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BB Doc - Histoire d’eaux
BB DOC "histoire d'eaux" (géno)
BB Doc ~ Les Burnes
Will I resign to fate?
So today 19 Dec 2011, I went to collect my medicial report from my BB doc. I had gone for a checkup last week to determine why my menses hasn't appeared in the last 5 months. And the results? I have hormonal imbalances, high cholesterol and possibly gout. And all these because I have gained 25kg or 55 pounds in 2 years!
What really worries me though, is when she told me if I can't regulate my period now, I may have fertility problems in future --- and I am only 28, married but yet to have kids!!!
But of me is struggling with fear, fear of my health --- it felt like she has just annouced that I am dying with only a month left to live. This part of me feels so devastated, and want to wallow down chucks of food, as though after today, thou will not be able to eat anymore. Yet the other part of me is feeling indifference, resigned to fate, and wanting to give up before even trying.
As I look at the list of various food to avoid- seafood, red meat, eggs, cheese, carbs, offal, all forms of sweets and fats, sausages, processed foods, pizzas, ice cream.... it really leaves nothing much left that is worth consuming...
So I was perscripted Progout for my gout, norethisterone and progyluton hormone therapy and last but not least, Panbesy. For each medicine type, I was given strict instructions to finish the whole course which will last at least 2 months. However, I am quite reluctant to try the Panbesy pills.
I do understand that it will help me lose weight much faster than dieting or exercise alone, but I am also concern about the side effects like depression, insomnia, thirst, and some even say, complicated child births... so should I take it or not?
It sure seems like this Christmas is going to be a very cold christmas for me... not only have I lost my job, it seems I may have very well lost my health too.... with bills piling up, a stressed-up husband, a ugly haircut and color, a fat obese body, a dried up bank account, a large fat face, a wardrobe with clothes that cant fit and a badly battered soul, what is there left for christmas?
From:
The Depressed Hopeless soul
19 Dec 2011 11:52pm
Weight: 84.6kg / 186.6lbs
BMI: 29.27