#benoit headcanon

[pastelbenny]

Benoit Headcanon #9:

Where it had previously been decided that Benoit was a sad mumbling drunk--it's actually quite the opposite now, after a bit of thinking.

He's an honest, stupid drunk who somehow miraculously figures out how to say everything he hasn't been able to say while in the right of mind.

While he doesn't drink much, he does have drinking games with Aman every once in a while--usually betting on something.

What can ya say, neither likes to lose.

[pastelbenny]

Aman: "I just pictured you with a small, quiet, petite woman."

Benoit: "Well. Morris is /quite/ the opposite of small and quiet. And a woman."

Aman: "He /is/ kind of petite, though."

Benoit: "Kind of..."

[pastelbenny]

Sexuality and Love Headcanons~!

For the lovely trio~ [under readmore because sexystuffs and it's long because I ramble. a lot.]

Benoit:

Get ready for the most complicated sexuality you've ever heard |D

Benoit is Asexual Demi-panromantic. WOW, Nia what the heck does that mean. I'm sure you all know what Asexual means--it means Benoit doesn't care for sex. He's neither sexually attracted to anybody nor does he ever feel the need to do anything sexual. As for the demi-panromantic part, Benoit can only fall in love--or not can, but rather, he only falls in love after he's already formed some sort of emotional attachment to someone. Love at first sight is an impossibility for him. This is exactly what happened between him and his current partner 8V And then panromantic because he makes no real differentiation between sexes, and because there's more of an attraction towards emotion and personality than the sex of his partner. Being demiromantic, it doesn't really matter to him regardless, but he does have the capability to fall in love with either a female or a male or anything in between.

Now, Benoit isn't averted to the idea of having sex, I'll have you know. For Benoit it's mostly just with the fact that for him, a relationship neither needs sex nor should be based around it in order to be able to function and, well, be a good relationship. For Benny-boy, simply the fact that both people are romantically and emotionally invested into each other is enough. However, if he does feel enough emotional and romantic investment in his partner, and his partner is interested in having sex...well, then he'll do it. Because in that sort of scenario, sex is more than just the act of pleasing one another--it's a sort of bonding that goes beyond emotional and romantic bonding. 

Benoit, when he was younger and still studying, had gotten asked out a lot by members of all sexes and genders. He turned down every one of them, and he never had a crush on anybody. So the relationship he's in right now is his first.

I guess you can call him a hopeless romantic when he does fall in love. And I can promise you he's is quite hopelessly in love right now. Aha. And to get it out of the way, though I have said it before--Benoit is not a virgin.

Cerise:

Cerise's sexuality is a bit easier to explain...mostly because I went through the whole problem of explaining a ton of it in Benoit's. Cerise is Asexual, Panromantic. Meaning, again, they have no interest in sex nor are they sexually attracted to someone. Their attraction towards Yolyamanitzin, for example, is purely emotional and romantic. Panromantic because, again, they make no differentiation between sexes--what Cerise basically ends up falling in love with is a person's personality and manner of being, instead of their sex or their looks. However, unlike Benoit, Cerise can fall in love a lot easier.

Just like Benoit, Cerise doesn't feel the need to have some sort of sexual relationship with their partner should they ever have one, but should their partner desire it and they be emotionally invested in them enough, they will have sex with their partner.

Cerise never really had a crush on anybody else other than Yolyamanitzin. They met him when they were 10, and has since then always kind of had their eye on him. When they were 17, Cerise had their first kiss--they kissed Aman, but has then since been somewhat convinced that Aman doesn't like them...Little do they know 8'V

Yolyamanitzin:

Has the easiest sexuality...kind of. He's Pansexual. God, Nia, every one of your characters is Pan-something. I know, I know. Truth be told this trio is the first pan-anything I've had. Most of the time I stick to homo-, hetero-, or asexual homo/hetero-romantic. Go easy on meh 8'V

