Request: I'm totally down for a part 2. Maybe where Bellamy wakes up and you're gone to go fight and he watches guys hit on you while you're in your bra and shorts or something?
Pairing: Bellamy Blake x reader
Tags: @bellamyblakemorley
Warnings: sadness, angst. Just emotions I guess. And language. Language too.
A/N: this is part II of a bellamy x reader request, you can go here (part I) and check it out, and you can check my Masterlist here. Also, I'm sorry about the angst (°¬°#)
I woke up with someone spooning me from behind, his breathing fanning against my shoulder, causing me to feel shivers. A second later, I realized I had stayed in Bellamy's tent.
A part of me wanted to move, to get out of there before Bellamy woke up. Another part wanted to stay, to turn around and hug him until he woke up, like nothing had happened. Heart against guts.
I was trying to figure out what was the right thing to do when I felt his grip tightening around my waist and his head burying against my neck. "Y/n"
I heard Bellamy mumble my name and I froze. I attempted to turn around. Maybe he didn't let me, maybe I didn't let myself, knowing that it would be impossible to leave if I saw him there. "I'm here" I replied quietly but confident.
A kiss landed over my bare shoulder, and I instantly knew which was the right decision. "Don't leave" he mumbled, falling asleep once again. His grip loosened slightly and I knew it was now or never.
I moved his hands away as carefully as I could, and I stood up, silently getting out of the tent without looking back at him. I crashed into Clarke, earning a confused look from her as soon as she realized where I came from. "he was drunk, so I slept- just slept- with him"
I explained. She just nodded pursing her lips. I knew she was still suspicious, but I didn't have time for this, I had to go to training, and first I needed to change my clothes.
The first time I felt dizzy. I didn't know where I was or even if what was happening was real, or just another hallucination I had about Y/n due to the alcohol.
It happened sometimes. I imagined she forgave me, I imagined that she loved me again, that she hugged me and cuddled me to comfort me like she used to.
But this time was different. I felt numb about everything. About everything, but her. Her slow breaths against my chest, her fingertips caressing vaguely my jaw in her sleep, her legs intertwined with mines.
It was really, she was real. I looked over her shoulder and I could see the sun hadn't rise yet. I could enjoy her company a bit more, and maybe, just maybe, she'd stay with me until I woke up in the morning.
The second time I woke up, I felt her stiff in her place. She was awake, and she most probably regretted coming with me. I acted by instinct, kissing her shoulder, and mumbling some words I wouldn't even remember later.
Apparently, I should have stayed shut, because when I woke up the third time, she wasn't there. I knew she would leave in the morning, but a tiny part of me hoped she would be there.
It wasn't like I deserved her, after all, but I'm only human. Wishes were all I had. I wished to be better, I wished to be able to turn back time, I wished I could fix the mess I was in, but clearly that wasn't possible.
I sat up at the same time as my tent opened, letting in a too loud Raven, along with a too bright sun. "Rise and shine, Sleeping Beauty" she sang as I covered my eyes, throwing myself back to bed.
"Fuck off, Raven" I groaned with a husky voice. She had been the only one who kept caring after I started to drink.
"Eww! Disgusting" she said, and I turned around to see her throwing out a couple of moonshine bottles. "you brought Y/n here? Bellamy, this tent stinks." she pretended she was going to puke before signaling my tee "so does your clothes."
"Woah. Now that was just rude, Reyes." I grinned, taking off my tee, and throwing it towards her. "telling a drunk man he stinks." I got up slowly, feeling my headache growing as we got out of the tent.
"You" she poked my chest with her finger. "are NOT a man. Your a stupid being full of pity and regret and shit." she lectured me whilst picking a clean shirt and pushing it against me. "just talk to Y/n, Bellamy. This shit is getting really difficult to deal with."
I scoffed, looking away. "Y/n hates me. She won't let me talk to her." I said, putting on the shirt. I heard Raven laughing ironically and I looked at her again.
"Yeah, she cuddled you last night because she hates you" she said, shaking her head tired. "She's in the training room, sparring with the rest of the recruits."
