21 Dec 2018 Well Rod, I’ve survived the first 3 days in the cruise without you by my side physically. I’ve been keeping myself busy, remaining to pray daily and keep you just behind my eyes. It’s not so easy you know. You are the love of my life and it is taking some adjustment time..and I’m sure it’s not over. My sister is a good travel companion and I think she is also enjoying a break from her daily responsibilities. I miss you terribly Rodney and sometimes scoff at those who say “you are a strong woman”...the wind beneath my wings has gone dormant..how and I supposed to fly now? I’m learning Rod, like a baby bird..I’m striving each day, like the seagulls beside the boat, to find that new thermal current that can help me fly. I know it’s not new..it’s been there all along...each day and the thermals I find are new to me. Father God, I thank you for the time with my Rodney and giving me the strength to carry on one day at a time. Thank you for safe travels and also meaningful conversations and companionship with my sister Patricia during this cruise. Thank you for a loving family and friend network to help me. Thank you for sending Your Holy Spirit to me to comfort me. Thank You for your son Jesus who was born and who’s birth we celebrate now. Thank you for His ultimate sacrifice Jesus suffered for us. A sacrifice I can never repay. I thank you for the Grace to live and accept this And strive to be worthy. Father I ask that You continue to bless my Rodney in the mission You conferred upon on him. I ask that You bless the leaders of the USA and all of the countries with whom we have diplomatic relations and help us to get along. I ask that You send your Spirit to them and give them intuitive thought to do Your Will. I ask that You continue to give me intuitive thought as I live each day, and make decisions that will impact my life as I prepare for the next phase of my life without the physical presence of my Rodney. Amen, Sarah