kiss a dan. | accepting. | @beesensed. ⤷☹ - for an angsty kiss
how near openly he prayed for a moment like this --- --- stolen from the very girl he knew they both liked . it’s not like danny really understood the fact something like this could even happen ; chris didn’t love him and that was that . even so ... they stood face to face , lips so close it was almost awkward . how funny it was that the teen could feel the tears welling up in the back of his eyes , threatening to burn and streak lines down his cheeks . they didn’t . it’s been years since he openly cried around the team and he preferred it that way --- --- not one of them knew the turmoil he put himself through ... or the things he’s thought or done to himself in the sanctity of his room .
this kiss wasn’t anything special , it was misguided , sloppy , and overall not meant for him in the least . how much danny had begged for this to transpire , to feel loved ... it was nice for the time being . it wouldn’t last , and they both knew it . if anything , the brunet knew the other’s mind was kissing someone else , someone better ; that’s what offered the final push for tears to now roll silently down his cheeks . there was worry in blue eyes , but the now - younger teen merely shook his head .
let it last , please let the kiss last . love me , please .
love only me for once ...
never had danny felt so alive --- --- yet wanted to die just to allow destiny to run more smoothly . to let himself move on , to let chris move on and be with her . but god did it hurt --- --- it was ripping at his chest as his mind screamed . ‘ let me stay with him --- --- let me freeze this one blissful moment . ’ but he knew better than that , to be selfish .
chris was gentle , but it still stung , still burned him to the core that he had to constantly remind himself that this wasn’t for him . this kiss he was stealing wasn’t for him . he knew it but ... he didn’t mind , he never did .
the shame weighs heavily on his mind , the words echoing hollow. ‘ you are not his . ’
