#bdsmpoetry

[the-lost-one-2231]

Stealers and stalkers

I found out your are not free

I want to make you escape

If she's not ideal to you

Her existence must fade

Like a Clyde

I'll shoot everybody through my car

Like a Bonnie

I'm falling in love like a movie star

It may be creeping

But it's the only way for me

If she doesn't deserves you

You to myself I'll keep

Your ice scream I'll be my dessert

When you find out

All I did for you

When You find out

Everyone I just killed for you

When you find out

I'm the one who deserves you

[galasu-no-kulage-suishin7m]

『硝子の海月-水深7m-』

此処は

僕のしずくを世界に灯す-存在物語-

――深く潜りすぎなくても、読める場所。

#04｜自由と誠実のあわいで -縛られるという意志-

前投稿で少し触れたが、僕は“緊縛講習会”という場に灯ることがある。

ただし、心の欠片の[パートナー:受け手]としてである…縛られる側。

実はこの灯りを勧めてくれたのは、心の欠片と共に受けているカップルカウンセリングのカウンセラー様だ。

僕は、日常に【BDSM】という灯りが流れていると心身の安定に繋がるという性質があるようだ。

D/sならSub寄り、SMならマゾ寄りの灯り…ただコレは誰にでも傅くのではない。

僕自身が望み、この相手に『従いたい』と思った時に浮上する灯りである。

なので、僕は僕に僕の意思で従属し縛っている。

少し話が波に流されたようだ。

僕の心身の安定や、心の欠片とのパートナーとしての海路を示す一つの試みとして“緊縛講習会”の提案をいただいたわけである。

家で緊縛縄を自作してみたり、緊縛の練習をする。

それが、僕と心の欠片を繋ぐひとつの架け橋や関係性強化の鎖になっていたりするのだ。

緊縛は、どうしても危険＊緊縛事故＊が伴う遊びになる。

だからこそ、神経の位置や正しい所作、テンション等の基礎を学ぶ必要がある。

これが信頼関係、主従関係の基盤にもなってくるのだと思う。

美しく、そして少し苦しい遊び。

エロティックでアートな灯り。

そんな灯火を心の欠片と共に継いでいけるのが僕の誇りなのだ。

まだまだ物語のページは開かれたばかり、縄のように綴っていこう。

縛ること。縛られること。

そのあわいの、幾つもの選択にこそ――

自由と誠実が宿る。

僕はそう信じ、この頁を、そっと結ぼう。

貴方の心に触れた時…

小さな灯りになれますように。

おわり𓂃◌𓈒𓐍

✧︎この投稿の灯りは、“ちい”という内面世界の存在と共に、水深7mからそっと外界に滲ませたものです。⟡

[lostinlastwords]

If only the fox knew. Understood.

But one look from the fox. It pins me down and sets me free.

Flying without wings.

This fox. This beast. My breath quickens. My soul rejoices in his needy gaze.

Pinning me with my own desire.

Gazing at me with such trust even as I sink my teeth into flesh over and over. My canines popping muscle.

Flying without wings.

The space of a breath and a whimper. This is freedom. This is where I am the most whole. Teeth, claw, and flesh.

Flying without wings little fox.

That is what you give me.

Flying without wings.

[sapuchino]

I want your discipline.

The lessons you can instill in me with your cuffs around me.

Show me bedroom mannerisms only we know.

Write sacraments for our bodies and show me how to practice religion.

You cuff me to your bed as if I’d ever try to flee.

As if I would ever sin against you.

No.

I want your disciplines.

[the-lost-one-2231]

Tawny smile

This perfect smile

That belong to this goddamn tawny guy

That enchant anyone

At first sight

Who see this smile

Doesn’t know that you chokes me

On bed

While my sigh

Gets dissipated on the air

This pleasuring smell

Will never know

That your greatest fear

It’s just about to come

Or these coffee eyes

This tawny smile

That melts me away

When slightly

Reaching me I saw them

Little is known by these eyes

I would steal them

And put them on a jar

So they will never

Stop looking at me

If I kidnapped you

Your smile would be only mine

But everyone would miss

Miss the presence of such Divine

What If I steal your teeth

Just like Berenice’s Lover

And keep them just for me?

What if I make you sweat so much

And put all your liquids on this bottle

And scented my whole bedroom with it

When you are not here?

Would you leave me?

My feelings

Would you scorn them?

It’s so sick

I have you on my life

But not on my side

It’s so painful

Sing the death

Of that tawny smile of such

But it’s really satisfying

See the fear on these eyes

Coffee-Hazeled eyes.

[the-lost-one-2231]

My name is what you call me

Between Sheets and cats

Blood and contracts

Your smell stays deliciously on the air

I don't want you to know my name

I cut my hair and skin for you

I want to know if after all this

If you want to stay with me

And if together we will run away

When the night begun to fade

If I tie you on the bed

And everyday

I lay on your chest

Dirty of wet

Would you still care?

If I break your legs

You wouldn't run anymore

But you wouldn't dance

You wouldn't dance on the moonlight with me

If I blindfolded you

You wouldn't see my true form

Wicked and Squizofrenic

And you also wouldn't see

My knees bending

My heart singing

And me begging

For your love.