#bent15

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Overview

Hello everyone,

Here is a overview of myself and what I plan to post/share on here. 

First thing: This is just an avenue to help me get things off my chest that are hard for me to talk about to people in person

Second: This page is a judgment free, open minded page

Third: I hope to inspire, improve and just spread good vibes through this.

I’m a 26yr old white male. Who lives with in his parents basement (it’s a long story why.) I have a son who is my life and makes me try hard to do good in my life. 

I have dealt with depression my entire life and this is the first time telling to to everyone. Served in the United States Marine Corps as a Field Radio Operator. This profession led to my PTSD and increased anxiety. I haven’t been to a Doctor for any of these conditions as I don’t agree with how current society deals and treats conditions like mine. I just smoke marijuana to help combat my conditions.  

I’m currently a first year student at a local college with a Liberal Arts Major, also working a part time job.

Continue to follow my journey to see if I can put my thoughts to test in improving my life.  

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Entry #5

How do you stay motivated throughout the day? Throughout the week? A year? Your lifetime?

I just try to take one day at a time trying to fight off negatives with thinking of how does it truly impact and effect my life? Doing this helps me get through my days when I can feel darkness creeping up on me. Just think of what I have and be grateful for what I have compared to millions of other human beings in the world.

Don’t take for granted each day you have. Don’t put off something saying, “oh I can do it tomorrow.” What if tomorrow doesn’t come for you? Get the things you need to get done, done and once your done with everything you need to do, then start to work on improving your life. When you do start improving yourself in what ever way, shape or form don’t let anyone get in your way. Make yourself you and not as someone else sees you and wants to see you as.

The hard part of this process for myself is the putting motivation into each day. I struggle with becoming and being lazy. I have been trying to think of ways to help start motivation in my day and continue it throughout the day. I personally don’t take naps any day because of this reason. I hate having to re-wake up in a day after just wasting time sleeping when I could have been doing something productive in my day.

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Entry #2

Pause.....

UP, UP, DOWN, DOWN, LEFT, RIGHT, LEFT, RIGHT, B, A.......START

Well here I start again. 

Instead of me just rambling I’m going to do more of a list.

Changes: My living needs to change, in a big way. Wanting to sell everything I own trade in my truck and get a van. Convert it to be able to live in. Then on weeks when I don’t have my son, I would take off and travel to different places. Huge amount of moving parts is involved with this but it’s exactly what I want to do and it will happen.

Body and mind, I recently lost a good amount of weight to get to in my mind the weight I want to be at. BUT that’s not the end. I want to continue to shape my body into a healthy machine with the end goal of running a half Iron man. I plan to sign up for a full marathon next year. I started doing 30mins of yoga every day, which in my opinion everyone on this planet should do. I can’t even put into words the feeling I feel after I get done with only 30mins of beginner yoga. 

I need to continue to be mentally strong. Without this I slip into bad ruts or some might consider ditches. Having positive vibes and having people with good vibes around me. 

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