#bbysm

[julesevilla]

June 16, 2017 I'd be lying if I didn't say that hurt a bit.. but it's cool. I'm happy regardless, and I know you are too. I can honestly say I'm happier now and I'm sure you are too. But I also know it's okay to admit that it kinda hurts sometimes.

[julesevilla]

September 27, 2016. 12:15 AM.

Now you know what it feels like...

Whether is was 3 am or 3 pm. I became your go-to call.

But please stop calling to say you miss me.

I don’t need that right now.

[juwi-anne]

I just danced, got picked up, and kissed in the rain as a prom asking.. With my fave flowers.

what the heck is this boy doing to me again 

why tf are you trying so hard now that we’re graduating high school my god

[juwi-anne]

It's so hard not to hear it anymore when it's all we've talked about these last few weeks. "If we're not married by the age of 30, we'll find each other and get married." "We may not be in a relationship, but I still love her and I always will." I love sleeping next to a significant other. I love having that person's arms around me. I love being called back to bed to sleep with them. I love waking up to sweet kisses. I'm not worried about who that long term person will be later on in my life.. Even if it's not the one who's trying to plan with me now. But I know I'll be happy with whoever that person ends up to be. I just hope to God it's as great as this. I hope that person will be someone I can come back to even after the worst of my days. I hope that the love stays even after the most utterly confusing times. Maybe I wasn't loved the exact way I'm "supposed to be loved." But how can I expect someone to love me and only me when we have had such little experience with love? We're still learning and although I love one, I still plan on learning more from others. I'm not ready to settle down. But I sure am excited to learn more and lead up to the right one.

[juwi-anne]

Talking about the future always gets to me.

For these last 4 years, I avoided having that conversation just because I know it would affect the way I thought about the future.. But at this point, everything’s almost over anyways so I didn’t care to have this conversation.

“By age 26, I’ll be out of college.. And honestly, I hope I’m settled down. I hope I can find you again.”

fuck fuck fuck my little emotional heart

Just thinking about the fact that I’m so close to starting the next step to my life is so exciting. I’m almost there. I’m one step closer to beginning life for myself. For my future family. And that’s the most exciting thing in the world for me. To know that one day I’ll be able to support myself and my own family

Although I’m still on the verge of deciding on San Fran or just staying here, there’s such a good feeling to know what became worth it in high school. To know that I lived my life through high school to the fullest extent. 

[juwi-anne]

cuddles on rainy days

singing to each other in the car

laughing and tickling each other, preventing us from falling asleep

grabbing my face and just kissing it

then just falling asleep in each other’s arms

well fuck.

[juwi-anne]

"isn't this picture of her cute" "it's like of those pictures you look back on and smile because there's so much behind it" ooh what chu doin

[juwi-anne]

Already feeling simply happier not having to worry about you.

Well, at least giving myself the satisfaction that I finally ended things. You're not my responsibility anymore, and I most definitely don't want you around as I'm trying to move on. Because all you do is hold me back.

I still have so much care and love, but like I said.. It's been almost 2/3 years now, and I think we had a fair round of "I love you's" to know that it was real.