Anyways, Aman...He's pansexual because a person's sex or gender makes no difference to him. So long as you're a good person with a charming personality he's likely to fall for you. And yes he's actually sexually attracted to some people...so I will get it out of the way now but if I said he didn't have sexual fantasies or dreams about Cerise I'd be lying. That being said, he tried to keep them in check when he was still living under the Delacroix's roof. Luckily when he admitted that he was in love with Cerise, he had already moved out and was living on his own 8D

Now, because of the conditions that Aman had been living in from ages 6 to 16, he never really had the chance to really explore his sexuality or anything, since he was either too busy trying to stay alive or tending to his wounds. It was because of Cerise's general positive air that he fell so hard over the youngest Delacroix.

However...There is a six-year age-gap between the two. So, if you guys have ever missed it--Aman was 16 when Cerise was 10.

...Think you can figure out why Aman hasn't yet declared his love for the youngest Delacroix? >_> From the moment he turned 18, and Cerise 12...Basically speaking, their relationship would have been illegal for 6 years |D So he's way overly self-conscious about that fact. Of course, now Cerise is 20 and Aman is 26...but he still feels really awkward about it.

He had quite a bit of an emotional attachment to Cerise when they were younger because they essentially saved his life. The attraction he felt towards Cerise was mostly already growing since then...he always knew he liked Cerise a little more than someone would normally like somebody...but he always tried to keep it in check. It was only when he was finally 21 and they was 15, that he gave into his feelings and just admitted it to himself. He had fallen in love with Cerise Delacroix. 

He lost his first kiss to them when he was 23. That being said...he didn't get the clue 8V

And all the flirting he does with people? That's...simply because he's weird and likes to flatter people. He never does it seriously and if people seriously thought he was coming onto them he'll make it clear that it wasn't any more than casual flattering. Then he'll probably feel bad about it later.

[pastelbenny]

5, 15, 25, 40 BD

5: Cleanliness habits (personal, workspace, etc.)

Benoit is a neat freak like nobody's business. However, he's only OCD when it comes to cleanliness. His cabin is really neat and orderly and it's very easy to find things in it. If he had an office everything would probably be color-coded, by size, alphabet, etc...

Otherwise he's usually just really obsessive about keeping clean. He will not tolerate any dirtiness in his cabin. Dishes are always clean, no plant pots are shifted out of their spot, no chair is left pulled out, etc. 8'V He gets stressed out if it's dirty.

15: Biggest and smallest short term goal?

Moop! Answered for Benny, so let's do Aman 8D His biggest short-term goal would be...probably...wow. Staying alive |D And making sure he helps as many other stay alive as possible.

As for his smallest--eventually confessing his love for Cerise. Eventually. Ya know...some time soon 8V Before something bad happens to either of them *cough*

25: How do they see themselves 5 years from today?

Hopefully not dead--for Benoit. And preferably not blind but that's not looking likely *shot for unintentional pun*. By then he'll hope he would have found out how to accommodate to his blindness. And maybe, ya know...[spoilers.]

40: How misanthropic are they?

//casually looks up that word. Oh. I should have figured it out from the "anthropic" part.

Well. Benoit...is...neutral, I guess? Towards people? He doesn't see most people as an obstacle, but he does view them as a distraction from his goals more often than not, so he stays away "for his own good." At least when it comes to forming relationships with others. Which is why, for all of his life, he never had a significant other nor tried to really delve into romantic relationships [until now]. He only stuck with what he had--Cerise, Aman, and his parents [and later Jeremiah Rook]. Otherwise, he enjoys people-watching and stuff...after all, he's interested in human psychology and behavior 8V He's awkward as fudge, though. He might have the knowledge but he doesn't have the practice...at all.

[pastelbenny]

38 for Benoit? c:

[[whoops didn't realize that this was 38 again 8'D //shamelessly copy-pastes]]

38: What recharges them when they’re feeling drained?

