#baurn

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Thinking about how I mentioned being ace again the other day and bro was like "you're EXTREMELY asexual" no bro I'm not but I have bpd and virgined too close to the sun I just got all my hangups with sexuality carefully re-applied to my brain where I don't have the trust in others or myself to be explicitly sexual.

I was so like, fine with the concept of sexuality and possibly getting into sexual situations and completely went 10 steps backwards

I think I'm not strictly asexual, like yeah probably acespec but I think I naturally lean more allo

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i know i should be happy for you but GOD IT MAKES ME WANT TO END IT ALL

It should be obvious i'd feel kinda jealous so why is the first thing you do rub your sexuality in my face

How much clearer can I make it that I find it upsetting? Genuinely how much clearer?

God it makes me want to throw up why are you doing this to me, how much clearer can i make it, what do i need to tell you for you to understand it

I didn't even really consider myself asexual you know, but this made me disgusted with sexuality again

AUGH i just want to rip all my skin off WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS

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STOP TELLING ME ABOUT YOUR SEX SHIT PLEASE

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I wonder if I'm too depressed now for you to be invested in me

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it's MY birthday but i have to do what YOU want okay okay I SEE

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"i'm bad at keeping surprises" guy seeming to have no surprises to keep #lmao

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why would you ever think i want to fucking hear about that genuinely what is going on inside your brain

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not even pretending like we're equals lol, good for you man