Hello, TT2. I am so sorry you are/were going through friendship loss. My word of advice is that if they were willing to change, then those friends are worth keeping. If not, then you are better off without them. Bad friends do not recognize their bad habits, but good friends do. So what will you and they choose? P.S., I love Reno! He is my favorite of your characters!
I'm genuinely heartened to find people sending me support even after a couple of months, so thank you kindly.
I will not go into details on recent developments, but I will say this: suffice to say, the two people in question and I are currently void of all contact, and we remain separated.
In the case of one, while I acknowledge my own mistakes I made throughout the course of our friendship, I do not feel the final impetus that led to them so abruptly and completely dropping me was in any way worth such a response. So while I can apologize for the mistakes I made - which I had already done by the time all this happened, and which I was making sure I did not repeat - I do not feel this specific instance is something I need to apologize for.
In the case of the other...the more I look back on our relationship, and the myriad of issues that went on throughout it, the more I realize how...problematic that relationship was. A lot of the mistakes I made with one friend were at least partially due to issues with the other, and while there were a lot of good times, there were also some of the absolute worst times of my entire life experienced, as well. I cannot lie and say I do not miss them, but I do not miss the stress, unneeded guilt, anxiety, and the general sensation of feeling trapped and like I might be walking on broken glass I had a lot of the time.
My feelings beyond that point remain generally the same: I still care about both of them, despite everything that happened between us, and despite how utterly ridiculous and out of the blue their betrayals were. If ever either of them choose to contact me privately and attempt to make up, I cannot guarantee I will grant forgiveness, but I will be willing to listen. However, I am not going to attempt to contact either of them myself: when one person has seemingly made it abundantly clear they want nothing more to do with you, and the other has betrayed you in a way no other human being in your entire life has, all for the pettiest and most ill-thought-out reasons...yeah. Not much reason for me to go crawling to them, is there? :P
Also, on a lighter note, Reno is glad to know he has a fan. ;)