@bearlydruid gets a starter
It is hard for them to keep their hands off of each other. Every time they are with each other like this, Astarion is just as eager as Halsin, just as willing, and maybe a little more needy than he is.
They had taken it slow at first, which had built enough trust between the two of them to coax Astarion out of his insecurities and concerns, into being far more intense and needy with his desire.
It was supposed to be like all the other times. Hot, heavy, intense, exciting, loving. All the things Astarion loves about being with Halsin.
He had assumed that being with him like this, having Halsin inside of him, having them both gasping and moaning would be enough to take away the pain and memories that had started earlier that day.
Astarion's always been good about hiding his bad days.
He had only wanted to feel something good, to have his heart racing in the way only Halsin can cause.
Everything was going great, Astarion is fairly reactive every time they're like this. Both because he can't help it and because it encourages Halsin.
Somewhere in the middle of it all, those reactions vanish and instead Astarion is silent. The little gasps remain but they're not as loud as they'd been before, his moans are not as intense, and he's not looking at Halsin and rather it seems he is staring through him, his mind a million miles away.
Astarion doesn't say anything because he is not even aware it is happening.









