raising his eyebrows. “You are a good man, Hamid. We know you deserve someone like Elizabeth. She’s such a precious bean. I only know her for a few weeks, but I will stand up for her and will kick your ass, mister, if you only want to mess with her!”
“How can you side up with her? I’m your friend first.”
“There’s no dibs here!” Bartholomew growls and crosses his arms in front of his chest, in mocking annoyance. “Maybe I like her better. Maybe I always dreamed of befriending someone fancy like that, who owns a private library and horses! So chic!” He grins and gulps his beer, and Yusuf giggles.
“Traitor.”
II. The Foredales’s Townhouse – the next evening
After a last peek at the documents piling in front of him and at the notes for his next speech at the Parliament, a defeated sigh escapes the Earl of Edgewater’s mouth, which is purposefully ignored by his interlocutor, unnervingly pacing in front of the massive mahogany desk. Aware the task will not be resumed anytime soon, Lord Vincent puts the pen and his reading glasses down and sits straighter.
With the sort of eloquence who would cause envy amongst his peers at Westminster, Lady Dominque delivers an inflamed speech about image management. Flying from her mouth words that do not match the elderly lady with grey hair neatly tied in a bun, wearing a black and white Chanel suit, who dislikes mobiles and only a decade ago stopped penning letters to friends, succumbing to the appeal of instant messages. And now, in front of him she speaks with certitude about Pictagram, Twitter, algorithms and several unknown details about social media and the importance of the photoshoot Elizabeth declined. Most of the information lost on him...
The troubled and urgent words do not fall on deaf ears, and he nearly assumes the person in question needs to recover from some dreadful scandal, perhaps a personal offense to the Queen. However, reminding his mother is talking about his sweet daughter Elizabeth, whose appearance just the prior evening in the company of Ernest Sinclaire at a gala can only be classified as a huge success, the Earl relaxes. Nothing in the horizon could endanger the survival of the longstanding House of Edgewater, no matter how terrifying the data filling his ears may sound.
When the lady paused to take a breath, Vincent took the opportunity to ask, “What did Melinda advice?”
“To accept it, of course!” Lady Dominique replied with exasperation, “But your daughter did not hear a single one of her words...”
“It does not seem like Eliza to simply ignore anyone. Are you not mistaking her taking a stand to being intransigent?”
“She will not let Melinda do her job. The woman is a social media specialist, and she considers her advice irrelevant.”
Despite not enjoying the idea of having people working for her, the little resistance Elizabeth offered was partly demoted by her father’s advice on the matter and mostly by the perspective of having someone to filter the increasing number of invitations and requests of every sort that started to flood her email account and arrive almost daily at the family’s residence. Therefore, Elizabeth accepted to hire the personal assistant indicated by her grandmother and to allow the family's social media manager, Melinda Scott, who is dearest to lady Dominique, to create and manage one brand new public profile for her on Pictagram and virtually every social media available.
“You must speak to Elizabeth,” Lady Dominique’s exasperated tone demands.
“Why should I?”
“Because she respects your opinions.”
An inquisitive raise of his eyebrow, and the woman averted her gaze while fidgeting with the pearls in the necklace. When her gaze met his again, the admission came out in an almost inaudible tone, “She won’t speak to me.”
“You said you two had settled your disagreement.”
“I thought it was settled... I bought her a Birkin bag. And Cartier’s diamond earrings to match. Then I had Nora reserve a special appointment at Elie Saab’s boutique…” Taking a deep breath, she faces him. “I tried my best, and she’s being nothing but cold and rude to me. I do not know what else can I do. I’m not used to that kind of behaviour.”
“Have you tried actual apologies? It costs nothing and is highly effective.”
“I do not appreciate your tone, Vincent.”
“Sorry, mother,” Vincent coughs a chuckle, and she glares at him. “I didn’t mean to be disrespectful.”
Clearing his throat, he starts over in the conciliatory tone that made him a famous negotiator, “Considering the current situation, isn’t it wiser then to let it go? Is it worth to risk an even worse fall-out over this? It’s a mere photoshoot.”
