Thursday. May 10, 2018
Hello.
This may be for you. Or may be just for me.
I am about to state some facts that are super surface level and lack the great depth that I know it does it in my head. It is basically my prep talk to by myself as I stand with a towel around my waist talking to a foggy mist mirror image of myself.
You did not get into graduate school this year.. again. Wait.. you do not know yet. You are still waiting on one more school. However, this whole thing is really taking a trip on you. It is graduation season so everyone is graduating and getting graduate school, and you.. just spent the night eating wings with your dad. And your best friend in this entire lifetime is no longer with you.
What is the point in trying anymore? Maybe its not in the cards for you. Maybe your pushing on a wall instead of a door. Maybe you’re not smart enough. Maybe you didn’t try as hard as your talked about. Maybe you just aren’t ready. Nothing is wrong with you. Life happens. Oh boy, does it happen. You are on a total different journey than the person you think is running the same race you are. They are not. So please stop comparing apples to oranges.. although they are both fruit.
It is not so black and white as you think it is. You are more than your GPA, GRE score, three letters of rec., academic resume, or your personal statement! Ok, maybe you are little bit of your personal statement.. But did you really put your all in it? Did you do your best? Ok, the only thing you cannot change is your GPA.. but you can improve on the other four things! 4 out 5 is not bad at all.
Continue this rant later. Bye.