If Benny’s feeling tired, he’ll either go out on a short jog around the track, or take a cold shower if he’s feeling really tired. He usually turns to jogging, though, and then taking an ice-cold shower afterwards. If he’s feeling too tired to do that, he’ll just take a short, 15-minute power nap. Then he'll get up and get to work |D Jogs tho. Jogs most of the time.

[pastelbenny]

15 & 30 for anyone~!

15: Biggest and smallest short term goal?

If we’re talking current moment, for Benoit, his biggest short-term goal is to get out of this entire mess alive 8D His smallest short-term goal would be to…ahem. [spoilers.]

30: Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies)

just realized I did answer this already for Benny.

So let’s answer this for Aman. How did he react when he was six years old, and his father never came home? Confused, worried. But that was Aman from 20 years ago. If that were to happen today, say, if Benoit or Cerise were to die, he wouldn’t get stereotypically sad about it—he’d get angry. And Aman’s raw anger is terrifying. He’d probably punch anybody that’d be around him, punch a few walls, break a few things, all while crying. Then he’d probably end up just collapsing and curling up…and cry.

But then he'd get up like he never had his little episode--probably apologize for any broken noses--and make it his goal to "live for those who didn't get to." His motivation level to do things would skyrocket.

[pastelbenny]

22 and 38

22: Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?

Benoit would…probably write out any dessert recipes for anything that have been boiling up in his mind, and try to figure out new ways to decorate cakes, pies, etc. By the end of the nothing-to-do-ness, the paper would be covered by cake recipes and somewhat detailed techniques for cake decorating, and doodles for more desserts.

38: What recharges them when they’re feeling drained?

When Cerise is feeling drained…they literally just…sleep. Either that or make themself some sort of tea. Being around more energetic people helps a lot, too. So oftentimes Cerise stalks Aman while he’s at work and bothers him—and usually his energy alone is enough to help them feel more energetic. Ahahaha.

[pastelbenny]

You see a small light coming from the room. It's slightly ajar and you can't help but to peek your head in. Lo and behold it's the same tablet that was on the bed the other day, so sneakily you wander in and poke at the notes journal and find a rather intriguing note...it was written quite some time ago, about half a year ago, but you decide to read it anyways...

Recently, my feelings, my emotions--everything has been running haywire. I can't really think straight and I've been having panic attacks a lot more recently...

I don't think I've ever experienced this type of feeling before.

You see...at first it started out as a simple run-in. It happens a lot with me, people don't see where they're going--or I don't see where I'm going--and we simply bump into each other. You know...I thought it was the same thing going on and whatnot. We ended up running into each other again at the gym and the idiot busted their shoulder...

Honestly I would have thought nothing of this first encounter had it not happened again...and again. It happened three times. In the same corner. At the same corner. First time they ran into me. Next day they bowled me over and I got a minor concussion. Then the next day I ran into them.

But by the second encounter I was already...starting to feel a little odd. Probably because by then they'd already called me a "friend"...but also because of what I thought felt like a kiss when I fell asleep...

The kiss was proved to have actually happened when I bumped into them again.

And this, well...

...I don't know what to think. My heart races when I think of them, and my head seems to hurt. I've never felt like this before and it's honestly getting a bit on my nerves. When I think of that stupid smile on their face, their voice, their touch...their lips...

Fuck I don't even know what's going on anymore. Apparently they're going to come over for the day of Camaraderie but I...I really...don't...

I don't want them to.

This is already stressing me out and I don't know what I'll do if they do end up coming over...

Regardless the Day of Camaraderie is always the most stressful for me so I don't even know what the hell I'm going to do if they do end up coming over.

Just.

Fuck.

This is all so confusing...I'm so confused.

I don't know what to think.

[[the entry ends there and you're a bit curious as to what it ended up leading to. So you press the small arrow at the top to go to the next note, written a few days after this one, and you find only a single sentence written on it: ]]

...I think I'm in love.