“It’s a powerful statement. Her mother had cancer. Who could be a better spokesperson for the campaign?” the woman doesn’t wait for an answer to the rhetorical question, and concludes, “However, Elizabeth is being stubborn.”
I wonder who she got her stubbornness from... Wisely the man keeps the remark to himself this time, and rubs his face in silent consideration.
“You must speak to her.”
“Let go, mother,” he says softly but firmly at last.
“It would be a tremendous opportunity, Vincent,” she insists.
“Elizabeth can make her own decisions and she already said no.”
“She would become more relevant. Elizabeth needs to be seen. To be heard. Imagine how much her personal experience could inspire people. Also, her popularity right now could increase donations! Which is the whole point of the campaign, and the Royal Society needs it. That’s why I suggested her name in the first place.”
“I understand that. However, like you said before it is her image and her story after all. I can see why she could be uncomfortable with being on the spotlight. And how the subject might still be painful.”
“Her refusal is solely motivated by spite. She is not being rational!”
“I believe she is more than capable of putting her feelings aside in order to make a decision...” Vincent ponders. “Besides, have you considered that she might be respecting her mother’s wishes? Maria never wanted it to be made known.”
“The focus will be on Elizabeth’s experience, not her mother.”
“Once it becomes known, we can no longer control the narrative. The tabloids were cruel with Maria back then... How will they react now?”
“Melinda can work with that. Even bad publicity could be good right now.”
“That’s the opposite of what you said about those tabloids...”
“Being portrayed as some playboy’s mistress is not the same, Vincent.”
“Hamid is not a playboy,” Vincent corrects, and an unladylike scoff escapes her mouth. “I still don’t know why you oppose their friendship so fiercely...”
“I do not trust that man.”
“I don’t understand why. Hamid is a perfectly nice young man, and a good friend to Eliza.”
“He’s a charmer, Vincent. His silver tongue will say anything to win this House’s favour at the Parliament for as long as he needs it,” lady Dominique replies. “Which, I’m afraid, might include misleading my granddaughter.”
“I do not believe he is anything like that.”
Dominique purses her thin lips and takes a seat across from her son. Lowering her voice to a conspiratorial tone, she asks, “Don’t you find awfully suspicious the circumstances of their meeting?”
“What do you mean, mother? They met by chance.”
“Have they really? Was it chance or someone’s doing?” She stares him into his eyes, and continues, “Have you forgotten the unexplained messages to the driver? Sent from your mobile, but not written by you. I have not forgotten.”
“I probably got confused and wrongly instructed James about the airport...”
“Is that what the Countess told you?”
“The simplest explanation is usually the correct one.”
“You always had a blind spot when it comes to her deeds...”
Vincent sighed and met her gaze. “Maybe you give her too much credit.”
“One can never be too careful, my dearest. When you nurse a viper in your bosom, be certain it is bound to show its fangs and bite you...”
“I don’t see how Hamid would fit this plot of yours.”
“Can you not imagine the sort of scandal a man like him could bring upon our house?” she says, and they share a knowing look of understanding.
“It’s 2018, mother,” he replies, trying to hold in a chuckle. “I don’t think the plot of Dangerous Liaisons would affect our reputation these days.”
“Right now, Elizabeth is a breath of fresh air. The Queen expressed how satisfied to bestow the title she was. Everyone seems to adore her. But that can change in a moment. You know that. It takes one foolish choice. One picture. One misstep caught on video. Next thing you know, you fell from grace. She’s a woman, Vincent. If they ever want to tear her apart, anything will do. And sex is still the easiest path to destroy a woman’s reputation,” she pauses, “You think I’m old-fashioned, I can see it in your eyes. But our world hasn’t changed as much as you think it did… And the Countess is plotting. Against you. Against my granddaughter. She will not accept defeat so easily…”
Vincent’s hand curls into a tight fist, and he presses it against his forehead. Or maybe it’s his head that is toppling and needs the support. The man takes a deep breath trying to chase away the sinking feeling, and the familiarity of the words he is listening to.
