My Life According To Me

Just a girl trying to figure it all out

[secretconversati0ns]

I want to be free of you, I'm just too afraid to know that if I go I can never come back to you

[secretconversati0ns]

I don't know if I can do this anymore - play these games with you. I just don't have it in me anymore.

Mine

[secretconversati0ns]

Sometimes, I think that maybe it was fate for me to fall in love with you just to have you walk away. I needed to learn how to crash and burn and rebuild.

Mine

[secretconversati0ns]

Please stop chasing me unless you know why you want to catch me

Mine

[lost-but-looking333]

"Why does it still feel like we are who we used to be whenever we're together? I can't help but think that you have a piece of my very soul and I will always be some kind of in love with you."

[secretconversati0ns]

“Standing here with you after all of this time feels like an out of body experience. Everything is so right yet so wrong all at once. You are a ghost of someone who I’m not sure exists anymore. You are a shell of a man who I used to be able to look at an know exactly how you were feeling. Now it’s as if I am dying slowly from each tiny cut you inflict upon me- never intentional and never enough to make me realize how much pain I am in until after the fact. Little things that hurt at the time but I can simply brush off until I am alone and finally realize just how much you have carved out of me. You never mean to do it which is the whole problem. Who can I be mad at other than myself for this whole mess? The version of you I knew is haunting me now as I look at you and realize just how much time has passed. I slowly feel you becoming a stranger and that may just be the worst wound you could have ever given me.”

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[secretconversati0ns]

“When I met you everything felt so easy, you birth butterflies inside of me and woke up my spirit. Slowly I began to feel myself falling into you but I thought that you might be strong enough to catch me. How was I supposed to know that eventually you would take a step back and I would come crashing down? Even now I see you and there is an uncertainty between us, I look at you and I can see that place I used to call home. Maybe all we have are memories sewing up together now, maybe I would be better off cutting the seam and separating us. Yet I can’t help but long for the place on your chest where I would lie and feel all my worries and demons melt away.”

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[secretconversati0ns]

““What do you want from me?” “I just want you.” “No - you don’t. So let me go in the meantime.”

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[secretconversati0ns]

“I can’t imagine belonging to someone else the same way I belong to him. He was right there next to me when the worst thing happened to me. How do I have that with another person? No one else will ever be able to take his place.”

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[secretconversati0ns]

“I think there are two types of love in the world. There is the kind of love that is safe and comfortable; then there are the loves that burn your life to the ground.”

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[secretconversati0ns]

“In the beginning you think that it will all be different. You think that maybe, just maybe, you found someone who knows you and somehow – impossibly, wants to stay anyway. Slowly it turns into so much more than you thought it would be. The boy you thought you could possibly like turns into the man who turned your life into so much more than you thought it could be. With him all the fairy tales and happily ever after crap doesn’t seem so far fetched after all. It seems perfect and just what you want until it comes apart before your very eyes.”

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[lost-but-looking333]

I hope you stay around for a long, long time. I think I want you in my life forever

unknown

[lost-but-looking333]

A daughter should not have to beg her father for a relationship

Rupi Kaur

[lost-but-looking333]

It always comes back to you. Boils, circles, itches its way back to you

Rupi Kaur

[lost-but-looking333]

I still miss you from time to time. What's changed is how I've begun to handle the missing, it passes. Much like a dizzy spell, I just have to wait until my vision and mind clear, and the aching clears too. That's how I healed. I woke up every day, cried or didn't, regained my balance, and went the hell on with my day, which eventually turned into me getting the hell on with my life.

Alicia Cook

[lost-but-looking333]

Together we are an endless conversation

Rupi Kaur

[lost-but-looking333]

And one morning, you will be looking at him sleeping peacefully  next to you, and you will thank God that it had never worked out with anyone else before

unknown