Sep 6, 2023
Before You Fall - Visions
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Before You Fall - Visions
Don't forget to look before you fall
taylor swift
12/11
Pensive. Talked with one of my closest friends today and we lamented over the fact we grew up different. In terms of our tastes and viewpoints as they were outside the norm from our surroundings. That made me arrive to the point, I always do, how deep down I craved normalcy. How I craved the banal. I always looked for a way to insert myself in a puzzle that I was not a piece of. Somewhere down the line that got lost and I turn to alienation from that same normalcy I craved. I was so far up my own obsession with what I deemed "different" that I lost myself. Lost. Every time I thought I found myself in the abyss of my psyche. I realized it was only a mirage of myself. In other words, I was trying to be something I thought I was instead who I actually was. Even worse, I let people guide me off my path. Although, I welcomed the distraction. A very sobering moment in the aftermath of the smoke and mirrors. Summer 2015 came. Locked away in an apartment making beats all day. Posting pictures of things I liked. Pink. I liked pink. My mom's favorite color. All these ads. All these brands. Tinashe, bjork, rihanna, and Janet hanging on my wall. These images were the closest I felt to home. I rapped everyday. Sometimes staring at these images. I was curating sounds. Curating images. I wouldn't call it creation because it was exploration through curation. Me, being the facilitator and synthesizer of information. Free. I was free to create now. Just an empty channel left to synthesize the information, I so carefully accumulated. I watched a couple movies. Black swan. I wanted to create something beautiful like that. Make beats and design costumes for my own black swan. I wasn't ready for that. I was ready to build the blocks though. I was ready to start my own journey. BEFORE YOU FALL. School starts. I'm only reminded of the mistakes. What could be better. I threw away all those images. It was time to seek some messages within. I zoned out from school, life, and only focused every ounce of my being into what I wanted to hear and feel in the atmosphere. The response I gave myself was a 13 track long reflection of the past few years. All the anger and heartbreak and hope and love and fear and courage that swelled. Something to remind myself "BEFORE YOU FALL"... 12/15
You're a tower of strength when you're breaking down But through the wall I can feel your cry
Tomorrow We Die Alive Tour @ The Assembly Music Hall
Tomorrow We Die Alive Tour @ The Assembly Music Hall
One week ago, I attended a brutal, skull-crushing, highlighted hair, tight pants wearing, metal concert with (headlining) Born Of Osiris, Thy Art Is Murder, Betraying the Martyrs, ERRA, Within the Ruins, and Before You Fall.
Oh mah gawsh
Let me tell you a story on how my day went.
First off, I had to drive to Sacramento twice that day; once for school and once for the concert because I had to…
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