“I don’t see how a scandal of that sort would benefit my father...” he scoffs and corrects himself, “I mean the Countess.”
“If I’m correct, Hamid is just a pawn. Perhaps the kind you sacrifice first on the match... A scandal could make Elizabeth step down, or lost your support. Maybe she thinks you could reconsider your decision if only she pushes the right buttons… She wants her son to be the next Earl. I know her too well: nothing will stop her in this path. No matter who she needs to crush on her way.”
With a frown, Vincent meets his mother’s stare while she continues speaking about the possible outcomes.
“Remember, Elizabeth is young and foolish and grieving. It is our duty to protect her and prepare her for her role the best we can. Even if she does not agree with our methods.”
“My daughter is an intelligent young woman and much stronger than you give her credit for.”
“Perhaps you do not know her that well.”
“Perhaps you fail to see what I see. She is her mother’s daughter. Maria was fierce. And I can see the same strength of character in her.”
“I see a lot of you in her too. She inherited your good heart,” she says, and he almost feels offended by her tone. “It is the sort of weakness some people can take advantage of. It will not be the first time for her. Only promise me you will speak to her. I’ll take care of the rest.”
III. At Hamid’s flat - the next evening
Elizabeth leaned against the wall while untying the laces of the boot, and Hamid set the turquoise slippers on the floor, his piercing brown eyes set on her.
“Still not talking to your grandmother, I see.”
“Why bother? She wouldn’t listen anyway.”
“That’s her loss –” The man throws an arm around her shoulder and leads her to the living room. “– I am interested in every word you have to say.”
“Good to know someone is,” she chuckled the reply and leaned against his shoulder for a fleeting moment. Too quick for his taste. Hamid forces the scent of her hair into his lungs before she moves away from him, already longing for this closeness.
“Many people are, I assure you.”
Her head tilts back to look at him. She cannot conceal the scepticism – or maybe she is comfortable enough not to pretend and act polite in exchange of any compliment he throws at her, a preferable option in his opinion.
“If you don’t trust my word, check Twitter or Pictagram.”
“Unfortunately, I did that on the lift... They only want to know who designed my dress and if Sinclaire and I are banging,” she muttered, “I’m already getting tired of that.”
“So am I.”
Her eyes darted upwards, meeting his.
“For you, I mean,” he tried to explain his previous statement. “I understand how irritating this kind of attention can be.”
Hamid threw her a reassuring smile and she nodded.
Princess Leia meowed and a wide smile curled Elizabeth’s lips at the sight of the cat sashaying its way to her. Hamid looked pleased at the scene, the kind of unexpected domestic joy that warms his heart these days.
Elizabeth’s focus is completely absorbed by the cat demanding her attention, and she sat on the couch. Princess Leia jumped to her side letting out excited meows and trills, a little conversation to which Elizabeth replied mostly with Portuguese words.
“Now I wonder if you come here for my company or to see my cat...”
“I don’t think you’re ready for that conversation, dude...”
Clutching his chest, he pretended to be wound, and she smiled warmly at him. The kind of smile that makes his days so much brighter, and makes being only her friend almost impossible.
“Hungry?”
“Starving.”
“Excellent. When you texted, I ordered from that Italian you like.”
“You’re the best,” she says without looking at him, fingers threading through Princess Leia’s long fur, and he wonders who the compliment is addressed... though the blush on her cheeks hint it might not be the cat.
The conversation with Yusuf and Bartholomew still fresh in his mind, Hamid mulls over their advice.
“Do you want to talk about what's bothering you?”
“There's nothing bothering me,” she says softly.
“That was a rather unconvincing performance. Try again.”
“I’m just tired...”
“Maybe I can cheer you up.”
Before she could say anything, he disappeared in the hallway and noises caused by the wardrobe’s door opening and closing came from his bedroom.
