#dooll

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I think it's hard for them to grasp that, to me, "I'm not doing well" can mean not wanting to be around people at all; it can mean feeling empty and restless when I try to engage in activities I'd normally like

It doesn't just mean I'm slightly snippy or quiet

When I say I have issues around this time it doesn't mean I'm going to be slightly gloomy it generally means I need to basically be on swside watch

So surely, it should be obvious why it'd be in poor taste to harass me to do things with you

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5 days w/o oomfs: 😆 5 minutes /w oomfs: ⚰️

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i imagine it like this pulsing black thing covered in veins and slime, lumpy and disgusting like fat and flesh; you can barely see the detail save for reflections of light on its slickness

it's a horrible vile thing like a million tumors

it made me sick, day in, day out, making me dark inside, eating away at everything that's left

it finally comes out, it finally, finally comes out, writhing in front of me with a heartbeat of its own

i realize i have no insides anymore, this was all that was left

it's finally gone, it's finally gone, who cares if i'm gone with it, who cares if i live

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i want to throw up and feel this fucking thing crawl out of me

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there's something inside me and i can't get it out, why won't someone get it out?

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crying doesn't mean anything, it doesn't feel like anything anymore, i am not a person, i am not alive, i am just a husk waiting to be terminated

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i don't want to be a living person

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is there still something that can make me happy