Psst + dream
three things i’ve always wanted to tell you.
one → sometimes i feel guilty for staying at yours in the summer hols. they won’t say it, but it’s harder to be under the more intensive focus of our parents when one of us is away. still, i wouldn’t give up that time for the whole world. i didn’t really understand what it was like to be around parents who were proud of you unconditionally until i met yours. & knowing that warmth now extends to me… it’s something i keep close to my heart. a mere ‘thank you’ isn’t really enough, even though you say you don’t even need that much.
two → your mum has asked me about my intentions towards you twice. once, because she was concerned, me being older and far more world weary. but the second time i think i heard a hopeful tinge in her voice? i told her that we were nothing more than friends, because it was the truth. i’ve never considered that path between us. you’ve always been brighter & meant for better things than me, but i don’t have the heart to let you know.
three → sometimes i wish i was born a muggle. but then, i don’t think all muggle families are like yours? just the really good ones. & alice has a good family too. not that mine isn’t good. our parents love us, & we have never wanted anything. but the pressure of their subtle ambitions for us… i don’t think your parents have ever asked you to be more than what you are. sometimes i wish we were born siblings, but i could never leave micah & edgar. still, you’re a good brother, benjy.
three wishes i have.
one → to be more selfless.
two → to make my parents proud, & to protect micah from having to do so himself.
three → to be brave.