“Look what I’ve got for us.” Hamid handed her a large brown paper bag, and joined her on the couch, his body leaning against hers in expectation.
“What is it?” Elizabeth asked peeking inside. “Oh! Briar is gonna be so mad. She specifically said no zombies.”
“Are you seriously afraid of her?”
“Totally!” Her voice carried the giggles she didn’t even try to stifle. “And you should too.”
“Then, don’t worry. This is for another party. We will not ruin her pictures.”
Examining a fake scar tissue, she pulls at the rubber edges. “This looks so ridiculously fake!” She laughs – almost like a child, no intention to cover the mouth or stifle the sound of it – and presses the fake wound against his cheek not missing the way he smiles back at her. “I loved it!”
Zombie is definitely not what he would pick for a couple’s costume, but her smile indicates how pleased she is with the idea, and that is enough for him.
He leans forward, picking a prop of his own - a large and deep cut in rubber with splashes of fake blood - and holds it against her neck. His fingers lightly graze her skin, and she inhales deeply and her cheeks visibly redden.
“Will you be my zombie date, Elizabeth?” His question was accompanied by one of his wining grins.
“Oh! I don’t know…,” she stuttered, putting the props back on the bag, and he wonders if the word date threw her off balance.
“The question is much simpler than your exams at uni... Just yes or no.” She giggles, and he winks. “Of course, yes is the correct response...”
“As much as I’d love to be a gory zombie to my grandmother’s utter disappointment, I need more information before deciding… What kind of party is this? Is it work related?”
“Absolutely not. It’s the sort of party one goes to have fun. Maybe too much fun even. Good music, good atmosphere. Nothing like the boring galas you must attend.”
“I need a break from those... and hanging out with people who either fought on the Falklands or were already on politics to support Thatcher's decisions on the matter.”
“I’d guess more than 70% of the people at the party were not born when Thatcher resigned, don’t know the first thing about the Falklands and probably mistake the Iron Lady for a heavy metal band...”
“Perfect.”
“And I can assure you this party is very exclusive. Full of VVIPs, heavy security... a strict no paparazzi policy,” he stressed the last part and by the way her cheeks rounded with a smile he was positive she’d say yes.
“Just to be clear, you are suggesting we ditch our friends at Halloween and go to that cool party of yours by ourselves?”
“No, not at all. This one is on Tuesday. And it’s the most Halloweenesque pre-Halloween party at London.”
She bit her lower lip and looked at him.
“Yes.”
“Excellent! Then it’s a date!”
Her cheeks visibly blushed, the most alluring hue of pink colouring her face, and she averted her gaze, focusing on the cat lying between them.
“Tell me more about the party,” she asks softly, not commenting on what he said. “Where is it?”
“I don't know yet. The location is kept a secret until a few hours before the event. Last year a text was sent two hours before the event was supposed to start,” he replied.
“Intriguing. Where was it last year?”
“Holloween was at a club at the Southbank –”
“Holloween?” she cuts him off, “As in Felicity's party?”
“It’s not her party. It’s not even her family’s party anymore. It’s a London institution, if I may say so.”
“No way! I’m not going...”
She put the bag down on the couch and crossed her arms. The smile from playing with the props completely gone.
The seriousness of her expression almost makes him reconsider his strategy, but his charms never fail him.
“Come on! It’ll be fun! They always have the best DJs. And did I mention the gift bags?” He nudged her side, instead of returning the gesture, she tensed and didn’t meet his eyes.
“Hamid, I was invited too, but I’m not going. Felicity hates me! And she’s not my favourite person either.”
“There will be hundreds of people. You don’t even have to see her.”
“I know that. That’s why I will be as far away as possible from her party! It zeroes the odds.”
Hamid chuckles and reaches to pat her arm.
“Alright, I will not insist.”
“Thanks.”
“But the party is awesome.”
“I’ll believe you.”
“And I really want to dress as a zombie.”
“So you should. Despite Briar’s beliefs, this is a free country. And go to Felicity’s party too if you want...”
“But I don’t want to go by myself...”
