#basically a diary entry

[ineffablepretzel]

i have always said i am not creative at all, and i still feel that way. even though i have created so many things with crochet. that's just following instructions. but you also designed your own patterns? they don't count as creativity, that's just pixelating something on gridded paper and revising them until i get the desired result.

i'm not creative. i just make stuff with yarn and a crochet hook. it used to be skeins of yarn, now it is a fox. i am not creative. my fanart pieces don't count as art. i made those, so they must compensate for being made by me and therefore cannot be art

[zerenovation]

5k words never felt so long nor took so long to write, omg. Nucarni Advent Mistlefic done and ready for tomorrow. (psst I'm not tagging this, listen close: I am so nervous to post something so... weird? Not my usual? I've lost a lot of confidence in this one! but you know, I wrote it, better to share than let it lie.)

[j-jellyous]

gonna bare my soul a bit and it might come off as silly and not a big deal but this blog just feels so lonely to me lol i’ve never felt more disconnected AGH OKAY im going before it gets too sentimental

[blyak17]

The world is burning

And I’m sitting here doing nothing about it

I can smell the fire in the air

And god damn do I hate it.

But how I love this smell.

It reminds me of my childhood

It reminds me of other contries

Because everywhere is burning

And it has always been burning

For as long as I have been on this earth

And I don’t like it this way

But I think I’d rather sit here and enjoy the late night fireshow

[snoggyfroggy]

[cityofjimmy]

Are you ever just like, so sad and ashamed that you wanna reach out to a friend who isn’t super in your life anymore but was a huge part of your life; and it’s not like things are bad between you, there’s just some distance and some stuff is separating you, but you know just talking to them would help but they don’t seem interested in your life, so you’re just suffering alone and wishing they would finally reach out? Cause that’s where my night is:

[emilyomily]

Waking up at 6 is just too early I feel like my concept of time for the rest of the day is just out of wack.

Like, wake up at 6am and feel like it's 8am somehow. Lunch at 11???? Which instead feels like 1pm. Get home at like 5-5:30.

Even tho I get enough sleep I feel like waking up at that time is not what my body wants 💀

And istg it affects the whole day, and like my brain has a harder time remembering tasks. Or is that just because job needs brain to be ON at all times???? Must be both.

EVERYDAY IS JUST LOW KEY LIKE "WHAT THE FUCK EVEN WAS THAT? WHAT EVEN HAPPENED?"

Weekend is nice tho.

[nai-nty-8]

As a diary entry today uh

I just finished my first organic playthrough of The Witcher 3.

I was dreading ending this for so long.

I was so dang worried with all my fuck ups how I'd manage to do anything.

I ended up being overlevelled and still somehow got the ending I wanted (with Ciri becoming a Witcher) . (Of course I'm spoilered I've been playing this for three years or more).

I will ABSOLUTELY start a New Game + but just for today.

Truth be told I didn't... I didn't really realize I was so desperately dreading the end because I was worried about a fictional daughter. My own relationship with my father is rocky for the most part, so uh. I guess the fear of repeating that really had me freaking out in dialogue choices and so on.

Don't get me wrong the absolute worst part of all this is still horse races and WHOEVER PUT SO MANY QUESTION MARKS ON THE SKELLIGE MAP

But damn it was a beautiful story. Now I have to move on and finish the Ghost of Tsushima. But to think I wouldn't have gone through with finishing this, specifically, if my dad hadn't pissed me off- I already wrote a character insert that left for good in a similar situation.

Overall it was a productive day but too many feelings. I just had to let that out. Thanks for reading I guess, and uh

Be safe.