The Light Always Burns Down When I Look at You
The light always burns down when I look at you, but I cannot meet your eyes.
You ruthlessly attracted my attention, as if my soul detached from my body and was absorbed instead by your irises, dark and subtle.
Do you feel a tug on your bottom two ribs? It’s as if the backdrop of my spirit wishes to drag me by my torso into dark waves, where sharp rocks glint in the distance.
“Look at me.” You demanded of me.
I could not meet your eyes, for dire fear that you would notice the many rings of pain in my own.
You, the dark wave, absorbed my light that you so desperately needed, but failed to stamp me out. Now, much as the candle burns with or without its own will, I am left aflame to wait in terror, alone, until my wick runs down, as the waves crash.
You shielded a tea light through a windstorm, walking alone in the darkness. The farther you walked, the smaller the flame grew. You reached the damp place, and held the small flame to a wick it used to know.
Would you carry this light again, if I asked?
For a brief second, the wind overcame us and you were alone in the cold nothing without light.
The light always burns down when I look at you, but I cannot meet your eyes.
You would obfuscate the starlight as we used to walk among the trees. Was this your way or warning me? I was your full moon, and you were my sky, but the weeks have passed and I am forced to remove my light from your life.
You really borrowed a light that was not mine to give.
The light always burns down when I look at you, but I cannot meet your eyes.
Your eyes have done more for me than I could repay with infinite glances from my own.
I wish that I could spend a leisurely time trying; I wish your eyes were close enough to mine, for once, to really touch. To have and to hold. To see the best version of myself mirrored in them, close enough to me, never straying, for all the countless days.
I wish for your eyes to never stop looking. I wish for your eyes to never let me go.
The light always burns down when I look at you, but I can never meet your eyes again.
