The last few weeks has been a real learning curve. A part of my current program includes weekly weigh ins. During this block, I've noticed that, leading up to each weigh in, I freak the f@$% out. I panic. And I fall into bad habits. Old habits. I've started seeing food, once again, as the enemy. To make weight each week in my previous block, I had only two meals a day and stopped eating at 3pm. But, Id keep my exercise the same. The main reason why I joined this program was so that I could lose weight and gain muscle whilst creating a good and positive relationship with food. And yet, this block, food and I haven't been that good of friends. I've plateaued with my weight loss and am constantly reprimanding myself for not being as regimented or motivated as I should be. Coming from a background of eating disorders, it's a constant battle to fight the demons. And unfortunately, they've reared their ugly heads. Thankfully, I am able to see that things aren't as they should be. And I am in the process of figuring out what works for me. I want to be able to eat hard, train hard and get the gains that I want. I just need to overcome the mental block that seems to surface every time I start making progress. So here I am... stating that I want to learn to love myself. I want to overcome my demons. I want to become friends with my body. I want to become friends with food. It's going to be a long and hard road. But one day at a time. And this, I am determined to achieve. At 31, it's about time I start learning to like what I see in the mirror. Passion. Persistence. Patience. #becomminganexpert #onedayatatime #werk #health #wealth #wellbeing #patience #persistence #passion #fssk #strictlybackshots #fighting #eatingdisorders #trainhard #plateau #gains #muscles #train #gym #definition #tone #mindgame #overcominganxiety #overcomingstress #positivemind #positiveheart