“Then invite someone, dude.”
“That is exactly I’m trying to do...”
“Someone other than me.”
“What if yours is the only company I want?”
She gasped, but tried to collect herself. Even from his seat in the couch he could sense the warmness of her cheeks, and it took a lot of his will to not reach and brush his fingers against her skin.
Clearing her throat, she replied without looking at him, “Stop it. I'm still not going...”
Hamid scratched the cat’s head propped on Elizabeth’s thigh, and mused, “It is a shame. If you have met Felicity under different circumstances, maybe you could’ve been friends.”
“Are you serious?”
He nods, and she considers if he’s teasing her or not before speaking again.
“I can’t see people in such a positive light the way you do.”
“You’ve got things in common. Like yourself, she’s cultivated and you both face similar pressures from society and your families... And beneath that rough exterior –”
“Please, don’t say she’s nice or sweet,” she spats.
“I was not going to,” he laughs. “But she has a peculiar sense of humour. Very dark and a bit unsettling. Which is understandable... Her family is not a walk in the park and the Viscount... Let’s say his parenthood would make Tywin Lannister proud.”
“Hamid, you know I respect your opinion, but...” she started hesitantly, and he offered an encouraging smile for her to share her thoughts, “I mean... everything you are saying… that’s just a sorry excuse for her behaviour... You face a lot of pressure and the prejudice of a bunch of nasty people that don’t even know you, and you’re one of the kindest people I’ve ever known. And Briar! She is working her ass off and not going feral and snapping at people because the world is unfair. And let me tell you, I would not hold it against her if she did that weekly! But Felicity does those nasty things because she is a horrible person who chooses to act like a spoiled brat relying on her privileges and birth rights. Don’t let her off the hook that easily.”
“I believe people can grow and change. But sometimes, they need a little nudge to realise that... What if we could help?”
“Are you suggesting to someone she deliberately hurt to help her?”
“How else will she understand?”
“It’s not my job to do that. Or anyone else she bullied. There are professionals out there if she ever realises how entitled and mean she is and decides to change.”
“I believe in second chances.”
“So do I. But...”
“You believe not everyone deserves one...”
Her cheek hollowed as she bit its insides. “Yes.”
A heavy silence dropped over them like a blanket, and she gnawed at her thumbnail. For a moment, neither seemed to know what to say next, and her shoulders slumped with the tension.
“You think I’m being petty,” she uttered at last.
“I don’t. Sorry if I gave you that impression, Liz.” His hand reached for hers, and she stopped biting on the nail. “Was I insensitive for bringing this up?”
The way she purses her lips answers the question more eloquently than any words ever would.
“Sorry, Liz,” he says, a thumb gently rubbing her hand, “I don’t want to pick a fight with you because of a party or our different perspectives on Felicity Holloway.”
“I don’t want us to fight either,” she says softly. “Fighting is exhausting and I’m too tired already.”
“I brought it up because I thought you could have fun... Perhaps even dance the night away and forget the world.”
She pursed her lips for a long second, and then she smiled and looked at him. Then, she gently moved the cat's head from her lap without waking her up, and for a split second, Hamid thought she would leave, but instead she turned to face him, looking him in the eyes, a timid smile on her lips.
“I’ll propose a compromise, Mr. Diplomat. On Tuesday, I’ll help with your makeup, if you want, and then you'll go have all your fun with Felicity and I will not hold your poor taste against you; and on Wednesday we dance the night away until our feet are terribly sore. How about that?”
“You’ve got yourself a deal, Miss Foredale,” he says holding his hand out for a shake. She gladly accepts it. “I can’t wait.”
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Notes:
Cafuné - Portuguese word that can be translated as stroking one’s hair. Allah Allah! – Turkish interjection that can be translated as “good Lord” or “oh, boy” Abi – Turkish word that means brother, is also an affectionate way to address friends. Bak – Turkish word that can be translated as look. Anne – Turkish word for mother. Tête-à-tête – French expression that means private conversation between two persons.
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