And with that, she left me standing there. Could I really loose anything else at this point? Not really, so why wouldn't I try to talk to her? Maybe I feared the truth.
"That's the best you can do?" I asked asked teasingly, blocking another punch from Harper. Despite the multiple times she'd beaten me, I kept taunting her. I knew she was a better fighter, but I also knew I had better endurance.
"why don't you show me how to do it better, smartass?" She asked breathing heavily. I knew that was the moment and with a simple kick, Harper was on the floor, with me over her.
"That's better than just hitting, don't you think?" I asked as a grin fight it's way to Harper's face, accompanied by her eyes rolling. "C'mon, let's take a small break" I suggested, getting up from above her.
Harper mimicked my gestures at the same time as I heard claps behind me. I turned around to see a gorgeous boy smirking. "Cute and fierce, ladies and gentlemen" He said, and I could feel his eyes scanning my body, only covered by sportive bra and shorts.
"Darling, I'm way more than 'cute and fierce'." I said rolling my eyes and turning around. I was wiping the sweat away from my chest and shoulders when I heard the boy hum.
"Yeah, I can see it, sweetheart." I turned back to him, grinning, at the same time he got closer to me. Unbelievably. Closer. Yes, he was gorgeous, but that was my personal space.
I placed a hand over his chest, pushing him slightly away, and turning around again, putting on a loose tee. "I'm leaving okay? I'll see you later Harper" I said by to my friend and I walked towards the exit.
"Wait gorgeous." I heard the boy from before calling me. I stopped walking to tell him to leave me alone, not because he wasn't hot, but because of what happened earlier with Bellamy confused me.
"I don't want to wait, sorry." I whispered, opening the door. I felt the boy getting closer as I walked, leaning against my ear.
"whatever you say kitten" he whispered, pulling away abruptly. He winked with a smirk on his face and walked away. "If you change your mind, I'd love to see you in that bra again."
"Asshole." I muttered rolling my eyes. It wasn't the first time some random boy tried to flirt with me during a training session, but it bothered the same. I was ready to walk away when I caught Bellamy staring at me.
I smiled and he smiled back, maybe a little bit too forcefully. As soon as I started to approach him, he walked towards his tent. I cursed myself when I realized I kept walking towards his tent, not fast, but I did it.
My courage dissappeared just as fast as it had come when I saw a boy flirting with Y/n whilst she was training. I couldn't blame the boy, she looked so damn hot, and I wasn't jealous either. I was just sad that I lost her, that I was stupid enough to lose her.
I exited the training room, but like the coward I was, I stayed near the door, waiting for her to get out. However it wasn't a good idea, since I saw how the boy practically kissed Y/n's ear. I was in shock, not knowing what to do, too focused on my emotions to realize Y/n had noticed me.
She smiled and I tried to smile back. God knows I tried. She deserved all the smiles in the world. But I couldn't give it to her, it was more like a grimace. I quickly turned around and walked fast towards my tent, getting in as soon as possible.
It wasn't until I sat in my bed that I felt the tears running down my cheeks. Could this be worse? Yeah, of course it could. Suddenly Y/n entered in the tent, her smile turning into a worried gaze. I wiped the tears wishing she wouldn't have entered.
"Bellamy, what's wrong?" I asked getting inside hesitant. The night before I had been too tired and that morning I had been too shocked, but now I realized how bad the situation was.
"I-" he muttered, but his voice broke before he could say anything. He then shrugged bitting his lips, and he looked down. "don't worry about it."
I frowned, getting closer to him. I didn't even think before letting my arms embrace him. For some reason, he remained stiff, not sure about hugging me. "I worry. I'll always worry about you Bell."
I heard him sob before his arms snaked around my waist. "I'm sorry Y/n. I-I'm so sorry" he mumbled, finally breaking in tears "I hurt you and t-that was m-my biggest mistake."
"Shh" I hushed him, running my fingers through his hair to calm him down. "I know you're sorry, we'll fix this. Now relax" I felt him nodding slowly his hands gripping my tee. "I've got you Bell."